I dunno if there's any other threads like this but this thread is just a chat where we can talk about our daily ADHD things. Just say anything you want and we can respond to each other etc.. like a daily check in thread except you don't have to post every day of course, or every week for that matter.

Right now ADHD is really getting to me. I feel absolutely miserable and depressed after trying to study my English yesterday.

A huge amount of anger, shame and embarrassment builds up inside of me when I try to read long text. Especially when I try to read out loud in class. I can't take it. I vow to make sure I have an anxiety pill every time i go to class because every time i read out loud, I almost have a blown panic attack. yeah sure i can read the text but im not absorbing the information. not one word. It makes it especially hard if your anxious and have severe ADHD. My voice cracks, gets softer and then i can no longer read the text anymore. I've always pulled through though just shy of making people laugh at me.

My first panic attack took place when my teacher shamed me infront of the class for not doing good enough work on questions about a story i had to read. I was then put in a special class and was still so out of it i didn't even know how i passed. Maybe if my anxiety in those situations wasn't so bad, I wouldn't be so scared of not doing compulsions for my OCD and the OCD wouldn't become as severe to bring on a psychotic episode.

I'm good at writing essays (but not really) because all i have to do is talk and forget about what I wrote the second after i write each sentence. Reading essays is far different.

My pdoc says that he has to wait a month to finish paper work or something and then he'll give me ritalin or something. I hope it does something.

My therapist has to work on the OCD before the ADHD though (if i ever snap out of ocd). Since the OCD is going down, it just makes the ADHD more predominant and frustrates me even more by focusing on this one issue.

I feel embarrassed to even write this..

[Miswimmy1]

I am having a very bad ADHD day today...

I can't think. I have so much work to do and it's so overwhelming I don't even know where to start. Everything is a mess, and I have to clean for a friend who's coming over tonight. I can't focus on anything and it's like I'm moving in a blur from one thing to the next. My brain feels like its going super fast and I have so much pent up energy and no where to put it. Gah!

[yellowfrog268]

Strattera is making me tired and a bit zoned out. I'm on a starter regiment that begins with 25mg for one week, then up from there week by week.
Today is day two and the sedative effect is kinda weird. If I'm sitting on the sofa not really doing much then I feel like I could fall asleep but if I get up and move I feel more energized. Another side effect is that I'm hungry more than usual. People usually say that this drug makes you not hungry. The good part is that I've been snacking on fruits and other healthy stuff because I've heard that it's a bad idea to eat a lot of refined sugar when on this med because of the effect on the brain. I think I'm gonna start taking it at night instead of the morning. I've read other ADHD forums where people have done that for exactly the same reason and it seems to help. When you wake up the med is still in your system but most of the sedative effects have been mitigated by a good night's sleep.
Anyone else have experiences with this medication that they care to share?

Is it supposed to be bad if you mix caffeine with strattera does anyone know

[Maus5321]

I am just having a blah week in general. I suppose it is not specific to my ADD but I just have struggling to get motivated and do anything. i have so many things running through my mind but I cannot settle on any one of them. So I end up doing none of them.

I just finished school for phlebotomy/medical lab assistant about a month or so ago now. I was ready and raring to go. But my externship does not start until august 16th which is finally coming up. But I have lost the drive/fire. I was trying to get placed so there would not be to much of a lapse in time I was off to when I started. I have only been able to go into class two times to practice drawing blood since june 22nd which was the last day of class where as I was practicing two nights a week for almost a year. so now I am freaking out that I am gonna suck. Well that and because the nights I have gone since class ended I cannot hit the broadside of a barn now. I was doing awesome at the end and was really in my stride, I could not miss anything. But I have lost the touch and it is going to be like starting all over to me so my confidence is just in the dumps now and I do not even want to go and start it now nor do I even care at this point. I wish now the start date was later because after the weekend I go in for my second day. The class starts up again so I wish there would be a later start date now so I could go in and practice two nights a week and get back in the groove like I had.

[yellowfrog268]

I've heard mixed things about caffeine and Strattera. I have noticed that I can have one cup of coffee in the morning and one in the late afternoon but no more than or I start to feel jittery and this is only after two days on Strattera.

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[Miswimmy1]

I used to be on strattera and I found that taking it at night helped a lot with the drowsniness.

