Roll Call 201

This guy I met in residential and is going to the same IOP as me is letting me stay at his house for a couple days. He lives much closer to the IOP, claims to be and seems to be committed to recovery, so I think it'll be good to get away from this place for a bit. I just have to not be a bad influence

Weening myself off most my meds too. Even my pdoc said the residential overmedicated me (three antipsychotics, two anticonvulsants, two benzos, prazosin, and amantadine), but I don't want to wait on her limited availability to taper. Already did away with Vraylar since I was only on 3mg and it has a really long half life so I shouldn't have withdrawals.

I don't have work again until Sunday yay.

Plans for my days off:

sleep
sleep
sleep
go to the library
Practice violin a lot
Catch up on some shows
Play games
Spend time with my bf
Catch up on all my laundry and household chores
Play with my cats, I feel like I haven't given them enough attention lately and feel bad for being gone from home for long hours
Maybe meal prep this weekend for sunday through saturday, I have 4 shifts.. When I say meal prepping I basically mean making hamburger helper

Other than that just relax and try to enjoy time spent not being productive. Read my books. Drink coffee from my new keurig. Oh and my sister and I are having lunch at Dennys on Saturday

Made a vegan stew for dinner. Sweet potato, chickpea, and spinach. Yummy!

I was going to go to this market on Sunday but apparently it was only four small tents and the lineup was like an hour and a half, so I went to the Ethiopian food truck and went home. Food was so good! I bought an Ethiopian cookbook and am waiting for it now. I’m inspired.

I went to physiotherapist today for my arm. Got exercises and stuff to do. Hopefully it gets back to normal quickly. Have like some kind of tendonitis in my forearm.

Anyway not much else.

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That looks really good cogladaid! I really want to learn how to cook. I don't know where to start though

I hope things go well with coming off some of the meds

Oh and if work calls I'm ignoring them because I'm not scheduled till Sunday. Normally I don't mind picking up/covering shifts now and then but I just did two long *** back to back shifts on zero sleep doing something really stressful and intense so I'm not available for awhile, I don't have to answer

Sounds like you have some good plans going for you

Oh and I'm spending my next couple paychecks on something fun. (a Nintendo Switch OLED) I have the original V1 Nintendo Switch from the year the Nintendo Switch was first released and it's old and the battery is really bad now. So yeah a big upgrade and some new games

I think a stew would be a good start! Basically you cut things up, throw it in a pot and stir it every so often until it’s done.

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It is cold. And I am a

Bad, broken brain.

No jk - Had a nice time with my aunt and uncle. They're visiting for 3 days - It's good. We talked a lot, and it helped ^-;

I took a 5mg olanzepine, just to keep my mind together.

I overslept and missed my volunteer shift so I apologized to the person in charge of kitten angels and told them I unfortunately couldn’t continue with them at least for now but hope to come back someday. Due to work being so unpredictable. They called me in to work today from 12pm to 5pm so I’m gonna be doing that today :/

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Hugs bluebird

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It sucks but I’m gonna use the extra time to spend time with my cats because I feel like they haven’t been getting enough attention lately due to me being gone so much

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I hope you'll get plenty of rest. Lots of hugs.

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I have a stupid cough. It's just hanging on and on. I took a very quick shower and I skipped my hair. I don't know if I posted about my haircut, it's like the best one I've had in my life. Lots of layers and I got rid of almost all the length. About 3 weeks ago. I love it. Anyway, I didn't wash my hair and the CNA is like, "your hair is dry!" I said I know, I didn't wash my hair. Why don't they just leave me alone.

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I’m glad you’re happy with your haircut Angelique!

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Just got home. Stopped at the little pizza place across the street from my apartment when I got home from work. Got a slice of pizza and a can of coke. $3 total no change. Huge slice of pizza like bigger than my face. Good deal. I was hungry cause I haven’t eaten since breakfast and it’s 6pm now. So I’m eating that now. I work tomorrow from 12pm to 7pm

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Played the magic the gathering card game with my bf tonight. Now am just relaxing and listening to music. We’re gonna watch some anime later. I feel pretty good.

Somebody picked up their $500 layaway today at work (all clothes) and it was huuuuge and a nightmare to deal with plus they did 4 methods of payment for it.

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Overwhelmed by work honestly. I was slacking and it’s biting me in the *** now. Sometimes I just can’t focus and do anything, then it piles up and I struggle to catch up.

