[blackdragon]

Well last nite i got into an argument with my mom. over cigarettes.. I just picked up an empty pack and opened it up and looked inside. I knew it was empty but SHE freaked. She started saying How about i look through your ***** and see how it feels. I said its just a empty pack of cigs she says I DONT CARE. ugh.. I had to work a nite shift in a couple hours that day so i did not speak out i just took the ***** she gave. Well after a hour of complete screaming i went up into my room and slit my right wrist... It felt good at the time but i did not realized it was so deep. the cut would not close and stop bleeding. all i used to stop the bleeding was a sock... I went to work with long sleves on and a scrunchy tight on the spot with my shirt sleeve down. Well when i went to work ( i work in a Nursing home) i went and talked to my friend about it. She talked to me and said that when i go to the psychologist (which i dont want to go to) to tell them everything from the rapid mood swings through out the day to how my mom is and how bad she can be...... well this cut is still not closed but it stoped bleeding and very sore. i got it wraped up in gauze and many bracelets around it to hide the bandage... man was i stupid

[TheOrganicAngel]

(((((((blackdragon)))))))

I'm so sorry you're hurting right now. Please know that you are not stupid just because you slipped, and mistakes can and will happen when you're on the road to recovery. I do think that you should discuss what you're thinking and feeling with your psychologist--he or she may have answers for you, or recommendations for treatment. The right T really can make a difference.

I hope you feel better soon. If the cut continues to stay open or starts bleeding again, you should see a doctor ASAP--without treatment, it could get infected (which is no fun at all, IMHO).

Be safe, and know that we all are here for you.

Take care,

~Alexiel

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