[yellowfrog268]

Originally Posted by Alonewithmycat

Right now ADHD is really getting to me. I feel absolutely miserable and depressed after trying to study my English yesterday.

A huge amount of anger, shame and embarrassment builds up inside of me when I try to read long text. Especially when I try to read out loud in class. I can't take it. I vow to make sure I have an anxiety pill every time i go to class because every time i read out loud, I almost have a blown panic attack. yeah sure i can read the text but im not absorbing the information. not one word. It makes it especially hard if your anxious and have severe ADHD. My voice cracks, gets softer and then i can no longer read the text anymore. I've always pulled through though just shy of making people laugh at me.

My first panic attack took place when my teacher shamed me infront of the class for not doing good enough work on questions about a story i had to read. I was then put in a special class and was still so out of it i didn't even know how i passed. Maybe if my anxiety in those situations wasn't so bad, I wouldn't be so scared of not doing compulsions for my OCD and the OCD wouldn't become as severe to bring on a psychotic episode.

I'm good at writing essays (but not really) because all i have to do is talk and forget about what I wrote the second after i write each sentence. Reading essays is far different.

My pdoc says that he has to wait a month to finish paper work or something and then he'll give me ritalin or something. I hope it does something.

My therapist has to work on the OCD before the ADHD though (if i ever snap out of ocd). Since the OCD is going down, it just makes the ADHD more predominant and frustrates me even more by focusing on this one issue.

I feel embarrassed to even write this..

Dont' be. I get similar symptoms when in situations like those you've described. Things like anger, shame, and embarrassment have plagued me all my life when I feel frustrated or stressed. It's like all the bad memories of things that I've failed at or been laughed at for come bubbling to the surface when feeling overwhelmed. As for reading aloud or speaking to an audience (even a small one) I tend to get a very shaky voice or I talk too fast or I'll miss cues that my audience is tired of listening. Teachers and others who shame people in a public setting ought to be reprimanded. In this day and age they should know better.

I think my ADHD is getting worse.. Is that even possible? I just talked to my mom about what time i should get up in the morning and I have no idea what she said. My reading sucks so much i don't know.

Maybe the meds?

[yellowfrog268]

Originally Posted by Alonewithmycat

I think my ADHD is getting worse.. Is that even possible? I just talked to my mom about what time i should get up in the morning and I have no idea what she said. My reading sucks so much i don't know.

Maybe the meds?

Hey there,

I've had those moments too! They usually happen when I'm stressed or my thoughts are concentrated on something else. Some things that have helped a little:

1. Alarm and Calendar feature on my cell phone. Have the phone in hand when you need to input a date or time instead of waiting to do it later.
2. For reading, if you can, use a highlighter pen to highlight important words in the text. Or, use index cards to write down main points.

Hope these help.

Thanks! I have coping methods but they're not very good i hope to learn better ones in therapy.

[Maus5321]

I have those to! I need to start using my calendar asap when someone tells me something.

[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by Maus5321

I have those to! I need to start using my calendar asap when someone tells me something.

Speaking of that. I just thought about. I made a doctor appoint for september 4th . I know I have it that day but I never wrote the time down anywhere.....smh

[MommaMK23]

I'm trying this out to find some help for all the chaos in my head. I was just recently diagnosed with ADHD, and other anxiety based disorders, as an adult and am having a very hard coping. Everyday seems like a stressful day and I cannot handle it anymore. I'm open to anything that could possibly help me. I just want to feel normal....whatever normal is.

[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by MommaMK23

I'm trying this out to find some help for all the chaos in my head. I was just recently diagnosed with ADHD, and other anxiety based disorders, as an adult and am having a very hard coping. Everyday seems like a stressful day and I cannot handle it anymore. I'm open to anything that could possibly help me. I just want to feel normal....whatever normal is.

I don't agree with the term normal? I mean yes normal has a definition in the dictionary. But nobody in the world fits normal. We all have our issues. We just have to get a sense of balance in ourselves. If that balance is not something considered normal. Oh well, normal is boring. Do what make you happy. It is a hard road to travel trying to find what makes us happy. But at least we travel it. Searching for what makes us happy. I am still searching everyday. harnessing chaos is hard but if you manage to get a little piece under control, you feel on top of the world.

