[bluekoi]

New roll call here. Welcome!

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[Desoxyn]

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Is that chatGPT (haha I'm afraid of mentioning it). It's like the new calling card these days (that I still haven't used yet). I am afraid of it.

[WastingAsparagus]

It also seems like Chatgpt would be purely empirical, so it wouldn't have anything new to offer (correct me if I'm wrong)...

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

It also seems like Chatgpt would be purely empirical, so it wouldn't have anything new to offer (correct me if I'm wrong)...

It also seems like if you ask it philosophical questions, the answers would be quite flimsy philosophically speaking. What do you all think?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

It also seems like if you ask it philosophical questions, the answers would be quite flimsy philosophically speaking. What do you all think?

I think that is usually the case In most places anyway.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

It also seems like Chatgpt would be purely empirical, so it wouldn't have anything new to offer (correct me if I'm wrong)...

This isn’t really true because chat gpt makes stuff up including citations….it would be better if it didn’t have anything new but instead it lies.

[Blue_Bird]

My friend and I have been talking for several hours a day every day. The one I dated right when I finished high school. We went to the same high school. He was in the army when we were dating so we didn’t see each other too often. I did visit him while he was in basic training in Georgia. And we spent time together back home when we were both in Kentucky.

Anyway, our relationship was kind of hard to maintain, he was deployed in Kuwait so it made things difficult. He’s not in the army anymore. We have both been in toxic relationships in the past, but our relationship was healthy for both of us, it was just complicated at the time with him being deployed.

Anyway we both admitted we still have feelings for each-other. No idea where this will go. We’re taking things very slow because we rushed things last time. He’s a great guy, we have so much to talk about and discuss, it’s like we never run out of things to talk about. Have so much in common.

Anyway, it’s been nice. I don’t know where this will go but we will see how things go, just taking our time.

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[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

My friend and I have been talking for several hours a day every day. The one I dated right when I finished high school. We went to the same high school. He was in the army when we were dating so we didn’t see each other too often. I did visit him while he was in basic training in Georgia. And we spent time together back home when we were both in Kentucky.

Anyway, our relationship was kind of hard to maintain, he was deployed in Kuwait so it made things difficult. He’s not in the army anymore. We have both been in toxic relationships in the past, but our relationship was healthy for both of us, it was just complicated at the time with him being deployed.

Anyway we both admitted we still have feelings for each-other. No idea where this will go. We’re taking things very slow because we rushed things last time. He’s a great guy, we have so much to talk about and discuss, it’s like we never run out of things to talk about. Have so much in common.

Anyway, it’s been nice. I don’t know where this will go but we will see how things go, just taking our time.

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That’s awesome bluebird 😊

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

My friend and I have been talking for several hours a day every day. The one I dated right when I finished high school. We went to the same high school. He was in the army when we were dating so we didn’t see each other too often. I did visit him while he was in basic training in Georgia. And we spent time together back home when we were both in Kentucky.

Anyway, our relationship was kind of hard to maintain, he was deployed in Kuwait so it made things difficult. He’s not in the army anymore. We have both been in toxic relationships in the past, but our relationship was healthy for both of us, it was just complicated at the time with him being deployed.

Anyway we both admitted we still have feelings for each-other. No idea where this will go. We’re taking things very slow because we rushed things last time. He’s a great guy, we have so much to talk about and discuss, it’s like we never run out of things to talk about. Have so much in common.

Anyway, it’s been nice. I don’t know where this will go but we will see how things go, just taking our time.

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That's great, Blue_Bird!

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[Angelique67]

What happened to roll call 198? It was closed before it reached 700 posts.

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[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

What happened to roll call 198? It was closed before it reached 700 posts.

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Yeah I was very confused by that too

[Desoxyn]

I decided to skip the atenolol this morning and oh goddd... I had more energy.. But my hands are shaking. My resting heart rate is 120bpm.

I'm an idiot - I took the atenolol just now. I should especially be off the stimulant before stopping the beta blocker.. How did I not think of that.. I don't think things 100% through + Suicidal thoughts last night.. I felt great..

And I exercised, climbed mountains last summer.. I'll be doing that again this summer. I was fine.. I don't want to mess that up.

Hopefully my heart damage from stimulant abuse (When I was younger) is MILD... And can be fixed by regular exercise..

Stimulant abuse can cause sinus tachycardia (I finally had ChatGPT to tell me, cuz Googling was useless for that).

