TRIGGER - tired

of trying to stop......too much going on. dont wanna talk.

just want the release - dont know where its coming from. but its here.

thats all.

love.....

((((((Cthomas)))))))

Sending positive vibes your way.

KD

colleen... i hope your ok... hang in there you can get through this... remember look at the successes not the slips...lyn

((((((((((colleen!!! you can get through))))))))))
remember the release will hurt more in the end.

(((((((((((Colleen)))))))))))))))

So I don't email you when I need help, and you don't email me... that needs to change my friend, because I love you and want to help.

I hope you're doing better now. Love you

Too tired
Just when things seem better. Whatever

Kiya Lynn christina jac paderkd

Thanks but I think I've hit my limit. Haven't done anything yet but its looking real good right now

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Colleen)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are struggling so much. Know I am here and I care. I hope you have been able to resist SI.

BB

Not yet but not far from my mind.

I'm so weak

Colleen, hang on. You can pull through. I'm online most of the day if you want someone to talk to.

KD

Im trying. just tired of trying.

almost getting tired altogether today. but working on it.

me

ps. thank you

razor=pain=really not helpful in the long run

((((((((((colleen)))))))))))
don't think about the tired altogether.... find a source of light... what can it be? do you have a faith? a best friend? your mom? find that light and focus only on that.

pulling for you colleen! :spin_heart:

kiya

(((((((((((Colleen)))))))))))))

I'm tired too... we can both hold on together. You can do this. You are not weak.

Be good to yourself, it's hard but you're worth it.

Where's your support person IRL? The woman you talk about?

Love you

Her very best friend passed away. I don't want to bother her. She's devastated.

That's another factor

sounds like you may both need support from each other. my best friend died a month before 911 and it is amazing to see how few people know what to do with death and grieving. the person who helped me most was the one who just hung out with me. she listened when ever i wanted to talk and didn't say any nicities or pleasantries. we just went about day to day and she was like my shadow.

holding you both close, kiya

It dont matter. its just me.....

Everybody feel sthis at some point. Even people that you dont expect.

Please let out whats going on.... it will help yourself aswell as helping people understand what your going through

anything going through your mind just let it all out. You will feel better for it, honest

babyg xxx

colleen you matter... i care... and am listening... lyn

i agree with baby g - let it all out girl - we can take it. see? we all KNOW you matter, and we're all right here for ya.

Don't wanna talk just wanna stay safe

Thank you all
Me

if your staying safe...that's what is important... take gentle care...lyn

Working on it. thank you all for keeping me sane.
Colleen

Did you ever just have a time where you wonder WHY you are even trying????

I wonder THAT today. WHY bother....ALL my hard work. WHERE did it get me?

WHAT did i get out of it....WHY did I BOTHER??

Screw Safe.

Of course! Everyone runs into issues or an issue where they reach that point of frustration when things don't seem to be working "right."

I think that's why it's good to have other perspectives of our progress.

You aren't exactly back to where you were, right? Not really. You have progressed, you are farther along in understanding and probably other things too I bet.

Maybe what you got out of it wasn't what your ultimate goal was.
Now's the time to regroup your thoughts and intention, and keep on going!

((((safe hug))))

((((((((((( Colleen )))))))))))