MY DARLING MOTHER trigger

I posted a thread the other day about my mother not sending me a birthday card.

She called my best friend IRL last night, asked if I'd rec'd her card and money? Huh???? no I didn't. What is going on here, she asked my friend not to tell me she'd called.

She knows my friend tells me everything, we are like sisters.

I am upset and tired and don't know what to think any more. I think the only way to get through this is to drive over to my mums house and tell her everything she is in denial over, the abuse, her abuse, her narcissism, the way she thinks she is better than everyone else, the way she puts me down to make herself feel better etc etc etc. I just feel in a raw place, she is, although absent at my request for a while, still running my life from backstage so to speak.

I know if I go and tell her all this, let her read my life story, let her read my posts here and my poems, she'll just deny it all or critisize me, tell me to remember all the times she's helped me, that I'm attention seeking, and try to twist things.

I DON'T NEED THIS CRAP!!!!!!!!

sorry I had to vent

jin x

(((((kerry)))))

<font color="green">Jin,
Please do not go to your mother's house. It sounds to me like she is baiting you - trying to get around the no contact rule you asked her for. After all if you make the 'first move' then she is innocent of breaking her word to you. Don't do that honey, you deserve to have this time to work on your life without her toxic input. Tell your good friend what you have told us, that you need some time without your birthmother's interference and please don't forward any more information for the time being. If she is a good friend she will understand.

Safe gentle hugs if you can accept them. </font>