[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by Outcast_of_RGaol

Just wanted to check-in and let you all know that I'm still doing good!
I stumbled once, so I don't have a perfect record but since I'm not perfect, it's perfectly normal for me (haha).
So I'm like 18 days sober, less one... is that fair to claim? Either way, I keep thinking that I have to be accountable to you all and wanted to let you know.

Wishing you all my best!

Hi there OoRG. Don't worry too much about your stumbles ........................................ as long as you get back on that wagon, you're done!! Just keep coming back and sharing my friend, HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[glok]

My addiction soda continues, most unfortunately.

[WCT74]

I did have a few drinks last night, but I also had a very productive talk with my wife about how I have to stop drinking during the week, I told her I wasnt like her, I cant have a beer or 2 and be fine. I drink to get drunk, period, and how i feel the addiction slowly weaving its way into me. I havent been completely open about the other times i drink when she isnt home, she dosen't need to know right now. No other substances were ingested, so I guess its progress. Oh and on a side note, the cause of my verbally abusive tantrum the other night I belive was caused by what i had drank, I had no idea that those buzz balls were malt liquor, it explains why i was way out of control that night. But it also woke me up to the idea that I could become that way in the future and hasnt changed my need to change.

[WCT74]

I found myself trying to think of excuses to have a drink tonight after a long day, and try as I might, I didn't. Plus knock on wood no talking to from my manager about me calling in, so hopefully dodged a bullet. Now on to tomorrow.

[roads]

Sounds like a good day, WCT74! It was especially encouraging to hear that your boss didn't get in your face. Hang in there, & keep coming back.
roads

[WCT74]

Despite the unusual stresses of the day, I havent had a drink. Instead I wrote a four page paper for school. I had the opportunity, I had a 5 hr window, still in the middle of it and I refuse to grab that bottle out of the cupboard. I just keep thinking how good i will feel tomorrow at work by not being hung over, honestly that got very tiring. Now on to tomorrow.

[Altered Moment]

Good job. One day at a time is how it is done.

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[roads]

You're so right, since--I keep my sobriety by not drinking, one day at a time. When it comes to my tobacco addiction, however, there are times I struggle an hour at a time!

Hugs to all my sister and brother addicts. Thanks for showing up and persevering ... I draw an amazing amount of strength from all of you on this thread.

roads

[glok]

Another opportunity for quitting is ending.

[gma45]

I wish I was better at taking care of myself! I am doing good though trying to work on some things that need to change. I have a tough time with confronting anyone or saying what I feel.

[WCT74]

Got to work this morning and stopped to realize how good it felt to not be hung over, not feeling sick, feeling more social, just feel good, I wish I could have been addicted to this feeling instead of all crap

[roads]

Sounds like a good experience, WCT74! I sometimes find false security in the good experiences, a problem I hope you don't share. I think after a few days or weeks of not using that I'm in better shape now, I can have a celebratory drink or smoke and stop again. I do kid myself--and I never stop after just one. Keep up your enthusiasm!

It's been quite awhile now, gma45, since I met you here. You struggle, but you keep hanging on and showing up. Your effort is inspiring. Thanks so much for reminding us that it's a day by day thing, this sobriety we want.

glok, I'm so sorry an opportunity is ending. Do you feel so out of control of your life that you can't make a new opportunity happen? If you do, I can tell you that you project a strong presence--you've got me thinking that somehow, given time, you'd accomplish whatever changes you wanted to make in yourself, including ending an addiction.

roads

[WCT74]

So far so good, feeling good especially mentally. True test coming up tomorrow, alone all day 9am- 6pm, plenty of time, kind of concerned. I feel this slight fluttering feeling when I think about it. Fortunately I do have things to do, that are really important, so we will see. My mind keeps telling me how this is different. Kids are out of town, no worry of them. But I can't listen because if I fail my first true test I may succumb to the hopelessness, so I will not fail. I can't I won't f*** my addictions, I'm better than this. Anyway sorry for the disjointed post, sometimes I just write, that's just my thought process on paper. ..well sort of paper

[madisgram]

I'm here. Hi everybody!!! Still sober. Still happy, joyous and free! Hugs all around to u all!

[roads]

madisgram:

Still sober. Still happy, joyous and free!

I'm so so happy for you! And
I can't find any other words to
express my delight at having
you here, back in the same
cyberspace with your group.
roads

[madisgram]

Originally Posted by roads

madisgram:

I'm so so happy for you! And
I can't find any other words to
express my delight at having
you here, back in the same
cyberspace with your group.
roads

Oh roadie u make my heart swell with joy. Ty Ty Ty for such a heartwarming welcome! I miss y'all when I'm away. Please excuse my "mysterious" absences. But please know you all are always in my .

[madisgram]

From my personal experience, regardless of drug of choice, one will not be successful ceasing their addiction until the consequences AND personal pain became completely unbearable. Even those factors statistically don't assure any wealth of success. I did not realize this until I stood at the crossroad. I'm glad I chose the "road less traveled." But it was by no means a virtuous choice.

[thickntired]

Originally Posted by madisgram

From my personal experience, regardless of drug of choice, one will not be successful ceasing their addiction until the consequences AND personal pain became completely unbearable. Even those factors statistically don't assure any wealth of success. I did not realize this until I stood at the crossroad. I'm glad I chose the "road less traveled." But it was by no means a virtuous choice.

For me I had to stop and face what I was unsuccessfully trying to escape - trauma, shame, guilt, pain, anger etc.
Basically, my childhood and beyond was what I wanted to blot out. It took 30 years of being blitzed to realize I couldn't do enough drugs to drown out the past.

[roads]

Oh yes, thickntired, you've zeroed in on what "hitting bottom". Is all about:

thickntired:

I couldn't do enough drugs to drown out the past.

Life still sucks, but sobriety rocks!
roads

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by roads

You're so right, since--I keep my sobriety by not drinking, one day at a time. When it comes to my tobacco addiction, however, there are times I struggle an hour at a time!

Hugs to all my sister and brother addicts. Thanks for showing up and persevering ... I draw an amazing amount of strength from all of you on this thread.

roads

and ....................... I still haven't touched the alchol or illicit meds, but have wanted to!! Guess I will always ''want to''. HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXX

[glok]

The impetus to conquer another addiction is lacking. My doctor told me it is killing me. I told the doctor we all are dying. He looked at me like I was nuts. I smiled. I am.

[WCT74]

Not only have I feel off the Wagon I set fire to it, damn

[WCT74]

I feel helpless against it

[WCT74]

Not in a good place right now

[glok]

I am aware of the challenge I face.