parnoia or is it normal??

Im starting to feel even more (have had slight inclinations before) that the women on here are my mom spying on me...its like every time i read them talking about their daughters or pretty much anything i want to scream its you isnt it!! A part of me knows my mom isnt on here...she hates me why would she want to come on here asking for advice about me...but my paranoia is setting in...Another paranoid thought is that my boyfriend is sleeping with his mother..how i got this in my head i dont know..but i feel like they have a sexual relationship...i guess its because they are close.....but everytime he goes into his parents room its hours ....i know i know..his dad is in there too....i wonder if theyd all...no stop...i got to stop this thoughts...are these reasonable thoughts?? Is this paranoia ....where are these thoughts coming from. I feel very jealous towards his mother....like they spend time together...talking ...like what the heck do they talk about all that freaking time...its me who is supposed to have that with my boyfriend not his d*mn mother.....god thinking of her makes my blood boil and i wish she would leave...and never come back.....im a horrible person...but i cant stand it...i keep expecting to walk in on them ....and i know i wont...why do i have these ideas???????

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i can only offer you my love and support sweetie.i dont know where thewse thoughtsarecoming from, maybe you should talk to your t about them. it may be a part of your illness at the moment.
tell your boyfriend you would like to spend more time with him, get yourselves out of the house even if it's just for a walk. your insecurities are at the surface, you need to sort this out.

love you, e.mom xoxoxoox

inny its difficult to understand confusing and almost painful to see other ppl having these close appropriate "normal" interactions with family
tey some of the workbooks at
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/

they help with some warpy thought processes we can have as part of being so hurt
ive done it and its hard to put into practice all the time but its like relaxation stuff u just gotta keep working on it

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i love ya