hit me with a big stick

it's surely much easier than trying to understand!?

I get really really fed up!!.....have to keep reminding everybody I lost my spaceship....I lost the only way back to where I belong.

....seriously not worried if and when and questions are smothering me I look around me and this planet is nuts!! there is way to much going on human saturation it's taken a couple thousand years maybe 5 and it's too much for psycho sponge brain what to process how to assimilate? what to ignore F it all!!

I know one thing if I could turn myself inside out I would flatten this suburb I try to exist in there is so much inside it never gets out excuse me passengers we are experiencing some turbulence please assume your crash positions...."yes immediately mam open your ears! and thanks for flying bipolar airways...

..."please ensure you don't miss your connecting flight with borderline airways and I recommend manic taxis when you land to take you back to wherever the hell it is......"

oh my god!!....hit me with a big stick...wake me up from this deep wakefulness it's obscene

(monkey disclaimer:.....not really sure what I'm on about but whats new )

Sounds chaotic. You need some real rest busy brain.

yes I agree....been driving mental all night for days even dreams are alive and stopped to fill up and whatcha' know I'm in the wrong vehicle perhaps it's stolen it's not mine it's falling apart how did it make it so many miles the wheels are facing the wrong way and looking even closer I know thats absurd!!

and how could I look my face is stuck to the windscreen and the head I brought along it's insane hairdo is on the backseat!

I'm drowning in chocolate wrappers the seatbelts are on fire so why do I feel so safe...must be just a normal drive round the block ...

I can't tell if your just having fun or if a call to pdoc to up the anti psychotics would be a good idea. You sound manic. Please call pdoc if you are truly feeling this way!

thanks lando ....I'm manic yes...

it's like ummm...lets see, it's like an airballoon that looks empty is cruising along the blue sky and in a panic I worry that it will crash cos no-one on board so I get airborne somehow land in the hot air balloon to save it but just as I get in it goes immediately straight into a thunderstorm...but it's ok...

I'm kinda used to it and sometimes it's just gettin a bit silly creative that gets me through it....



thanks bud

(I take the medication and do all the bits and pieces but as I've described before sometimes there is nothing that can be done for me....in that sense...the mentally ill mind is a resourceful, self preserving sophisticated and incredible thing)

Boy I wish I still had that spaceship I was delivered by The humans have made life way too complicated. There is no time to just disconnect and relax (as I'm posting on-line) and enjoy my coffee

You know yourself pretty well, things you may do, say, feel. So manic tip #3666 stay in, off the phone unless you absolutely need to and stay safe.

I've never visited the fully manic world, only hypo manic. I guess your feeling what I feel times ten. I couldn't imagine that.

Yes, there is something you can do about it, double monkey, but you've got to want to do it first.

You've got an inflammation of a portion of the brain and you need to calm that down
with meds, as you are doing, and with changes in your eating habits. Why the chocolate wrappers all around you? What's in them is poison, man, just like sugar is.

Take care of yourself if you want to come back to calmness, no nightmares, and
quietness.

I really do hope you find the answers for you.

Genetic

I want to respond adequately I always want to I never want to miss out anyone it's so tricky in ....'online land'....place of two dimensions and ummm?

it's....thanks

inflamed part of the brain Genetic....thats awesome!....I mean probly not but just never read it like that and it's clinically sound somehow I feel alright about it yep...the way you put that

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The inflammation thing is not my idea, Double monkey; it's the word of
a Duke University graduate psychiatrist who is very bright and aware of the holistic view to treatment of this illness. She also says that aspirin is known to help alleviate some of the inflammation. (Not to be relied on, though, to supersede prescribed medications.)

Genetic

Since when is natural, antioxidant-rich food poison? I love dark chocolate. After my Restorative Yoga class they give us tiny droplets of dark chocolate, and then I eat some of my own at home. The only chocolate that is too chocolatey for me is 100%; I can eat 99% chocolate although I am usually eating ~85%. Chocolate has never done anything bad for me. Hooray for chocolate.

I have been lucky in that I have been able to eat chocolate all my life. This is because as a teenager and young adult, I had flawless skin - my acne started in my 30s with Lithium. Chocolate used to be blamed for acne. What nonsense! Acne has hormonal causes, unless it is a side effect of a drug. My less lucky girlfriends who had acne as teenagers could not enjoy chocolate. But since then chocolate has been fully rehabilitated.

I love plain, no fillings dark chocolate. I am also lucky in that this kind of chocolate is the best for you health-wise. It is good for your heart and not only it. