I hate myself

I hate myself I thought of a new way to self harm Iam going to starve myself because that is easier to hide then cutting and I deserve to be punished so this is a great way to do it

Why do you feel you need to be punished!

Why can't you ask for forgiveness or forgive yourself, we all are only human and do make mistakes.

Sorry that things sound tough for you right now. I am also curious why you think you need to be punished? Do you have a T?

The problem with starving yourself is that it's NOT JUST SELF-HARM, it's PASSIVE SUICIDE because IT CAN & WILL KILL YOU VERY EASILY.

That's where I was coming from the first time (at the age of 43) when my pdoc sent me to an eating disorders treatment center. Obviousy then couldn't help me...I Didn't have any body image issues....I jlust didn't want to live anymore.

I hope you have a T who can help you with the issues you have surrounding this.....but a good start would be to define WHY you feel you need to be punished. There is nothing in this world that would deserve that kind of punishment to yourself.

Interesting, how we (humans) can be against the death penalty for those who commit serious crimes against others & yet we are willing to harm ourselves for punishment to the point that it can kill us for things much less serious than those serious crimes committed against others. Strange how the human mind works.

Hope you can work through your punishment issues so you can heal. Sending you kind loving thoughts for you to use on yourself.

I hate myself too, I think a lot of people who self harm have feeling of low self esteem and self hatred. I've started going to therapy to work through why I hate myself so much and why I feel like I deserve to punish myself and hurt myself. Have you ever thought about talking to a therapist and exploring why you feel the way you do? Why you deserve to die? To be hurt? Why you are a bad person? The hatred usually comes from shame, guilt, and anger, and that usually comes from a history of trauma or abuse. You're not the only one who feels this way and you don't have to feel this way forever. It's scary to ask for help, it really is, it took me 10 years to do it, but the help is there.

iam so weak i did not starve myself i just over ate i hate myself
I went and brought razors instead i am a evil selfish person who needs to be punished

You are NOT an evil selfish person, and you don't deserve to be punished <3 <3 <3

Does your MH team know what is going on with you?

i ate like a horse yesterday i hate myself for that so far today I have not eaten I want to cut so bad My MH team does not know what is going on I will not tell them with fear of being put in the hospitial

Please don't hurt yourself, darkmood <3 you're not alone

going without food for a day is harmless. its called fasting, actually very good for you. sending a beam of light to help you feel better

What would you say to me if this was my post?

I ate today

How can your MH team help you if they don't know what's going on with you?......sometimes the hospital is the right place.....but your MH team would be the best ones to determine that.....to me it just sounds like you have a lot of issues that they need to help you work through & your fear of the hospital is keeping you from that help.

Seems that you are avoiding the issues that are causing you to hate yourself....it takes a lot of work & emotional pain working through it.....but in the end, to loose that hate is worth the work no matter what it takes to get better rather than holding onto those emotions that are harming you.

Focusing your minds thoughts in that direction rather in the direction of harming yourself is a hard direction to break.....but know you & your MH team can get you there.

Why should you? Error is to human and the bet thing is when you discovered you have done mistake.

Why should you? Error is to human.

Very good self care............

You have to be open with your team in order to get better.

honey, I have to tell you something. Suicide isn't the answer. I tried it once, still think of it sometimes but I know that one person, my best friend Chloe, would bring me back to life and kill me for doing it.
You are an amazing person who just need someone to say that they love you how you are and that how ever you feel about your body is not okay because you are a beautiful person.
I find that therapy doesn't always work but I would recommend it if you can't cope on your own. There are so many people who are going through or have went through what you are going through. It is more common that statistics would show because seriously, only people who have stopped participate in polls.

So honey, I'm going to give it to you straight. You NEED to be hospitalised. It's not a thing to hesitate on. You have extreme self hatred and low self worth. It is bad even though we all go through it. Yuo just need people to help you get better and in hospitals, there are many people who have trained and are able to help you

I never did starve myself Iam ok now