[Catlovers141]

I don't think I can stop SI. I have tried many times, with therapy and without, and I don't get anywhere. I have actually just gotten worse over time. The past few days I have cut three times as much as usual.

I am tired of talking about it in therapy or on hotlines because they just ask what I have done in the past to help me and what might work now, etc. They aren't bad questions but after doing it so many times it doesn't help anymore. I know what relieves stress for me but those things only go so far and sometimes they don't work hardly at all.

Having those conversations and having time continue to pass with myself only getting worse is making me lose a lot of hope. I have run out of ideas and have started to give up on myself. I was trying to think of what I would want other people, like my therapist, to do for me since I am frustrated by the conversations we have been having. But I can't think of anything. I know I have to be the one to heal myself but I feel unable to. In a way, I don't even want to continue with my life anymore to see what will happen next. I feel like I am losing control and don't see anything in my life that is improving my SI or any of my other issues.

[hopefully21]

(((((Cats))))) I completely understand where your coming from with all the questions on what helped before and what triggers you it does seems as if nothing helps and talking gets repetitive after awhile but dont give up hope there is always hope. Not wanting to see the nxt chapter in your life due to all the frustuations.......I get it, and yes helping yourself is great but also you having a T your in the right direction. Things will always be a struggle keep working on yourself one day things will hopefully be better for you. Keep us posted and your not alone trust me. I believe you can do this we all fall off track dnt be so hard on yourself tc

[Sannah]

Cat are you identifiying what is triggering your urges to SI? Have you been talking about your feelings in therapy? Have you been working on issues in therapy that would help you to heal?

[Catlovers141]

I have been in therapy for almost a year now, and the SI has gotten worse since then. I have identified triggers for the most part, but I am having trouble handling them as it seems most of my methods are not working enough.

[Psychboy1991]

I hope these things aren't redundant, but do you have someone you can call whenever you have the SI urges? And while you're doing it, instead of trying to completely keep yourself from doing it, just little by little keep yourself from doing more. Allow yourself to do it to satisfy the urge, but do less of it each time. That could add a sense of accomplishment and pride. Hope it helps

[Sannah]

Are you working on the past part of the triggers in therapy? SI can get worse with therapy as you work through your past and it feels bad. Does your therapist know that your SI is getting worse?

[Catlovers141]

We have not focused on my past too much. We did a little in the beginning, but my T likes to focus on what is happening now. She has noticed that things have gotten worse but I just don't know how to stop it. It doesn't seem to be related to therapy but more with just the passage of time. I am in an insight-oriented type of therapy and was wondering if something like CBT might have been effective for me but I haven't tried it.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by Catlovers141

She has noticed that things have gotten worse but I just don't know how to stop it.

Have you talked to your T about how to stop it?