[Psyclox]

Im getting drunk, what does that make me a very bad person, thats me very bad always in the wrong and worth nothing. To freakin bad for me.

[Raynaadi]

Alcoholism is a disease hon. It doesn't make us bad people if we can't stop drinking. I couldn't stop on my own. I had to get help. Just like any other disease needs treatment, so does my alcoholism.

Its been described as an allergy. We can't handle alcohol when it gets in our system, and the urges and cravings and obsession kicks in and we can't stop. Its an obsession of the mind and body.

YOU ARE NOT A BAD PERSON FOR DRINKING.

I don't know how I can make you see that. I drank every single day before I got sober. Did that make me a bad person?

You're having regret when you drink now. That's gotta tell you something. When we do something we know is bad for ourselves, we feel regreat. And you're feeling that regret.

Maybe you're starting to see that you can't do it on your own AND THAT IS OK. Its not about weakness or lack of willpower.

For people like us, once that first drop hits our bellies, we're on a roll. We can't help it. YOU'RE NOT A BAD PERSON.

If you're ready to get help now, once you see what you've posted in a few days, see that regret, then you'll be ready to get sober.

You can do it. There are several of us here who are living proof that one can be sober and HAPPY.

Again, YOU ARE NOT A BAD PERSON FOR DRINKING.

(((((( Psyclox ))))))))

[EJ711]

Psyclox,

It is very difficult to break an addiction.

I'm sorry you have taken a step backwards for now.

I will pray that you find a way to move forward again.

EJ

[splitimage]

Psyclox,

Like Raynaadi said, alcoholism is a disease. There have been brain imaging studies that show alcoholics brains react differently to alcohol than do non-alcoholics. It does not make you a bad person.

Stopping any addiction is hard - believe me I know & have a few relapses under my belt to prove it. But it is possible to stop. When you're feeling better try making a list of all the pros and cons of using & i bet you'll see a lot more cons. Keep thinking of them when you feel like using.

Remember you are not a bad person, you are simply someone with an addiction and as hard as it can be that means not using is the only option. So try to get some IRL help if you need it. AA/NA meetings can be great places for support.

Take care of yourself.

---splitimage

[shadowalker164]

My grand sponsor (you got a sponsor Psyclox?) used to tell me all the time….”Pain was God’s great gift to alcoholics. It is the ONLY think that can make us teachable.”

Really good and kind people like Raynaadi, EJ711 and Splitimage have told you just about everything you need to know. These people are the salt of the earth, God bless them.

Now the way I see it, you have two choices:

#1 Continue to sit on your pity pot and tell us “I am such a BAD person, I am beneath contempt! There really is something perversely satisfying about wallowing in our own self pity. Nobody does a better job of feeling sorry for us than we do. Do you realize that this self loathing you are engaged in is nothing but your pride? Pride turned inside out, but still pure pride. We are either King of the World or lower than whale snot. In fact we are neither, never were, never will be. It is just our grandiose nature to paint it either black or white. You can keep this foolishness up, or….

Option #2 Get over yourself, dust yourself off and get back in the saddle. Psyclox, You ain’t that good at being that bad. Get your behind to a meeting, pick some poor slob as a sponsor and start the steps like your life depends on them.

My two cents worth.
Richard

[Raynaadi]

Here here!! Well said Richard, as always.

[Psyclox]

Thanx all, it really means alot to me to see so many people that care, and to answer your question Richard no I don't have a sponsor I'm not even in any AA program, I believe I can beat this addiction on my own, and I will in time. Thanx again all.

((((((((((psyclox)))))))))))))))))

This is just a blip. I believe you WILL overcome this. Sending hugs to you and much love,

jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[tranquility]

Hi,

I don't mean any disrespect at all, but if you're having trouble on your own I wonder why you think you can do this alone? Wouldn't it be worth it to reach to someone for help to see if it works better?

Tranquility

psyclox, i would try and remember that a relapse is just that, a relapse. It doesnt mean you are doomed to drink forever, just means you have to dust yourself off, and try to figure out what brought you to drinking in the first place. You can do it!

[DePressMe]

Hi Psyclox, I don't do AA either...its a tough and lonely road to go down. I have really had to work at creating my own "program." One thing that has been vital is that I have a couple people in my life that have been extremely supportive and understand what I am going through. One, who does not go to AA, kinda acted like a sponsor to me. Therapy was also an important component. Let me know if you ever want to chat.