Negative thinking in new job when faced with new challenges

Hang in there. All we could do is do our best. And that’s what you are doing. Good luck with the interviews

Thanks @divine1966.

I did get a second interview, so that's awesome!!!!

Congratulations!! 😃

Great news

Thanks! I'm very happy I have another chance to try and wow them!

Yay congrats 👏

Thanks @willowtigger!

I have a 3-month "check-in" meeting with my boss on Monday. I have NO idea what his feedback will be, nor do I know what to say to him about how I am feeling about work lately.

Yesterday, I messed something up in a spreadsheet I was working on, so the higher ups made me go through the sheet line by line to double check ALL of my work. UGH. AND, my boss called me out on the mistake, asking me why it happened. I made a mistake! It happens. I am not perfect. Then my husband tells me that's bad because I need to be perfect right now or else I may lose my job. NOT helpful.

AND, my therapist on Tuesday told me that my husband's words about being careful around leaving my old job for greener pastures came true - that my new job is no better, so basically he insinuated that my husband was right and that I was wrong in choosing to leave. Great. So, my therapist still is siding with my husband, and is quoting his words to me even.

So, maybe I made a mistake in leaving my last job - so what. I felt I had to leave because I was running out of ideas for my client websites, there was zero leadership on my team to rely on for ideas and strategies, and my favorite account manager was leaving as well. So, I made a move, and it turned out to be the wrong move. Why do I need to hear about it as though I made some sort of colossal mistake? It happens. People leave companies and then maybe land in the wrong company all the time. That's what happened. I don't see the big deal, unless it ends up harming me somehow.

I am sick of this kind of thing with my therapist, and with my husband, even. And I don't need to hear from my husband about the mistake I made at work. GEEZ. It was tough going through an entire spreadsheet, and I missed a line. No real harm done. I got the job done and I did it correctly the second go around.

But I am sure in this meeting with my boss that he will bring it up, or at least he's made note of my mistakes, I am sure.

I'm not looking forward to this meeting on Monday. My second interview also needs to be scheduled sometime in the next few days, and I am both excited and nervous. I really want this one to work out.

I worry that my mentality/self esteem is getting effected by people pointing out all my mistakes. I don't need that in my life - and frankly, it's just downright annoying af. I am a perfectionist and am working on changing that. This is going in the opposite direction if my mistakes are thrown in the face as they have been. GEEZ!

Have Hope deserves amazing things

Awwwwwwww, thank you! That just warms my heart and makes me feel good. Thank you.

So, WOW. I suddenly have FOUR interviews ahead of me with this one company! They've scheduled ALL FOUR ahead of time, which is very uncommon in my experience. Typically, I've had to get through one interview and hurdle at a time before I am invited to the next round, so I am taking this as a very positive sign!

I've made it through four rounds of interviews so far. One more to go tomorrow. If after all this I don't get an offer, it will be most disappointing and disheartening.

Hang in there!

Thanks @Bill3.

I'm trying, but I am exhausted by all this. I realized this morning that 5 separate interviews scheduled each day is exhausting! BUT, I am almost done, thankfully.

Thanks so much for continuing to cheer me on!!

I'm done with the interviews!!!! YAY. I made it through. Now I am just waiting to see if there's an offer. IF there is one, I hope they give me the most amount of salary, at the upper end of their range. I am still thinking it through though too. It's a pharmaceutical client, with 50 brands and 100 websites. It's a HUGE job, and is very complex. That being said, I would be switching my career focus from strategy to client services. So the job is being in charge of the client calls and relationship. Much more up my alley than what I am doing now, which is strategy.

I have to think of my future direction in all of this. I don't want to become a Director leading others in the niche that I am in now. I don't want that, and I don't feel equipped for it. So a change in my career direction right now would be smart, even if it's for less money than what I earn now. I'd rather be on the right track, building my career towards a goal that I actually want. And what I am doing now I feel is a dead end. It's time to change.

With all of that being said, a pharmaceutical client may be really hard. I would have to learn the ins and outs of each brand - all 50 of them. It could be overwhelming at first. They said it's a six month learning curve. At least I am prepared with that knowledge.

We shall see. I should know soon enough if there is an offer. I also am supposed to now meet with my current CEO on Monday to discuss my role in my current job. The timing for an offer could not be any better.

Fingers crossed! 🙂

Thanks @Bill3!

I am now very much on edge because I didn't hear anything today. The recruiter said she will contact me as soon as she hears back from the team. UGH.

I am in a quandary. What if I get the job and then again, don't like it? What do I do then? I will be stuck in it and cannot change jobs again.

Is client services really where I should be? Now I don't know. I am pretty certain, like 99.99% certain I want to change fields. And I am good with people. I am good at building relationships - it's my forte. But what if I am not good at this job like I think I will be? What if it's too much for me?

They said it's a six month learning curve, and that others have been overwhelmed by how much there is to learn. So, have there been others before me that did not work out in this job? The recruiter initially told me that the person had been promoted - the one that was in the position I am applying for - and that's why it's available. But had others tried it and failed? I need to know this answer before committing.

And what if I am just running away from the challenge of having to learn new ways of doing things in my current job?

Then again, I feel like their standards are far too high, and I feel I cannot reach their standards. I handed in a project and thought I had done the best I could do on it and my boss said it was at about 70% completion.

I feel I am not equipped for digital strategy anymore. I am having to come up with 90 blog topics/blog titles and I am struggling. I was struggling to build a web page from scratch. I don't know what that page should look like, unless I completely copy other's pages. I am being asked to do very difficult things that I feel are beyond my existing skill set.

I am full of angst.

Honesty I don’t think you can ever have an answer. Pretty much every time you switch jobs you take a risk. And it’s ok. You look at pro and con to the best of your knowledge but most of the time you just don’t know and you just dive in, do your best and see how it goes. I’d say if your current job is satisfactory I’d not go looking for a new job for awhile. But if it’s not, you have nothing to lose. Fingers crossed you get an offer

Thanks, divine, this is helpful.

My current job is not satisfactory, I'd say. I am not thrilled with it, and that's why I've been looking around.

The new company is a company I've been looking at for a while now. I told my interviewers that I had applied for a different role there a couple of years ago. As far as I recall, that's true.

I like that females are in leadership roles in the new job, I work in a male dominant field, so that is most refreshing for me. I liked my interviewers, and better than when I interviewed in my current company.

In my current company? The reference check was 33 questions long, that a reference had to complete! I thought it was insane at the time. Two of my references did not respond to this, when I contacted them to complete the form. I wouldn't have responded either!

But this says a LOT about my current company, I think. About their expectations and demands of people.

Still no word about the job, and I meet with my CEO on Monday. What is she going to say to me? Is she going to offer me a lesser role? Is she going to let me go? I know I am not earning my salary right now, with the level of work I am doing. I am nervous.

I hope they are not letting you go, Have Hope, maybe they could be offering you less hours

Thank you!! It turns out my meeting with my CEO isn’t for a couple of weeks. So I don’t need to worry right now - yay!