Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

Anxiety is high this morning. I don't know why, bc it is a normal morning, Same old, same old.

I can relate... I'm feeling better now though. I hope your day got better too

Now I'm feeling more impatient about getting the side obsession, than nervous. I feel like I can do this, but I just need to find somewhere that actually sells them.

I forgot my morning meds. I had taken my night ones at 4:30 yesterday afternoon. So I had been going a long time. The anxiety was bad from 6-11. Then I felt better.

Anxiety has been better lately.

I still pace back and forth a lot including on my breaks at work, though.

It has been okay, just looking into a side job.

It was really bad. I need to admit to myself that coffee and Ativan make things 10 times worse now.

Anxiety mood swings. Bit difficult to handle. Trying not to take medication.

I think my anxiety will go down if I lose weight. I’ve gained some weight. My coworkers like to gossip and are not exactly nice behind your back. My manager made some comment about his girlfriend not wanting to be with him because he gained weight in his stomach and thighs. The guy is stick skinny. I doubt it was directed towards me. I’m pretty sure I’m just paranoid. But it kind of bothered me. I’m pretty sure everything will decrease greatly if I lose weight.

Anxiety was bad until 9:30. Then I took a Xanax. I felt really chilled out. I felt like a hippy and I kept thinking “it’s all relative.” Anyways, I had a medical procedure this afternoon. I was terrified. I thought I was going to have an internal ultrasound. It turned out to just be a regular ultrasound. So what I thought would be unbearable pain turned out not to hurt one bit. I wish I had thought to ask more questions last week about the procedure so I wouldn’t have had so much unnecessary anxiety.

Have less anxiety at home usually and pretty chilled now. Listening to jazz and checking online sites, playing Wordament online game.

I have been shopping a few times and looked for the side obsession but couldn't find it. However I have seen similar things but not what I want. I think maybe the nervousness is going away. I won't know until I see the actual thing though.

I kind of felt like spongebob in the episode where the hippies were living in the Krabby Soup. I felt like Spongebob when he said “it’s all relative.” I just felt really chilled out by my new meds while still being aware and getting my job done. So my anxiety was fine today.

Today I handled things as well as I could considering my phone died when upgrading. Worked on my job projects and carried on as best I could. Just another day except for waking up in the middle of the night and the phone not on, no alarm clock now. Wake up get the IPad and set the alarm. Now that i’m tired, it’s 3 am, can’t really sleep too well, tried my best. Roll out of bed just around 6 am after hitting snooze, 3 times. Walked at my breaks at work, and felt kind of silly and lost without my phone in my hand, usually check the weather app, and maybe send a text and call someone to talk when walking on break. Now my phone is back and researched online about how to start it again and restore things. Alls well that ends well.

anxiety's been okay today.

yesterday it got al ittle out of control, because I had a stressfull day and had issues with my phone on top of that

but today's okay

today I got anxious over an alarm, which I assumed was a car alarm outside.

however I didn't know, and the anxiety I had turned to time loss and I lost about 2 hours

I might lose my SSDI and I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. But “it’s all good” oh how I love Xanax.

Stayed busy today unpacking rooms that were needing to be unpacked for awhile now. Anxiety on the back burner, but still kind of there, worried about work.

females on gameshows again....

I didn't turn it off, just busied myself so as not to see the possibility of her winning

then I wasn't focused on it at all

but I did see that the money wasn't won by anyone and the jackpot rolled over

It wasn’t too bad today. I just worry about how I’ll pay for my meds if I lose my Medicare. My mom says that won’t happen for a couple years so not to worry about it right now.

Just having forehead tension today. I didn't wanted to take a pain medicine since its stress.

feeling calm at the moment....

I couldn’t tell. Work went fine. I then was feeling off. I dismissed it as anxiety. I then had a type of stomach issue I don’t normally associate with anxiety . So maybe the anxiety I was having was something legit physical. That’s the problem though. You seriously can’t always just dismiss everything as in your head sometimes there truly is something physical going on.

Anxiety is bad at work and get home, walk my dog, do some chores, heat up dinner, watch funny show or movie, and can relax then. Why does anxiety have to be increased at work, some is ok to perform better, but too much is not fun. Will keep trying to do my best and fight it off, the anxiety, sometimes depression.