I don't like the way I am sometimes....

I look into the mirror. I feel kinda scared for some reason. I feel like there's a stranger (me) looking into the mirror. As I hide myself away for too long. I think my hair is fine but I don't like my face. I wish I felt like a woman and not some person who feels bad about themselves. I want to feel "normal" and "human". I have a ugly body. I have a ugly accent. I am negative pretty much. Why does my boyfriend even like me? He calls me sexy and beautiful. But I don't see it. . I'm just ugly. I'm crying right now. I'm such a stupid person for crying. About this s*x thing, I don't even feel normal or feel "sexy". Back to the self esteem issue. I wish I gained my confidence again. I do feel I am slowly gaining my confidence. I used to be very shy but now I'm a little more confident.
I don't know what else to say. I don't have the right words to express myself. I'm so stupid. I'm such an idiot. No one has to reply back. I hate feeling like a stranger or some alien.....

I saw your album of the picture of you and you look fine.

You shouldn't worry so much about apperances when you look just fine.

I know how that feels but I got past it with support.

Thanks for being understanding

Happycheeks I saw your pic you are pretty. Replace those negative thoughts....I am a good person! I bet your accent is awesome! And smile when you look in the mirror! (((((((happycheeks))))))))

Happy cheeks
It seems like I have been following you around the board today posting and the theme is that you are in a place where you are very down on yourself, just stuck in a very bad,sad place. Is there anything you can do to practice some distraction for a while, pop in a video of a favorite comedy, go to a movie, call a friend and go out to dinner, arts and crafts project, read a book? something to get your mind focused in another direction for awhile?

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

Thank you. I am alright.

i could do something but I am feeling alright now.

No matter what you look like it's important to be comfortable in your own skin. I used to wonder, "How do I love myself when I don't know how?" The answer came from Jillian Michaels, a professional fitness trainer in the U.S. who said that taking care of your body and loving yourself are the same thing. So I thought, okay, I know how to take care of my body...I'll start there. So I started exercising and eating right and being good to my body and the 'loving yourself' that she talks about actually does start to come. There's no easy fix. Good luck.

Thanks, so bascially I have to eat healthy and exercise because I'm fat?