OCD....it's gone completely out of control

This illness is a sick thing. What obsessions are to come next? I have had enough of it. I'm so confused and feel like I can't do anything anymore. My world is getting smaller and smaller. I feel sometimes like it's my fault that I am this way, or what have I done to deserve this? I suppose we all do this sometimes when we are suffering.

Oh, sweetie I'm so sorry that things are like this! I miss you! I'm thinking about you, every day!
Don't give up! You can endure this and raise yourself up, when the time is right. I'm here for you, my friend!

It will get better it really will..Mine is basically gone..though at one time I did not think it would ever go....I think the fear of it feeds it and keeps the cycle going..I learned to lol at some of my bad thoughts and they went away....HUGS

OCD rots and Sleeps is my hero, proves it can be overcome to some extent. I wish you luck.

Oh Estee,

I know what you are saying. The worst thing, well besides the obessions themselves and that we feel completely hopeless and our world does seems so small. I actually had a small situation this morning with a thought that almost got out of control but luckily I was able to calm and sooth myself.

Please be easy and gentle with yourself. You will make it through this rough patch. I know how difficult it is. We are here for you.

Huggles,

Jen

I had a really rough patch but it passed. Its so easy to get sucked back in...my T convinced me that living the way I live sometimes is not really living and to ignore how I feel and just concentrate on what I do...do the right thing and ignore the obsessions...I thoyght I was going to die for like a month but I didnt...and now I feel stronger...I really trusted my T..I know its easy to say "just stop doing the compulsions" but thats what I had to do and it worked....took a whole lot of xanax though but it was worth it...now, as soon as it starts I have to nip it in the bud,...once I do the first thing it just snowballs...does anyone here remember me in the backyard at 3Am taking about my air conditioner with a flashlight??!!! Boy was that awful...I know how bad it can be...Hugs to you...It passsed for me and it will pass for you tooo, even though it doesnt feel like it sometimes...

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my T convinced me that living the way I live sometimes is not really living and to ignore how I feel and just concentrate on what I do...do the right thing and ignore the obsessions...

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Hey there.... I FIRMLY believe that those words I quoted you on are dead on... If we can truly examine what we go through and realize that obsessing is NOT really living - it is letting our disease(s) get the best of us, waste our time, cause more un-just grief, etc. etc. Now we all know how difficult it can be, however I have written this phrase down, plastered it across the house, and can use it in SO many different ways... I firmly believe that it is appliacable to every-day life as well... Living my life worrying about the next PA, the next rage/manic episode, etc. is far from me 'living'.. It is my diseases/disorders running my life. Relying on xanax (yep - can't go anywhere w/out those either!!) gets me through this - but my main objective, in addition to doing whatever it takes to get to as best a point I can be, is to QUIT relying so heavily on that med. I force myself to go as long as I can w/out it, but the second I know I might - just might - have to go somewhere, that bottle better be right in my hands...

Needless to say, I want to sincerely thank you for those words.. What a sort-of 'obvious', yet realistic, concept!!! I sure hope you and the rest are doing as best as you can and you are all in my thoughts and/or prayers.. Take it easy Niko