Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

I am having a bad evening.

lots of anxiety

lots...

day was okay- now it isn't

(((((raging)))))

My anxiety's up a bit today as well

A lot of caffeine this morning meant an Ativan in the afternoon. I would get in really big trouble if my Pdoc knew I did this every once in awhile.

My stomach is a knot partly due to stress and partly due to anxiety.

Still worried about my husband. He didn't sleep well and even with a nap he was still drowsy.

today I went to buy groceries at the store

it was ultimately my downfall.. a lot to trigger me and make me anxious

plus- I couldn't get everything I needed, so was having a panic attack in the middle of the store

I came home and watched a programme on dogs- and then had flashbacks this evening which were bad

despite this my anxiety was al ot better than yesterday

I never want a repeat of yesterday

ever

Anxiety wasn’t too bad today. But I used my stress soap so...

Anxiety was so bad yesterday I stayed awake all night. Somewhat better today so I’m going to bed to catch up on my sleep. I hate those days! Anxiety is the pits.

Sending hugs to all those that are struggling

My daughter texted us in a meltdown last night just as we were going to sleep. Ended up not sleeping well and really worried. She's doing better now, but I can't keep doing this.

I woke up nervous at 12:30 AM this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. I took some anxiety meds and felt better. I managed to nap this afternoon so hopefully I made up for some of the lost sleep.

I do have some anxiety today

over my family trying to start their abuse again

bleh

This is my first time posting here.

I am anxious all the time. It is horrible. I have started trying to meditate a few times a week, and I go to acupuncture weekly because I finally got so sick of feeling this way that I knew it was time to start making changes. But I have had anxiety since I was 7 years old, so for 29 years. It is going to take a long time for these changes to take effect. I am hopeful but also very stressed out.

Being anxious every second of every day is unbearable. I have survived so much, this is the one thing that sometimes I think will send me over the edge completely.

I'm really trying to take control. Its a scary and lonely place to be.

I was feeling anxious this morning about work. I had a dream where my boss was not being so kind, and she wasn't today. That just made my anxiety symptoms act up 100x worse.

My anxiety is through the roof again today. I was on the way to get a pedicure and started shaking and crying so hard that I had to pull over. I pulled it together but I would gladly do without anxiety that’s for sure.

Sending hugs to those that are struggling.

I didn’t really have any anxiety today. Irritability yes. But no anxiety.

Today was really hot and my dog (who is very ill) was stressing me out so I stayed in bed til very very late, so I'm a little dissapointed in myself for that. But also trying to be compassionate towards myself. I'm currently not very anxiou in general but I am feeling nervous about one specific thing happening tomorrow. It will probably be fine, but I'm ruminating anyway. I'm gloing to meditate on it to develop a sense of strength before the exposure.

Right now I am getting some work done that I have been putting off for a long time and I'm very happy about that.

I was kind of anxious at the store today. I can hardly wait until the kids go back to school.

I have been posting on this thread for a few days now to really immerse myself in keeping better track of how I feel and why I feel that way. Things in my mind are chaotic so all the information gets jumbled up.

The exposure, an artist I was going to run into at a tattoo shop where I was going to spend two hours getting a new tattoo, so two hours ten feet away from someone I am uncomfortable around (due to a bizarre interaction, not because they are bad or abusive, just emotionally selfish which caused them to unintentionally hurt me emotionally) was causing me a lot of nervousness. Turns out he isn't even in town! *Insert eye rolling at my own self emoji here, haha!*

I did meditate last night as much as I could to bring my stress level about it down, but I waited until I had already been obsessing about it all day. This caused the meditation to not be very helpful. So I got no sleep last night and was so anxious on my way to the shop this afternoon. It was a good reminder that sometimes things completely work out for the best and that obsessing does not change things that I can't control. It also reminded me that I often worry about things that aren't even going to happen.

So, after getting a really great new tattoo and feeling relaxed while it was being done, I feel that I had a nice day and my anxiety is lower because of that.

Feeling grateful

heyh stephnickie.

I hope being on this forum (and posting about how you feel) goes part way to helping you feel better

we're here for you anytime

hugs

Very stressed today but my anxiety has been average.

I was very stressed and anxious during my camping trip the past week. All this on account of my dog. He has been attacked in the past and is thus defensively aggressive; not social with other dogs at all. My boyfriend insisted we go for a walk down to the townsite and beach. I panicked. But all went nearly well. We had a few incidents of growling, snarling, and barking but generally as long as we were able to keep him a minimum of ten feet away he behaved himself. A relief as my anxiety was over the top at about a 15/10 before we headed out but subsided to about a 5/10 by the time we turned around and went back. I was still in alert mode but so much better - and pleased.

I had a panic attack yesterday

lasted quite a while- and my usual ways of dealing with it didn't really work

right now it feels like I've another one on the horizon

but I hope not

Right now I'm dossapointed in myself for not doing as much as I can to make self-care and coping skills are more consistent part of my life. I feel like there are things I can be doing every day to help lower my anxiety and control my BPD symptoms, but I get anxious because I can't imagine ever really feeling better, or doing better. I am nervous thinking that I will never really be able to change, or that I deserve to be happy. If I'm not trying hard enough to be happy, then why should I get to have happiness? So I guess I'm anxious, stressed out and having a depressed view of myself.

it can really be difficult to remember self care- or think yourself deserving of happyness/ good thoughts

hugs to you