Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

I was at work and one of my coworkers asked another coworker a question. My coworker couldn’t hear her very well. This one coworker continued to talk but my coworker couldn’t hear her and then said a couple of times “but what did you say?” The coworker asking the question got mad and yelled “I NEED MORE!” My coworker was all like “ok yeah sure.” I was working on the other side of them. I could have been that person who got yelled at. My coworker vented to me about her after she had left. Since it didn’t involve me I don’t really care about the incident, but I do know to stay away from this coworker now.

But in general my anxiety was pretty low today.

Another day full of anxiety

The support group meeting was vastly improved last night. This was the third I had attended. A very big difference was that a man that I have frankly been upset about did not end up in my break away group. What a relief. This man is a self-centred jerk. He is cocky. He also has a military bearing all of which are triggers to my anxiety and PTSD. I don't understand why he is able to get away with his behaviour unchecked. Anyway, no cringing last night.

It wasn’t too bad today. I was originally working with the coworker who got yelled at. Then the coworker who did the yelling came and needed something to do. The manager told the first coworker to go do something else. Before she left she said “sorry to leave you with her.” I just treaded carefully with her and I was fine. She asked me a lot of questions since she’s new. I answered them correctly, showed her how when necessary, and just walked on egg shells basically. So yeah I was pretty scared of getting yelled at.

I don’t know why she thinks it’s appropriate to go around yelling at her coworkers when she’s not even a manager, plus the fact that she’s new and doing that is weird.

There are times I miss not working. Then I remember what it was like dealing with others or management.....

A bit tense and restlessness since earlier, I think it was from watching the video about the boat tragedy.

Thunderbolt struck near our house and fried the gateway router. Waiting for my husband to set up the new router so I can have wireless again.

Kind of stressed because we’re supposed to have thunderstorms all next week.

At least the power didn’t go out, though.

It wasn’t too bad today. This morning at work I had to lift some furniture and move some racks. I was worried I was going to get yelled at because I basically had no idea what I was doing. The person I was working with was very patient and nice. I did get asked if I had ever worked on the floor. I think they were just trying to have a conversation instead of critiquing. I didn’t get yelled at, so it was fine. I’ve been working multiple days in a row, pretty much doing the same stuff, working with the same stuff, and working with the same people. I’ve pretty much been on autopilot these past few days.

Today is worse. I'm full of anxiety again and begin to question my future study plan. Meanwhile, I heard Dad started to gambling... He is so harsh today and abusive. I'm afraid he keeps gambling and loses again...

Quiet day today. Daughter is out practicing parking test and has been packing boxes. She starts training tomorrow.

Have contractor rep come out so we can sign off on taking the window replacement off of our order.

Anxious but not too bad.

Pretty much no anxiety today. I’m not at work though.🤷*♀️

There are so many with anxiety disorders and other related problems. Is anyone in this group anymore? I've had anxiety, and depression and just feeling off since mom died 4 years ago. I have anxiety attacks and have only recently
been able to sleep again.
I was hoping for a response from someone.

So I am at a loss at how to get help for my anxiety. I think I really need to be on meds because it's completely OUT OF CONTROL. I have a severe Eating Disorder- Anorexia Binge/Purge type which I use to manage my anxiety. Obviously this is not a positive way to handle it, but it's the ONLY thing that I have found that has helped. It's the only thing that "matches" the intensity of my anxiety. If I don't practice/act out with my ED, the pressure in my head and chest is so overwhelming I CANNOT DEAL. I've been through ED inpatient programs, but nothing has addressed my anxiety. They have only deal with (unsuccessfully), my past sexual, physical, and emotional abuse...So BASICALLY I'm a freaking mess and I feel like there is no hope for me. Thanks for letting m share.

Hello there,

Do you have a therapist or case manager you can reach out to? My anxiety use to really be bad now it varies. I don’t take a med for it everyday. I really hope things get better for you. They can just work on them one day at a time.

Thanks for the reply. I used to have an awesome therapist, but I had to move out of state, so I had to lose her. My circumstances have financially changed too, so now I cannot afford the co-pay to see a new therapist. I know I need help, I'm just barely hanging in there. Thanks for letting me share here.

I completely understand about the co-pays. Right now I’m not in therapy. I attend a free mental health support group. We meet twice a month. I heard that yoga helps. I told my daughter about it. You could go on YouTube and for yoga videos.

Anxiety exists but it is fairly tolerable today thus far.

So I've got the physical manifestations of anxiety sometimes, but I think that's just a lot to do with my health issues. Still, I wonder if the propranolol worked better, but my other doc said it would interfere with my pre-existing condition. hard to tell if the clonazapam is working. It must be, but it's taken me longer to adjust to it or I just don't need it as much anymore.

it's strange, the word "anxiety" itself gives me anxiety, but I haven't exactly had many anxious complaints of late. I worry, but not to the anxious level. But I guess that's a good thing.

a couple are suing dollywood (a theme park in america), because a woman wasn't warned of the safety risks of one of their rides

and their's not enough info on it

I need to know the details.. it was a water coaster, yes.

what was the woman's name was the ride closed after for inspection?. what did the park say?. was the woman okay?

all this stuff is making me anxious not knowing

one of my compulsions theme parks.. I need to know

A little more anxious today. I am waiting a phone call that might invite me to a final interview for a job. it is hard to explain but this very worry is also a source of depression for I wonder that not being called means I am a failure. And again this causes worry and so the cycle begins.

I was nervous earlier but realized it was probably because I forgot my Propranolol. My stomach is in a bit of a knot at the moment.

Crossed the border today. I was told they were going to be stern. They weren’t bad. They ignored me and talked with my mom only. I was worried they would confiscate all the groceries I picked up at the Walmart in Canada. He asked us to roll down the back window too. I was panicking. I couldn’t really read his tone. He let us go with no problem. I’m wondering if the person who told me they were stern was joking with them at the wrong time, or perhaps got a women.

had a panic attack

put it down to the fact that their's a lot of bugs outside- and me being alergic to bees.. it's not a good time for me to be in

didn't last too long though, bad side is I had to cut short what I was doing (something that I was meant to spend 2 hours on I only spent 25 minits on)

So far, things are ok, but it is still early here.

Had a good morning but a panic attack early this afternoon. It's just about 3:30 now and I feel so-so. Hopefully the night goes okay, but it usually does since I'm usually at my best in the evening.