[kj44]

I'm 45, been married 19yrs. Last night my husband said he wanted to live alone. I work a minimum wage job, I have no car. I can't stay somewhere that I'm not wanted.I have been off my meds for 2 months, thought I was doing ok. I'm completely lost, I can't stop crying. I'm not sure why I'm writing this, I guess, I'm very afraid. My family are all some distance away, I'm completely alone.

[SmokeyPoole2012]

I know why you wrote this because there are people here who understand and care. Of course your afraid who wouldn't be? The idea of having to be alone after 19 years of marrage where you've built a bond, a foundation a safe place against the terrors of the world. Your going to need support call your family. Families have a way of overcoming the distances. Call your therapist, even if you feel like trying to live a life without treatment, now may not be the time to try it.

Good luck kj.

Kelli, I'm really really sorry to hear this.

Yes do you have family that could help you out, even with emotional support? Or any friends? Do you have a therapist?

Of course we will support you here in any way we can. Ending a relationship is never easy, especially a long marriage. (((hugs))) keep posting here, you've got us to lean on. I know it's scary and all the " how am I going to do this on my own" fears can be terrifying, but you can do it.

Keeping you in my thoughts. Xox

[Trippin2.0]

We're here K, and we're listening please call a family member and let them know what's going on. You did right by posting, please stay in touch

[kj44]

Thanks everyone, checking in. Wow, what a mess I am. I lost my therapist and Dr. due to no transportation, so, it was kind of me just telling myself, I can do it, without meds.
Been a really rocky road. I'm hurting so bad, I can't even explain, thank you for listening. You are all I have, family is far away.Never really had a lot of friends, I think thats that bipolar thing, ugh!!; Kind of taking it minute by minute now. Communication does help, thanks again.

[Trippin2.0]

Please keep us updated

[roads]

kj44:

[I]lost my therapist and Dr. due to no transportation, so, it was kind of me just telling myself, I can do it, without meds. .... Never really had a lot of friends, I think thats that bipolar thing, ugh!!

You are very perceptive, kj44! All the worst bipolar pre-programmed messages are running through your head now, and maybe just simply having your meds back would go a long way toward helping to stabilize you if meds worked for you before.

Could you possibly connect with your old medical support by phone and acquaint them with your current status? IDK, but maybe some resources are available you're not aware of?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm so sorry!!! If you can go to an urgent care w/ your old prescriptions they may be able to fill them if you want back on them. I would make calls to your local Department of human services to find out about housing, transportation, food and medical. Call local community centers to see if they have a driving instructor for low cost. Hugs,

[Yoda]

Everyone is giving good ideas about reaching out for emotional support. I would like to add that one of the first things you should do is talk to an attorney.

[kj44]

Thabk-you for all your good advice. I had rough night last night, meant to get up early enough to go to my GP, but, now I have to go to work. Last night was bad, I'm afraid I don't really care about what else there is. I'm trying to.

[kj44]

I forgot to ask, since I'm planning on seeing my GP, because I can walk to him. I was going to ask him for Lithium, that's what they put me on in the hospital, I'm very (you know the word), and I need help quickly, Do you think thats a good idea?? Thanks, Kelli

[Irreplaceable]

***E waves @ monitor***

Hi KJ. I'm not too far from you. I'm a midwest girl too Sometimes couples go through things and say things they don't mean. Are you sure he is sure about living by himself? I know you said that your family lives far away but is there any way that you can move to be closer to them and for them to help you? If the relationship is over, see your doc, get your meds to get yourself stable to where you are thinking clearly, rationally, and as mentally healthy as you can. This is and will be a hard time for you leaving you stressed which we all know will only worsen your condition and situation. Stay calm, try to think positive, get your meds, and see what your options are as far as where you will live. Reach out to family if you can. Everything is hitting you at once and that spells trouble. Get your meds ASAP and start planning your future...

If you are you know what, then yes I would say to ask for meds that will help you. Whether that be Lithium or something else...

[SmokeyPoole2012]

Originally Posted by kj44

I forgot to ask, since I'm planning on seeing my GP, because I can walk to him. I was going to ask him for Lithium, that's what they put me on in the hospital, I'm very (you know the word), and I need help quickly, Do you think thats a good idea?? Thanks, Kelli

I don't know if you should have to go to such an extreme as checking into the hospital. I would think that if you contacted someone at the hospital and told them your in distress they maybe able to help get you help more quickly.

[jaypop30]

I am going through something very similier to you. I have been with my wife for ten have to great sons and now she wants a divorce. I am in a really ruough state of mind right now to. I have been reaching out to whom ever I can talk to in order to get through this mess. It does help when you can talk about the issue. It may not be completelty fixed but the pain subsides just a enough to make it to the other side. Hang in there and we are all here for you.

kj44!
How are you doing today?

(Sorry for the late response, catching up from being 4 1/2 pages behind on threads.)