3mths and i blew it...

I wasn't even aware it had been so long til recently (well, today in fact when I thought about it).
I just didn't need to for a while
I had lots of thoughts
But didn't act
Until last night
No real trigger, just the urge and I carried thru on it
No reason to feel depressed
But I do
Should be fine
But I'm not
Stupid blade- why didn't it stay in the bin when I put it there- I am too weak
But my scalp is sore and red and bleeding too
Can't put my fingers in the bin
Can't hide those sores from the world

i know exactly what you mean it is hard to resist sometimes the urge can be over whelming anything can cause it and is very difficult to deal with but stick to your plan c doctors if need be by now im sure you know friends and family are a good support system and can help

Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are working hard and sometimes we relapse. Today is another day that you can start SI free.

BB

Don't be so hard on youreself. Its hard to resist urges. Well help you. Holding your hand

Colleen

wow that's great 3 months!... i know first hand how hard it is not to look at the slips...but just think that's more then 90 days that you didn't ... you know?... i am sorry that those urges are so strong sometimes...take gentle care of yourself...lyn

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((((( sujunew )))))
keep focused on your accomplishments! Three months is a lot, it can happen again. The slip up happened and i'm sorry you're in pain =( we'll look forward with you if you want
kiya

i know what it feels like for a complete relapse after a long period of time. trust me. i went almost 2 years without cutting at all. then after a really bad breakup, i ended up cutting.. alot. i couldnt stop. just dont down urself.

Hey it's okay everyone slips up. You should be really proud that you made it three months. Just get back on board and keep fighting those urges. Giving Hugs. Your strong and I know you can do it!! We are all here for you.

Don't beat yourself up for slipping up. No one is perfect. Everyone slips up sometimes. Be proud of yourself for making it for three months. And then try to shoot for four months next time.

(((((((((((sujunew/irishsj))))))))))))))

3 months is a fantastic job. You proved to yourself that you can manage without it ... now you just keep trying, and get right back up and try to go for a little bit longer this time around.

You are not weak, you are strong.

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...but just think that's more then 90 days that you didn't ...

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awwwwww, thanks for the support everyone. I feel better already
I never thought of it in days, lyn. 90 is quite a lot eh?! (and it wasn't until my post that I even realised that it was 3mths). So that makes me feel better too, knowing I went for so long. It is just so frustrating...the urges are so strong yet the 'want' to stop is just as strong...I am SOOOO over SI lololol

there you go!
lyn