Trying to be resilient...

... but can't seem to get over it. I'm sorry if I sound over-dramatic but this is just the way I feel: this week is auditions for the musical (Into the Woods). Performing in musical theater is truly my passion. I got good vibes from the director, he even told me when I didn't get callbacks to make sure to check back today b/c there were more callbacks. But I didn't get a callback today either. I'm just so heartbroken. I really wanted this to come through and have been dreaming about it for months. No callback typically means no part (although they say "you still may be cast even if you don't get a callback" - lies). I know I am a very lucky person and that this is a minor bump in the road but I just don't feel that way. I can't even think about it without tearing up. I can't focus long enough to do my work. I just want to cry. I'm also SO angry with the director and the theater department here. I'm good at doing musicals (not to sound conceited) but that's what I do! I can sing and I can act. What did he want from me? Why did he send me mixed messages that gave me SO much hope. I wouldn't be half as upset if he hadn't given me hope... The theater department is notorious for favoritism so I can't help but feel he had pre-cast the show so that I didn't even have a chance when I started out. I'm just so disheartened and trying to figure out what I did wrong?

I'm sorry if this sounds awful and petty and stupid but it's just how I'm feeling right now. I know there are SO many much bigger problems out there in the world...

Oh Sweetie! I know just how you feel, I am a Theatre major and have been in this exact spot before. Sometimes though they do come around and change who they cast and I have actually gotten a lead when I didn't even make a callback. I would go talk to the Director and ask if there is anything you can do. Perhaps you can work on the set or be in the chorus just to stay around the department - it might help you get a role next time ... just a thought?

I'm so sorry you didn't get a call back (((((((((Laur))))))))) Being disappointed like that after having good reason to get your hopes up is really, really tough. I'm really sorry!! I'm so glad that you are not taking this personally though, and that you know you are good at what you do. That is wonderful!!!!! How amazing to have found your passion and to be good at what you are passionate about!!!! Obviously it still sucks that it didn't work out with this particular musical that you really wanted a role in. I'm so sorry about that! I hope something else comes along soon that you are excited about and that enables you to share your talents with the public!!

So sorry that you didn't get the part laur88!

Hi laur88...so sorry things didn't work out for you
You've chosen a vocation that is full of disappointments and is often unfair. I hope you will be able to take things at face value - when someone else gets a part you wanted, remind yourself that it isn't personal. It's possible that the director was just trying to be sensitive to your feelings; You are passionate about theatre, and so maybe your other emotions are just as intense. I don't know how many times I've been convinced of someone's motive and been completely wrong. Maybe it's the BP or maybe it's me, but I believe the worst even though I would have to be a mind reader to really know what someone's motive is.

LaraLynn had a good suggestion; if you are willing to do the lesser jobs or take the lesser roles, you will have more opportunities to do the roles you really want. Do the things that will make you memorable in the next audition.

Sorry this is so long..I just understand how you feel and what it feels like to be rejected after a really good audition. Learning to accept the rejections is important, because in the business of entertaining, rejections happen a lot. Sooo... break a leg

I'm sorry you didn't get a call-back. Please stay positive - there may still be that opportunity you mentioned *sometimes* exists even without a callback.
When I get let-down, I try tell myself that everything happens for a reason. Try take this into your heart and soul and believe it. Explore what the positives would be for not being cast. Is there a lesson to be learnt?

I know it seems hard and like rejection now, but a - there is still a small chance, and b-there may be a lesson to be learnt through this experience.

The final cast list is going to be posted. I just want closure at this point... it's amazing how something like this upsets me so much. I mean, I have been really looking forward to it for about a year and a half but still... I feel so stupid for being so emotionally weak. I didn't go to class today because I just couldn't motivate myself to go. Ate basically nothing all day and can't focus on work. I'm just so angry with myself for letting this get to me so much. I'm trying to put everything into perspective and keep telling myself that it's not that big of a deal but I just don't feel that way. Hopefully with closure tomorrow I will be over to get over it...

Holding thumbs for you for when the final cast is published.
Sorry you have had such a hard time - it can be very stressful and demotivating, and it's only made worse with our BP. Keep your chin up - you know your worth and your talent.
Let us know - we care for you

It sucks and it's natural to feel disappointed. I would be more concerned if you weren't feeling anything. Please take care of yourself (eating, getting outside etc.) Hope you get good news today.

Didn't get a part. Nothing.

Hey, Laur88? Crosse your fingers, and tell them all to break a leg!

I'm so sorry (((((((((Laur)))))))))

They're a bunch of idiots and you are AWESOME!! Just like you are not your BP, you're also not one part in one play..persevere like you have been and your time will come.

(((LAUR)))

Thanks guys for all the support. The whole thing has been very frustrating because I got typecast... I'm always the ingenue (a high competition typecast group to be in!) and they didn't even give me the chance to tryout as something else. Disillusioned with the theater department but I'll eventually get over it (although I'm really good at holding grudges towards people who I feel have slighted me... I'm working on it though)

Thanks again for all the support. I really can't express how much you guys have made me feel better about myself after this hard hit to my very fragile confidence. You guys are the best!

((((((Laur)))))

Glad you are getting past this, its great that your learning to move on... a great skill to have...

MAJOR UPDATE for this forum!

So I got an email on Monday from the music director for this show and saying she wanted to meet with me. I went to meet with her yesterday and she told me that the person who was cast as Rapunzel in the show (which is Into the Woods by Stephen Sondheim) had dropped out. Crazy! Then she had me sing Rapunzel's part and told me she would talk with the director then email me. Naturally I checked my email obsessively for the rest of the day. It wasn't until this morning that I got an email saying she wanted to meet with me again... went over and she said I got the part!!! I can't believe it! I'm so excited but also kind off in shock because I had gotten so used to the idea that I wasn't going to be in the musical and was going to have free time this semester. But I really am excited! Right now it just doesn't feel like a reality; perhaps that's why I'm feeling a bit unsettled. Just thought I should let you all know. Thanks for being there for me when I was having such a rough time.

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ((((((((((((laur)))))))))))))))) That is just AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

That is totally awesome!!!!!!!!!

Yea, laur88!!!
It is especially great because you were so sure it couldn't possibly happen!

I am so entirely thrilled for you!!! YOU ROCK ! I had a feeling you were going to get a great part.

I am going to be studying with Van Brooks this semester in Austin - he is part of Dan Fauci's MASTERY program. I will be doing the MASTERY in February. I am excited to be acting again.

Doing my happy dance!! See, I told you you're awesome!!!