[ickydog2006]

So I haven't posted in a long time. I guess I just haven't had much time and quit caring. At one point it felt like my best friend abandoned me and I was forced to tell my parents by someone else. After all of this I ended up not being able to leave the house without cutting, unless I had done it the day before and did it so much my wrist and hand were totally numb. Then I had a huge deal with my ex boyfriend and breaking my heart and very long story. I ended up making over 35 cuts on my wrist and couldn't feel my hand at all. The next day it was like my hand had just given out and I couldn't do much with it. Now it's back to normal and the cravings have begun once again. My parents have decided if I don't quit by the starting of school they are going to put me in a treatment center. Even if that means taking me out of school. It will be my senior year and I'm set to be Validictorian if nothing goes wrong. I just can't quit. I've tried. I made it a max of 7 days. I don't know what to do. Help...PLEASE....

[HALLIEBETH87]

i was in a similar situation just recently.i am also a senior and i was just released from a psych hospital this week. i do believe you should seek help. i was forced to go,but dear even if u dont want to be there-try to get help-get SOMETHING out of it. it isnt as bad as u imagine and it will seem horrible if u allow it to be. i will be thinking about you. i can already see that u wont be able to quit any time soon-and deep down both u and your parents know it. sweetie u need help ok? i am here to talk whenever. my aol im is...troubcat123. keep me posted

[Rapunzel]

It takes help to quit. There is more to it, and it's just more than it's reasonable to expect any of us to just get over on our own. I work at a treatment center, and we had graduation yesterday. It's a school too, and some of these kids had given up on their academic futures, and now they are graduates. At the same time, they learned how to get control of their lives and overcome the problems that got them here. I'm not saying you need residential treatment, but they all thought it was going to ruin their lives when they started, before they realized that actually it gave them their lives back. Outpatient treatment might be enough for you though. I don't know how else to help you but to tell you to take advantage of the help you can find in real life. I couldn't do it alone either.

[ickydog2006]

I just want to wait till next summer. I got accepted for an apprenticeship that over 100 kids applied for from Oregon. I can't give up this opportunity.

[Rapunzel]

Congratulations! It sounds like a great opportunity, and things like that can be therapeutic too. But then, we tend to be overachievers. Just take care of yourself, ok?

[SweetCrusader]

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[ickydog2006]

I saw a 2nd PDoc yesterday. He put me on Prozac plus the Welllbutrin I'm already on. He says I should go back to the T I started out with 2 or 3 years ago, and see them weekly. My mom came to the agreement that if I take my meds without any hassle and see a T when I'm told to she would wait till next summer to put me in treatment(if I still need it). OKAY NOW MAD!!!!! She just came in to tell me that my first appointment will be today at 5:00. I have a concert to practice for tomorrow and am doing a solo that I need to work on. I know I have to much going on, but I'm not good at just saying no. I haven't cut for 6 days but I don't know how long I will last. If I keep gettign pounded with problems that I can't hadle or do anything about. These ones I can effect, but I have others just as big if not bigger that are completely out of my control. I have to go to class.

[Rapunzel]

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Being forced to go to therapy doesn't sound very fun. Please, for your own sake, make the most of it though. If you don't like the therapist, ask for another one, but you deserve not to be hurt anymore, and it takes help to beat this problem. It's not easy, but it will be worth it when you are able to live your life and achieve the things that are important to you without being limited by whatever it is that has you feeling like you need to hurt yourself to deal with it.