Trying to resist...

(((((((Silver))))))))

That's great news. I, too, hope things go well for you for a longggg time. Many blessings to you hon. I hope you are able to maintain peace.

Take care
(and unrelenting soothing thoughts)
Kimberly.

Thanks for such a beautifully worded reply, ktp! Thanks very much for your kind wishes!

You're welcome sweet pea

Keep up the good work!

Kimberly.

You're doing so well Silver. I hope it continues for you. ((((silver))))

Thanks for your encouragement everyone.

I'm at home now though for the next three weeks and already I have had the thoughts of SI-ing and I haven't been home 24 hrs yet. I thought I was safe since I left all my stuff for it back at university but then last night I found I wasn't. So I will just see how it goes, I'll keep resisting as long as possible and I will think of the all of the encouragement of you guys here .

Hey, that was a crazy smart move leaving the tools at the university. Good self care. Call on us whenever you need. Take care sweetie.

Ry

Lol, thanks for saying it was a good idea to leave SI stuff at university. What I meant to say in the post above that I can see now that I didn't say, was that i found in my room stuff that can hurt me anyway, even with my usual stuff back at my university. so i can still SI now . i'm just going to resist for as long as possible though.

Silver, I know you know this already, but you're more than welcome to PM me if you evern need to talk about this. I'm always here for you hun. Remember the distractions we talked about and try to use them if you can. We're all here to help you if you find that you need it. Be safe sweetie.

Ry

Silver...hold out as long as possible...we're here to support you..yo've done sooo well so far. If you need support...you know where to get me hun.

claire x

I'm back at university now. haven't SI-ed for just over two months. been having thoughts of SI a nd suicide again for the past week or so and they are just getting stronger. i see my counsellor again this wednesday and am reluctant to talk to her about how i'm really feeling. i feel like i'm slowly disintegrating and falling apart. dont see how i am going to be able to cope with deadlines and exams which will be upon me in a month or so. i have to pass the exams to get into my second year, but i'm fuctioning less and less.

how about copying this last post of yours to bring wedsnday ? some way to let the T know how bad its getting before it escalates further- tomorrow is tuesday then wednesday you will see T right so please hang on.

Thanks kathy. that's a good idea, i may do that. thanks for your support.

(((((((((silver))))))))))))))

I agree with Kathy, I think it would be good idea to open up to your counsellor.

Thanks, jet .