protection of the bra

Im having to do this timeline thing for therapy. One thing I put on my timeline is a situation that happened when my uncle touched me one night when i was around 11. I always wore a bra to sleep. I never knew why before. When I woke up it was off. I had had different sexual abuse situations when I was younger but that was the first one during my teen/pre-teen years.

I was thinking why this stood out so much and even why I remember wearing the bra to bed at night. At first I thought of course, this was my protection. But I'm not sure I was thinking last night about how to me the bra helped take away my sexuality to others, maybe it decreased the attntion that I would get and sleeping with it on meant during the night no one would find me sexual again as they did when I was a child. So now, I really understand better why my uncle still touching me that night was important, because the bra had lost its power to protect me and desexualize me.

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thanks for the support mckell and sujenew!

any time

EV - interesting how that worked for you in that way - and ... that it was taken from you =( I get how it would seem to desexualize a woman. (pre teen)

Likewise, sometime around 7-8 i started sleeping with undies on (and have ever since) for the same reason. I didn't even remember ever not wearing them until my mom questioned me.

I do feel too threatened without them on at night - even when alone in the entire house. I mean, like the bra, i know that really, it is no magic shield. I know way too well. But i can't erace that in my thinking - in my body memory. At least, not yet.

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