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#576
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a little bit over 2 months now, and i.. am not sure whether im keeping it up for the sake of appearances or myself. been having urges to lately.. the pain is getting too much to handle.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
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#577
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Two days.
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"Yeah, just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else" - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg Fluoxetine 20mg |
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#578
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I returned to 0 shortly after posting that last message.
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#579
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11 days...not sure I can make it tonight... already wanted to SI all day, even during the DBT group. My T even commented at the end of group that I was unusually quiet... yeah, it was being quiet or breaking down, and the second wasn't an option.
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#580
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It has been 0 days since I SIed
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#581
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zero here too....................
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#582
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4 days...
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"Yeah, just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else" - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg Fluoxetine 20mg |
#583
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back to 0... shouldn't have checked my work schedule for the week... was so lloking forward to spending my thursday with friends, that seeing I have towork threw me off.
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#584
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So I had 16 months but I got kinda drunk the night before and made some bad choices, even though I didn't even feel like cutting... but I feel surprisingly super okay with it right now, because I realize that the 16 months of resisting SI at times when I actually wanted it is what counts. So technically I'm back at 2 days, but I don't really care that much. Perhaps this is what extreme denial feels like, or maybe not, who knows.
- AJ Last edited by grey_aj; Feb 05, 2014 at 08:23 AM. Reason: added stuff |
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#585
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5 days and getting harder.
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"Yeah, just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else" - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg Fluoxetine 20mg |
#586
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..... Hang in there Star......
Tough question for you.... (and I ask this NOT to trigger you - but to challenge you)...... Which would make you feel better in the long run - some SH or withstanding the urge and making it another day/week/month without any SH? |
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#587
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8 months and a day
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#588
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I did today a few times. a week ago too.
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#589
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Quote:
To challenge us to what? |
#590
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Quote:
To be honest I'd choose SH... But no one understands it. I'm trying to quit before it spreads to noticeable parts of my body so I don't get hell from my dad who scared me into cutting as soon as he left the house by saying. "If you keep up this behaviour they'll lock you in the nut house. You'll be locked in a room all day and it only has a bed in it. And they'll drug you." But now that I think about it, I honestly don't care if I get locked away. That and I'm trying to quit for my boyfriend. He gave up sex for me because I'm asexual. So, I've got to at least try for him. But quitting is way too hard.
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"Yeah, just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else" - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg Fluoxetine 20mg |
#591
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1291 Days
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“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.” Gandhi |
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#592
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#593
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I cut for years, and had a forum like this for quitting. I haven't cut in about 5yrs. It really helped me to get away from this type of thread and not concentrate on how long it'd been.
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#594
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back to zero...after so freaking long....im just so angry and i dont know why
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#595
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It has been 2 days since I SIed
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#596
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thirty minutes............. and i doubt that I will make it to 60.
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#597
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One day... And I already miss it.
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"Yeah, just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else" - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg Fluoxetine 20mg |
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#598
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58 days.
longest so far.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
#599
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Two days and I feel like I really need it.
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"Yeah, just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else" - The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg Fluoxetine 20mg |
#600
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0.
more acurately about 4 hours |
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