My dream diary

You parted from your depression. You moved away from it, where it could not follow you.

Today I had an inversed type of this dream. I was playing with some people, again, at my grandmother's house, and then grew fed up with them and decided to go back to my grandmother. She was dying and I gave her a hug.

I'm feeling good lately but it's kind of good that makes me anxious. I had a dream that I went with my mother to a second hand job and there was this older woman there. And she said something and I misheard it for sth offensive, yet I knew I misheard it but ignored the fact and told her to "shut up, *****" and then there was a police following us, my and my mother went to another room where my father was, didn' t tell him what happened out of shame, but just went outside which was like at my older house, got into the small, yellow car and I was trying to drive off, but only manahed to drive a bit and hide behind the trees. Also, before walking into that store, I thought that maybe my previous boss knows the owner and was afraid to meet him, bc in real life I feel shame towards him, as I told someone sth about his company that I shouldn't and kept ignoring him and the ex co workers, afraid they know I said this thing (possible, as I think he knows the lady whom I told this thing)

After meeting my friends yesterday, I had a dream that I was also at the meeting with them and had this little energetic and cute dog that my friend was very fascinated about, I was playing with him, but then it got too overwhelming: The dog started peeing where it shouldn't and finally I found out that it's dead.

The dream shows how you were feeling with being with your friends. You may have said some things you did not mean to say.

I cant believe this, but I had this dream about visiting my version of Berlin central station again. For about 5th time, just I got there in a different way (on a plain that almost crashed) and it felt relievieng, like this place is my idyllum. The place looked the same as well as particular rooms and halls. I just had some bothering feeling because for another time i couldnt go outside and visit the city. I wanted to so much. I never stepped outside the station. Today I was following different people, my peers from real life, not my parents and strangers like the other time, and we visited places on a very low level: dark and dusty. I told them I want to go outside finally, but just kept following them. At some point, we just started working physically in some hot, black room like a heating room and I didn't like it at all.

I'm getting very tired recently with everything that's going on, very emotional, affection hungry, manic- like.

I dreamed of being on a trip in some strange house along with my friends. There was this boy I once had a great affection for and he came to me and was like "Listen, I'm so into you, feel so good about you, could we meet tomorrow and talk about it?". Then I was stuck in the bathroom and - it was so disgusting, yet pretty symbolical - I had a period I could not control, the blood was everywhere. The same then was with the water in the toilets, which, as I think, stands for shame.

You may be feeling you are not "Good Enough" for affection from others. Thus you felt shame.

Today I had a dream, I think, about what's stopping me in life currently. I was driving the car at night and constantly stopped and was walking towards my house (difficult family situation), to the point I forgot about the car once and left it open in the street and went back around day later to see it still on the road. I was also driving with my friend who dissapointed me currently, and I was very anxious about that trip, I couldn't control the car properly during driving.

Jeez, I had around 10 dreams today which I can more or less recall, all of them pretty disturbing. One was when I was walking alone in a daylight through some deserted path, when a man dressed only in pink shirt approached me and I thought he may be an exhibitionist. He was shouting st me to show him my private parts, while believing I am male when I'm not. I wanted to tear my shirt off in order to prove him that I'm a woman. The other was in a shop during Halloween's night with loads of horror themes, I was there with a group of friends, the shop assistant found sth scary among the clothes but I didn't see what it was, then I was picking on some stuff and started choosing clothes while all the people were already at a register, I picked some tshirts and wanted to try them, just I kept taking them off through my feet and had these shoes covered in mud and it got dirty, so the sales assistant was laughing and I had to buy it. Again, the other was about me trying to build a car for myself at night, there were some friends, but it did not go well as I missed many parts or my friend picked the broken ones. Before I also dreamed about inviting two girls for a photoshoot when the second girl was too young and I told her to go home, this kid had a chip or sth that stayed at my house and there was some weird theme that I was afraid her parents or the police willl come and accuse me of sth. Then some nasty people kept coming to my flat and they were bullying me. I'm doubting my own sanity right now.

Been to a meeting with my friend, had three beers, then had a dream about that meeting being continued. We sat in the city centre and there were more people coming, such as my other friend who started making ironic jokes on me. Then yet another friend crying that someone offended her and slowly the streets were full of people. Then some woman came in with, keeping a small newborn baby thats been born too fast but made it alive, in her right hand, showing it to everyone like a miracle. Then she started putting money on the floor in order to gather it later, to see if people can be honest and good or sth by not taking it. Then I had another dream about strange thin man coming into my house and bedroom, saying he has leukemia but there were no beds at the hospital so he will stay here and that it is his birthday and name day, he was obviously lying and didn't want to let me out of bed. Creepy.

