[Kathyanita]

Im on a roll here- i figured out another behavior that is a trigger on one level of consciousness. Im inflicting this news on you who resd this just because it makes my discovery more solid in my mind if i write it and expect that its out there off my mind. (i know that sounds paradox) So i was always wondering why i leave the T office and i have ti got to the bathroom before I left but I refuse to make myself comfortable and drive home feeling like I could burst my bladder- then it came to me that because his office keeps the lav locked and you have to go get the key from the receptionist I wasnt letting them have the satisfaction of knowing I had to go and having to ask for permission. Its because forced incontinance was a form of abuse applied to my body as a kid for years - it was ugly and stunk and there were wierd forms of control involved and I wont elaborate the details BUT DAMN! I think its cool to figure something out like that. I told the T and now i feel its my right to use the toilet obviously and he didnt even know he was cast in this drama in my head. So i dont resent the locked door or him for it anymore.
Hope i didnt bore or bother any ones with my accomplishment.

Girl, you are working on yourself!! i am so proud of you for two things...first, you figured it out and second, you shared with the rest of us....that works to everyone's advantage, because you don't know how your confiding in us might facilitate something that has been long buried in our mind....thank you, pat

[Kathyanita]

Pat,
thanks so much for telling that to me- i feel like I just got a good report card when you say that. Remember gold stars on the paper in school. Its like that.

[kimmydawn]

kathy, that's great! i know i always feel better when i'm able to put 2 and 2 together and they come out as 4. it's hard having all these reactions to stuffs and don't know why so can't make it better.

WTG!

kd

I'll give you two stars for all this work hon! My goodness you are figuring things out at a quick clip right now. Good job!!

[Mahali]

Good job! Bothered or boring not at all.

I am impressed with your discovery it shows great insight. It also shows great courage and understanding to share with everyone. I hope you continue to grow and recover.

Take care.

place

[(JD)]

No problem for me. GOOD FOR YOU!

Another way you might wish to take control of this instance is to request PRIOR TO your session... that way, YOU are making the decision, not your body which is insisting by the end of session!

[SweetCrusader]

I think you're doing great gaining all these insights