Help....I don't know what to do

I have been giving in to SI science i was 9 or 10 now I'm 13, it is something I have been living with for so long I don't know how to quit. The longest I can go without it is one day. I have tried to distract myself but when I have been doing it for so long I can do it without even noticing now, I feel like I will never be able to stop. Anyone have advice I need it....really bad.

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. If you really want to stop then you can and I'm sure you will, one day. This doesn't mean that it's easy though. It never is.

Have you really tried to distract yourself? Did you want to be distracted? Or did you do it just so you could tell yourself I did try?! Because it is possible to be distracted if you're intent on it. You can watch TV, listen to music, call a friend, take a cold/warm/hot (whichever one you like best) shower or bath, leave the house and go for a walk/run, I don't know, ANYTHING! A lot of the time the urge is too strong and none of it works, but sometimes it does and you have to concentrate on that sometimes. There's something else too. You don't go to bed as a cutter and wake up the next morning a non-cutter! You quit gradually. You're doing it every day now? Okay, try making it every other day. less if you can. Then once every three days, once a week, once a fortnight, once a month and so on. And keep posting here. Let us know how things are going. My bestest thoughts and prayers go to you

Btw, how is it possible to hurt yourself without knowing it? Can you explain that part for me?

meme, I read your profile and all the threads that you started. I think that you really need to see a professional. You are young and this is the best time to intervene with any health problem whether mental/emotional or physical. Kids rebound so fast. When you become an adult things are harder to repair. How can you get help? You SI to stop the voices? Does one of your parents have a mental illness?

Since you say that distractions don't work, and the voices are an issue. The best thing that I can say is try to be very mindful about what you do. Meaning when you eat, think about how it tastes, looks, smells, feels, and if you can hear the sizzling of hot food, or any other noise that it makes. Do this for all things that you do.

That's something that you can do on your own. The thing that concerns me is the fact that you have si'ed for so long. This is an addiction, and like any addiction they are hard to stop. Getting professional help will help, but in the mean time do a little research into addictions and find something that can help you to stop. There is something out there for anyone to stop, but it will be hard. Trust me.

Well last night I talked to my mother, she will be helping me get professional help soon. I have gotten rid of all the things I use to cut with, the only problem now is I bite.......bad. Neither of my parents nor anyone in my family has any problems. when my sister was younger she tried to kill me and I was only three or four, her meds were causing it and she had to se a therapist but that was a long time ago.

That's great news. You've taken a big step. I hope you manage the biting. The experience with your sister must have been really traumatic. How is she now?

I super gladed to hear that your mom is going to help you get some professional help. Just take one step at a time, don't try to do a 5k in one day or your going to let yourself down. All remember that you are work more then you can imagine. I hope that one day you look at your scares and are able to say wow that was my past this is not my future. Keep posting!!!

Well my mom told me I have an appointment tomorrow. My sister is doing good now she has a baby and is pregnant again, I love my nephew Landen James, and I will keep posting...

It is awesome that you talked to your mom!!
I'm sorry your sister did that, it must have been horrible... But it's good she's doing okay now.
Again, I'm glad to here you had a talk with your mom and that you are getting help.

I wonder if the biting really started with that incident. It would be wise to work on that with a Therapist. I am so glad you got in to see a professional so quickly.

Very good!!! Please continue to keep us posted on how you are doing.

Well the appointment i forgot to mention that was a doctor appointment, but I am starting consoling (idk how to spell) next Friday....I don't know how I feel about it though....

It can be hard to go for the first time, and then you get used to the T. In the end, it will work out towards your good. not sure how you feel about it, we've been there.

meme, if it hasn't been said above I would suggest seeking a therapist. SI can lead to accidental serious injury. It leaves scars that make you feel even worse and it is a messy circle that will sink you if you don't find a way out. There is a way out. I started just a little earlier than you did. Unfortunately it appears you as well did not have the most pleasant childhood. I quit when I was 14.5 after being hospitalized. It was the best decision I made when I asked to be put in the hospital. I was there for only 5 days before they kicked me out for insurance reasons but those 5 days helped so much. I stopped SI and I'm 24 now, haven't done it in 10 years. 70 fresh wounds when I checked into the hospital. The scars have finally healed. Only a few are visible now.

You can stop, I know the urge to let that feeling out through SI, but there are healthier ways. It seems like you could really use a therapist to show you the way to better express the emotions that lead you to SI.

I hope you get your answers and some resolve. I hope you can find a way to take control and stop. Asking for help shows you are ready to find a more healthy way to cope! All the best!

Well everybody I have good news I have not cut since tuesday.....difficult but yes.....I'm happy.....In other news I am feeling kind of depressed more than usual because I am under constant watch because I am not trusted to be alone. Has anybody had this experience? Helpful tips are welcome because I cant do anything without being observed....

I'm sorry your under close watch.
I haven't really been under watch like that, but my best friend has, definitely. When her parents first found out about her SI she was not allowed to do anything alone. She couldn't look doors and her parents always confiscated her phone and iPod... however, they are doing better now. It'll be OK. Getting help is the first step. I'm so glad you took it! Hang in there meme.

YAY!
I am so proud of you!

There was a time when I couldn't go to the bathroom alone. It's quite annoying, but it's a bit helpful too. Just a bit though.

I remember telling my parents that there's no need for all this because I'm trying my hardest not to SI myself, but if someone really wanted to SI and couldn't help themselves they'd find a way, under constant watch or not!

I wanted to say thanks to all the support on this site plus, I will survive being under close watch, i hope O.O....

Keep in mind, being under close watch is only for a short time. You'll get through this. Many people before you have.

Glad to hear(er...should I say read?) that meme. You are constantly (pun intended) in my thoughts and prayers

Well tonight my mom is going to find out I dont eat unless she makes me eat at home....long story. I will probably post it on my blog.....If you want to know more about me besides what I have told you on here visit my blog http://redbluepurpleblacksafety.blogspot.com/ I do that blog with Iamsupportforyou so yeah....

Is your counselor appt. tomorrow?

Yes I get to stay at school while the rest of my class goes on a feild trip and then my mom will pick me up to bring me to my counselor appointment then I get to go back to school for an hour until everybody gets back then we go to our last two classes....

Aw stinks that you have to miss a feild trip; well, if it's a fun one. But this is a really good step in getting better and I'm glad you are going to counseling!! Best of luck.

How did your appt. go?