Today had a dream that my final exam was yesterday and I missed it. In fact, it's in September. And there was again the whole car thing, driving badly, leaving the car, wanting to give it to my friend who drives better because I didn't think I could do it, getting all overwhelmed and feeling more capable than others.

You are probably feeling isolated in a real life situation. Maybe feeling a bit isolated from yourself and within yourself.

Today I had a dream about being in a romantic relationship with some guy while there was a war. At some point, he told me no, "You're okay, but I don't want to be with you".

Then was my usual dream with rats running around some places. This time it was a big house and they were running freely and I couldn't keep an eye on them all. Someone put rat poison on them and I watched few of them dying. It was awful.

The Rats may represent things that are being said in your real life. Things others are saying to you and others, and things you may be saying to them. This last set of dreams seem to be about how you are feeling about things currently going on around you

Today I had a really long dream about being in a house with people I know. Just, we were kind of hunting for each other, making ourselves hurt, fighting and generally looking to cause each other the biggest possible pain. I was fighting with someone using broken glass bottle. It was really brutal.
Then I was at my grandparents house which are really sick and dysfunctional and a pain in the ***, so to speak. I was talking to my grandmother and she was having hallucinations, speaking in a weird way and I wasn't sure if she is crazy or I am, but I was really terrified of her. My grandfather, very aggressive in real life, catched my shoulder and kept me where I was standing, it was painful.

This dream may be telling you, that you are keeping yourself stuck in a painful situation in real life. What is holding you back?

I had a dream today about someone dangerous breaking in to my old family house, it could be a murderer: I was actually chasing him, holding some knife or other sharp thing, intending to use it on him. It's was a house of my highly dysfunctional family from father's side. Then my dream carried on at my second family house, this time from my mum's side and her brother and his wife came in (we had some difficult relations in the past but recently I wanted to be better towards them) and I remember trying buying them gifts as it was Christmas or sth but I was kind of too late and bought too little stuff and felt it's not enough. I remember firstly coming to the bookstore and getting out of it with some book I had as a 8 year old in real life, bought it for myself.

You are chasing out the demons from your past, out of your life. Then you bought some thing for yourself, which means you are now taking care of yourself.

I had a dream I was flying on a plane somewhere all by myself, been pretty lonely and bored. And indifferent, even though I have never been on a plane before. I arrived at some beach in the middle of the summer, but it didn't impress me (there was one of my friends too who recently went back from some hot country), I was walking on some sloppy bridge above the water and saw something underneath the water surface, like bags or something. Then I was visiting some restaurants and kept criticizing food over there and finally went back on a plane.

Looks like you crossed over some old depression. The you got back on the plane and moved on in life.

Today I dreamed about walking around the city and then some old woman started talking to me and she suggested I'll go with her on a bus trip with some kind of a theatre troupe, so I'll maybe like it and will become a part of it. And I wasn't sure but I did and then there were many older people on a bus, including a woman with cancer putting on her wig, and some older man that I considered unfriendly. Then we changed to a train and somehow I saw my mother following me. We stopped at some place, like a hostel, restaurant, I dunno, and there was a terrace outside and I saw something strange: there was a naked woman who tied herself to something and she was wailing and screaming and twisting her body like some kind of a martyr. And then I saw my mother who took her clothes off apart from her underwear and she ran outside to join her and I felt so embarassed.

My real life is now mostly about my sick grandmother and me feeling like a failure because I'm not helping enough unlike my parents etc.

This dream is about caring for your sick Grandmother. You may feel embarassed, because you mother is committing to much of her self to her. I think it is good that you are avoiding being a "Martyr" in this situation. You do think your mother is trying to be a martyr to her own demise.

Today I had a nightmare about my grandmother who died a week ago, in this dream people were trying to make me feel guilty saying how painful her death was, screaming at me etc. There was an atmosphere of horror. I woke up with a panic attack.

Then there was a dream about my mother who showed me a love letter from a man who wanted to run away with her and she was acting like it's nothing, with a smile. Then she left the town. And there was my father, I suppose, or some other man who was taking the revenge on me, torturing me and trying to hurt me. I was in a flat and wanted to run away.

Hi,
I guess you'retaking some medication? Your dreams seem to be very vivid and violent and it is probably caused by the medication or food you eat.
Do not take too much notice about your dreams. your subconscious creates the to keep you asleep and entertained for as long as possible and wake you when you need to be woken up. Even the worst dreams are dreamt to help you in some way.