should i tell my therapist?

hi i was just curious if anyone els had similar thoughts. though i havent felt this way in a while, in the past i have wanted to be raped. i wouldmake myself think about and imagine that my teacher was abusing and raping me sexually. i even dreampt that i was in a prison and i was raped. thinking about this made me fear and not want to be near my teacher. it was like i had minor PTSD from me forcing myself to imagine and think about this. i really wanted to be raped. to this day i think about being abused. it leads me to do something which makes me feel good if you know what i mean. thanks for your thoughts.

so do you think that i should tell my therapist?

Smmath, if you are comfortable enough I think you should be completely honest with your T. Do you think these thoughts are happening because of something in your past? Or do you have other type thoughts that other people might not have? Just things to think about.

Because of these particular thoughts please resist putting yourself in a dangerous situation. Tell your T & be open & willing to work on your issue.

Take care & be safe.

I think that you should tell you t about what you are feeling.....It is very important to be open and honest with your t, that way you both can figure out why you are having these feelings.....Hope this helps.....

Good article about rape fantasies:

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...t-do-they-mean

Well the therapist is there for you....and paid by you or your insurance. Don't be afraid to talk to your therapist about this. They might have some idea why you feel this way. By not telling the therapist, you seem ashamed and that this is not normal. That may not be true. Someone in a post above me left a link to an article. I hope that helps you.
p.s. all of us have our fantasies.......and I have mine and I will not share them with anyone ...........LOL, LOL

First off I'm going to say that it's not a bad thing to have rape fantasies or fantasies about being abused. It's also not bad to live them out with a consenting partner, in a safe environment, where both of you know what's going on in the "scene". In fact, it's actually quite common.

(though saying that, please NEVER put yourself in a possition where you can't bail if things go bad. I can not stress how important safe words are, and if you're not in a place where the other person will stop on a dime if you need them too, you shouldn't be in that situation. Also, I don't know how old you are, so also only work within boundaries of your own comfort level and don't push these unless you truly want to and you're with someone who has respect (and ideally love) for you)

The feelings of guilt and fear are also sadly common, and should definitely be brought up with your T (imo). The fact that it's affecting your behavior around others should be worked through, and your fear shame and/or guilt about what you think is hot does too.

That being said, take as much time as you need to get comfortable about this aspect of your sexuality. From personal experience, once you accept it you'll be happier, but if you tell yourself you've accepted it and are just trying to rush the process you won't be. I still have lots of things about my sexuality I'm not comfortable with at all, and I've known about for years!

Good luck in you're journey. PM me if you want to. And give yourself a hug for being a brave and very awesome person. Oh, and have fun!

KLove

Not all of us do I can no longer fantasise about things and I find it difficult to even just conjure up any kind of sexual thought. My mind is messed up sexually. I am relentlessly straight but every part of my sexual mind has left me.

@emre: Do you have a partner, and is that still okay? I often have trouble fantasizing when it's just me, and a lot of the time I just don't bother masturbating, but when I have a partner I'm fine sexually.

No, I'm single. Thoughts used to come and flow through my mind without any effort. Now I really have to think of things myself and concentrate and even then they don't last very long and are very vague. I probably need a partner but don't feel ready for one yet.

Hey, smmath, I'd say talking with your therapist would be a good choice at this point for a couple of reasons, if I'm hearing you right. Since self-injury is your primary issue, I'm thinking this is not necessarily a fantasy for you--"in the past I have wanted to be raped." Also, your sexual experience at 14 may be limited to anything from none to sexual abuse only to a mixed assortment of normal & abnormal sex. It would be helpful, I think, if you could sort out what is what.

I may not be saying this too well ... I hope you can see what I'm trying to say. It just seems from what you've said that you'may be in a difficult and confusing point in your life. If you are seeing a therapist or have access to one, talking this out with someone objective could be helpful.

Roadrunner

Perhaps this issue relates to a strong urge to be dominated more during your sex life? Im not saying that this needs to be the case, but are you usually rather submissive during sex? Either that or perhaps your desire to be raped is due to repressed events that happened in the past? Please tell your therapist though if you feel you need to put yourself in harms way in order to live out this fantasy. Why not try masturbating either solo or with a partner to some BDSM videos and see whether that helps with the urges. But please be safe though and talk to me if you need to. Good luck.

Sorry i had no idea you were 14. Disregard pretty much everything i said lol. Do talk to your therapist though if you feel your in danger. Be safe.

Emre:

At least you recognise that you're not ready for one! Maybe that's part of the reason it's hard to fantasise? Like I said, I have a hard time doing anything alone. I either get board half way through, or am just not that into it. Masterbating became a chore for me for a while unless someone else was there at the time. Even now, anything solo is just annoying lol.

I'd say that unless it's causing you physical discomphort, or anxiety, don't worry too much about it. If it is causing you anxiety, or has gotten to the point it's physically uncomfortable or unhealthy then talk to your GP or T. It's not really an issue unless it's causing issues.