[x_BabyG_x]

Where does this 'need' to do it come from??

Im happy, Ive had a good day, I'm tired and thinking of going to bed in a minute... but as soon as soon as the thought enters my mind its like an actual physical ache... It's a NEED.

And even thought I know that I have to let my arm heal because Im going to a christening in london in 3 weeks with my bf and his family and Im wearing a dress, Even though Im sick of hiding it from my dad, even though Im sick of wearing jumpers and sweltering like mad when its the hottest weather england has seen for ages, even though I feel I have no reason to do it - im not stressed or upset..

I STILL fell I HAVE to do it!! It's like Im on a diet and theres sum choccie ice cream in the fridge and I know its bad and i'll end up in a state and feeling guilty after Ive eaten it... but I still want it!

How do I make this go away?? Why do I feel tempted even tho its a bad thing? Why do I smile everytime I realise that the oppertunity to do it is right here..?

babyg xXx

[Kiya]

Hon, i dunno - but if you ever figure it out, will you share it? Coz I get that too.
Hoping you can stay SI Free.... breathe through it, try to let it pass....

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[beadlady29-old]

hello xBabyGx. we get the need/(craving, almost like) to do this too. T said that it becomes a coping mechanism,......like a way that we deal w/ stress and/or other difficult events in our life. she suggested other ways of coping where i know i'm feeling something but are not harmful such as keeping a rubberband around my wrist and pulling on it when necessary,.. or taking a cold shower.........

hope this helps...............beadlady29

[024MANDY112233]

hey sweetie
I truely understand this urge, temptation to continue to self harm because i have it all day every day i dont know if this will help at all but everytime you feel like self harming the key is to keep yourself distracted as much as possible(i know easier said than done!!) someone once told me that if you do something everyday for 30 days it becomes a habit its all about re training your thinking into positive thoughts you may have this urge because it has become a habit-i smoke cigarettes and every morning i have to have one as soon as i wake up even if im running extremely late i have to have it because it has become a habit- i know that you can do it you are an important person and worth all life has to offer dont ever let anyone tell you different i wish you all the best in your recovery and i hope that some day soon self harm wont even be a thought entertained in your mind. lots of love mandy

[RomeoNBambie]

It could be that you know that you are due to go a christening and that there will be many people there and that you are scared of what they might think, which is stressing you out subconciously and that is where the need is coming from, you have nothing to hide hun, it will be a great day and you will have a great time, there is no need to worry hun, just try to look forward to having a great time and i hope all goes well, enjoy yourself hun xxxxxxxx

[Typo]

((((babyg))))

Wow I know how that feels. I've found that if I feel the need too I go and take a walk outside so that way I am away from everything and give myself sometime to work thourgh the urges. Or I write down all the emotions I am feeling and I write down my urges on a piece of paper and after I get it all out on a piece of paper I stack it on a bunch of paper and start ripping it with the pen..I just destroy the page and rip it up put all the strength I have into it..it helps the urge alot. Stay safe babyg,
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[NDNOutlaw]

The way I understand it when we cut ourself the bodies response is to release endorphins into the blood stream. This provides a certain self medicating effect. Many people say they actually feel better. Now that I look back alcohol which is a depressant brought down to a certain extent my mania. Like cutting it was purposeful. Unfortunately it may have been a significant factor leading to my alcoholism. Self mutilation may provide a release BUT like alcoholism it does not lead to emotional healing just a temporary release reinforcing despair. My daughter is a cutter also but we keep talking to one another when she is in crisis and that seems to help a lot. Exercise helps me so much. The body releases feel good chemicals that provide a natural high.I wish I had been more active because I am now diabetic. What is so difficult for me is to be consistent with my exercise and eating.