[MommaMK23]

Originally Posted by Maus5321

I don't agree with the term normal? I mean yes normal has a definition in the dictionary. But nobody in the world fits normal. We all have our issues. We just have to get a sense of balance in ourselves. If that balance is not something considered normal. Oh well, normal is boring. Do what make you happy. It is a hard road to travel trying to find what makes us happy. But at least we travel it. Searching for what makes us happy. I am still searching everyday. harnessing chaos is hard but if you manage to get a little piece under control, you feel on top of the world.

That's a very good way to look at it, thanks. It should have been "normal" now that I think about it. With leaving my box for a moment, I should be thinking how do I find my balance? I feel like the real question right now is who am I and how do I find myself? Thanks for getting me to have an other perspective.

[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by MommaMK23

That's a very good way to look at it, thanks. It should have been "normal" now that I think about it. With leaving my box for a moment, I should be thinking how do I find my balance? I feel like the real question right now is who am I and how do I find myself? Thanks for getting me to have an other perspective.

Anytime! I am glad to have been able to give you another perspective I to am in the same boat as you. I am searching for who I am. I still have not found myself but I am still searching everyday. Some are better then others. Who knows I may go my whole life without finding who I am. But I just hope I get to the end of my life feeling like I did my best to find myself so I do not go with the feeling I left a stone unturned

My dad wont admit that he has ADD but i know it! he says its because he's old and he's not!^^

[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by Alonewithmycat

My dad wont admit that he has ADD but i know it! he says its because he's old and he's not!^^

I totally understand that! I think my dad has ADD as well as other issues! But he will not admit it to himself. He has built up this lie around his whole life. So to try and change now would make him face everything he has built up in himself.

[Arwen_78]

Well, as I've said in other post I haven't been medicated for 15 years nor have I spoken to a T for 16 years. After those 15 years I wanted to believe that I was normal and just might have been caught in the "buzz word" of 1980's ADD kids. I'm just not sure as I do still have some hard times dealing.

I understand my problems are seen as normal by others but I think they could also have ADD just nobody wanting to admit that they have ADD. Only because the people seem to have the same problems as me.

I've done will off medication, better than I had while on medication. I've decided to reach out for help as I'm driving myself crazy with "am I ADD" and "is it all just in my head." If you want more info read my profiles "about me."

[Arwen_78]

I know the feeling! I'm always going through it... I like to write but can never finish a story unless I make it a short story. I can start things but half the time can't finish them unless I have too

Originally Posted by Maus5321

I am just having a blah week in general. I suppose it is not specific to my ADD but I just have struggling to get motivated and do anything. i have so many things running through my mind but I cannot settle on any one of them. So I end up doing none of them.

I just finished school for phlebotomy/medical lab assistant about a month or so ago now. I was ready and raring to go. But my externship does not start until august 16th which is finally coming up. But I have lost the drive/fire. I was trying to get placed so there would not be to much of a lapse in time I was off to when I started. I have only been able to go into class two times to practice drawing blood since june 22nd which was the last day of class where as I was practicing two nights a week for almost a year. so now I am freaking out that I am gonna suck. Well that and because the nights I have gone since class ended I cannot hit the broadside of a barn now. I was doing awesome at the end and was really in my stride, I could not miss anything. But I have lost the touch and it is going to be like starting all over to me so my confidence is just in the dumps now and I do not even want to go and start it now nor do I even care at this point. I wish now the start date was later because after the weekend I go in for my second day. The class starts up again so I wish there would be a later start date now so I could go in and practice two nights a week and get back in the groove like I had.

[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by Arwen_78

I know the feeling! I'm always going through it... I like to write but can never finish a story unless I make it a short story. I can start things but half the time can't finish them unless I have too

He has no problems starting or finishing things. he was born in a different time though. He was born in 1957 and I suppose in his day you just shoved your troubles down and locked them away. I suppose that is what you were taught. The only reason I have ever considered looking for answers is times are different. I guess it is somewhat more acceptable. I am not a fan of doctors either though. i hardly go to them unless I absolutely have to. So the fact I even tried at in the mental health area is pretty crazy to me if i think about it now. But hey it has been for the better. I am glad I took the plunge and kept persistent.

[yellowfrog268]

Strattera is kicking my butt. When will the side effects go away?

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[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by yellowfrog268

Strattera is kicking my butt. When will the side effects go away?

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How long have you been taking it and what side effects are you experiencing?