I stopped the stimulant for around a year before starting the beta blocker.. So it was okay to add the stimulant again.. And I started antipsychotics before I started the stimulant (Before that). I'm an odd psychiatric case.

Life is difficult. I don't want to stop the stimulant.. I was doing fine, no problems... I keep messing everything up though. Although I mess up much less.

RIP. Don't misuse ur stim, benzo or opioid

[Desoxyn]

Not sure if it kicked in yet, but it's 100bpm now.. Maybe it was work. I was non-stop basically exercising, busiest it's ever been.

I hope so =[

[cogladaid]

Not sure why the other thread was closed but I’m here now!

Had Brie, habanero jelly, and crackers along with a shrimp ring for lunch. Some Pringles. And my sister is making a seafood boil for dinner.

Meatless Good Friday!

Did some shopping this morning which tired me out. Now time to have a few drinks.

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[Desoxyn]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

What happened to roll call 198? It was closed before it reached 700 posts.

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I've likely angered the admins (I still love them though). I didn't intend for my reality to be this way - As I was born.. and then what.. What happened before then.. The 1990's. But WHERE was I then.. Distributed energy and particles, DNA of plants using it all, all from the sun. It's all derivatives from the same DNA. Where did the DNA come from... That is the general mystery of life.

Where am I, how did I get here, what do I do about it.

[Desoxyn]

My heart rate is now 84bpm, even though I took the afternoon Dexedrine (All because the beta blocker kicked in).

Do u understand? =/

[Desoxyn]

I am happy to be alive RN

And happy that you are all alive too o.-

Edit: But u have to feel alive, that's the problem. Sometimes, waiting a bit while in the grey overcast room is okay (If it's not for too long).

And of course, there's rooms that the owners of society don't want us to go into... But we all always will (Read that again, and remember..).

"According to some Gnostic myths [2], in the beginning there existed one true and omnipotent God composed only of spirit. This God continues to exist but is so superior to humanity as to be incomprehensible. This divine spirit reproduced, forming other divine but lesser [3] spirits in the form of couples sometimes called ?aeons.?"

- Idk. It's all complicated, and I can get tired of all of this. *I don't mean to start a religious conversation. God why am I so ...*

[Blue_Bird]

So we’re officially dating. He makes me really happy. We’re both very happy with each other. We’re making plans for him to come visit me then for me to go visit him. Kind of take turns visiting each other for now , while we take things slow and see where it goes.

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[Blue_Bird]

Video chatted for a few hours tonight.

I can sincerely say I have not been this happy in years, we’ve both grown up a lot and matured and changed in good ways since we last dated 10 years ago.

Between this, volunteering, getting ready to apply for jobs, and going back to college in September and being stable in my meds, I’m very happy

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[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Video chatted for a few hours tonight.

I can sincerely say I have not been this happy in years, we’ve both grown up a lot and matured and changed in good ways since we last dated 10 years ago.

Between this, volunteering, getting ready to apply for jobs, and going back to college in September and being stable in my meds, I’m very happy

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So happy for you!!!

[Sometimes psychotic]

The bfs half bro is experiencing psychosis and his dad is taking steps to get him involuntary committed. He’s calling people late at night and either playing music or threatening them. The bf thinks he knows what he’s doing so that it’s somehow the brothers fault and I keep explaining he might not even be aware or at least aware all of the time. The whole thing is pretty triggering because I realize he would probably blame me if I ever became psychotic again.

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[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

The bfs half bro is experiencing psychosis and his dad is taking steps to get him involuntary committed. He’s calling people late at night and either playing music or threatening them. The bf thinks he knows what he’s doing so that it’s somehow the brothers fault and I keep explaining he might not even be aware or at least aware all of the time. The whole thing is pretty triggering because I realize he would probably blame me if I ever became psychotic again.

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That’s sad, I’m sorry that’s going on I hope his brother gets the help he needs

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[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

So happy for you!!!

Thanks! I didn’t think I’d ever date again. It’s been 10 years since I’ve dated. I’m 28 but I honestly thought I’d spend the rest of my life not dating lol it got pretty lonely but I was content with being alone but then I realized if I’m with the right person it can be wonderful

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[MuddyBoots]

I can finally say I've had two days in a row now that I haven't had any significant psychotic symptoms. The Vraylar is kicking in and the Haldol is working and I am appreciating the clarity and focus.