On Friday night I worked until 1030pm because we were short people and everyone wanted a rush done ASAP.

Today I worked for a few hours, then had a meeting, then a team lunch, then another meeting. I didn’t feel like I did too much so I got home around 3pm and aside from cooking fish and then eating and taking the dogs for a walk I worked until 8pm.

Tomorrow I do some training for someone. On Thursday I have to train on something with someone else.

This admin person on our team quit and her last day is on Friday so they’re delegating the stuff she worked on to the rest of us. So two of my coworkers will be doing the bulk of it, which leaves me handling all quotes that come in. Which hopefully isn’t too crazy. Seven account managers across the two provinces, and we’re into the last quarter of the year where there’s a push to get sales…

But hey, it is what it is. Crying about it isn’t going to change it. Just gotta deal with it. Trying not to stress too much.

To be fair… I hate being bored at work so at least I’ll be busy instead of bored!

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Going to start buying clothes with my employee discount at my job, build up my wardrobe. They have nice clothes for good prices. Plus the emplyee discount. So it'd be a good idea to take advantage of that. I am buying a hoodie on this Saturday. Next Friday my big paycheck comes in and I'm gonna buy a bunch of clothes. Same thing the following week after that.

Good morning, up early, it's 4am, couldn't get back to sleep so am up for the day now. Got work from 12pm to 7pm so am going to head out to the bus stop around 10:40am.

I get paid friday, it's for last week, last week I only worked 7 hours so it won't be a lot. But next week I get paid for 25 plus hours of work this week. It has sucked and been hard but I'm happy I've done it, that paycheck will be my biggest one yet.

I'm probably gonna stop at the pizza place again when I get off work tonight to buy a slice of pizza to take home. Cause I know I won't feel up to preparing anything to eat after a 7 hour shift and I won't be home till like 8pm so it will be late and I'll be tired. It's like $1.50 for a slice and they're huge. Probably skipping the soda this time though because I'm trying to drink more water.

Anyway, yeah should be a good day. I don't work again after tonight until Sunday unless they call me in. If they do I'll probably take it. I've worked 25 hours this week so far (after todays shift)

In general I feel good about working. It's not easy but I'm glad I'm doing it. I am sorry if I complained a lot the past few days. Two back to back shifts on no sleep doing inventory for 13 hours was a nightmare, plus that corporate lady showing up and rushing everyone and getting mad at people because they wanted the entire store scanned and counted by a certain time. But now that that's over I'm back to cashiering and it's not nearly as bad. Thankfully inventory is only like 4 times a year I think. Hopefully next time they do inventory I'm not on it.

Maybelle after having her breakfast today

I feel anxious today

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I woke up early this morning. Got out of bed at 10am. Still doing things with me aunt and uncle - It's super fun! They're really kind, understanding, comfortable people.

I spent a few hours, just talking about philosophical thoughts with my uncle (He's really smart) - He said that he started to have the same thoughts at age ~30, and finally (After 20 years), things are mostly figured out.

So it will be a fun next 20 years.. By that time, I shall be successful..

I have different opinions now too about political views.. It's not as bad as I make it out to be.

60mg of Vyvanse and 20mg of Dexedrine (In the morning) is kind of a harsh dose to use to wake up (Barely does anything, but is helpful). Not sure what to do about it. 20mg of Dexedrine (At 1-2pm) gives good focus for the rest of the day... I'm grateful I guess. I just wish I had PRN doses - Cuz I take 1-2 extra days worth of capsules once a month, so refill them every 29 days instead of 30. I usually repay the debt the next day though.

The antipsychotic is zero problem.. Off olanzepine, on Invega.
Atenolol twice a day.. Stops physical anxiety..
Lowest dose of pregabalin.. Helps quite a bit with depression and apathy
Zopiclone.. Sleep med, works really well
PRN clonazepam.. Rarely use it anymore

And drugs?;
A mild antidepressant - Similar to weed (But less relaxing, more comfortable, and no "weed ideas").
Medicinal mush (Microdose, very rarely)
Medicinal R/S-ket isomers (Don't really use anymore).
Phenibut (Replaced with pregabalin - But I'll take a low dose sometimes, when I am to be social).
One coffee a day, and lots of nicotine gum.

Having my lunch break right now. On the sales floor today

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