It gets better

I am sorry if my feedback is not helpful.

I am going to let go of this thread and hope you are okay.

Billi

I feel like crap, i just read what B. wrote and i just cut and cut. Your feedback was actually very helpful, abd it meant alot to me. It really helped me to know that there was someone else that doesnt trust the way i do. Or the fact about trying t, and believing me cuz nearly no one believes me that i seriously tried it. Saying that you feel my pain and, understand and all that. So you did help me more than you know. Sorry i made it sound ungrateful or smthg, i tend to do that.

Thanx so much for what you did write, b. i really appreciated it.
Actually it took my mother 4 yrs. to get me to go for t and that was only after a big thing that couldnt be ignored happened. And my mother doesnt let me go to a psychiatrist, even when my t begged her. But at this point i dont care what she thinks or says ill do what i feel i gotta do- if i have the strenghth. Also she got scared about what will hapen if i dont go. She thinks all im suffering is social anxiety, and shes worried about future relationships Screw her. I have no intrest in any syupid relationships. I do not want nor need more freibds than i have. I hate dealing with her. And no i cant repeat to her that ill discuss it after rxams as of now im just igniring her. Why cant she undrrstand i told her dnough times and i gave up repeating it.

I am sorry that you cut. And also if I gave you an impression that I did not care or that you were ungrateful.

You were not ungrateful and I wish you had not had to cut.

I have felt like hurting myself ( and I have, too, hurt myself) when someone needed to keep a distance from me when my condition was really hurting me and I could not hear or go with what they were saying. My actions hurt them and they did not know what to do for me.

I am glad you posted this. I was really worried about you and I really wanted to help. I did not know what else to say besides my own experience. I am glad that I did help.

It's up to us, too, to get better.

Not just our friends or the ones who help.

We help ourselves and others step in, too.

I know it's so hard.

thanks,

Billi

Sometimes doing our own th ing what's good for us can be very very hard.

I know.

Billi

I cant really write now, im way to overwhelmed just wanted to say thnx for understanding and all that

I shall reiterate my point from the very first post: it *does* get better. Hard to believe, yet true. Feel free to think otherwise, but you certainly aren't doing yourself any favors that way.

Hope you are okay.

Wasnt gonna post anything but dunno, i am. Im not really okay. I cant think of anything else besides for just ending it all already. Im losing my resistance, i feel like crap. Dont even know why im posting better just post it before i lose my nerve.

People do get tired. You need help 17. Stay safe please.

There's no where safe

I think i gave up on getting help

So what are you going to do then?

I dont know, lay around till... Or just live life till i cant handle it. Like what am i sopposed to do? Its helpless, done with.

Get help............

I did, i tried. Didnt work.

So try again...........

tried once too many times

That is not a winning attitude.

Im not trying to win here. Im stuck in rut and dont know how to possibly get out if it is at all possible. What am i supposed to do, getting help didnt help me.

Getting out of a rut isn't about winning? Of course it is.

If you try something once and it doesn't work, quitters give up. People who eventually solve their problems don't give up and they keep trying.

Winners try something once, twice, 3x, 4x, 5x and on and on until they solve the problem.

I kept trying, im just fed up already
My mom is squeezing me to death

i cant deal with the summer, its just begun and all i did so far was cut in bed all day, and cry. i'm so bored, now that i finished school i have nothing to do with my life. i don't see a point in continuing it. i'm so frusterated, and mad at my mother, why doesnt she get that i need my space, and that i need help fast.

What? She does get it. She has been bothering you about going to a therapist.

She's not so into it, she making it like she's doing the biggest favour for me by letting me go. But now im not going anyway cuz she has no intrest in finding someone else.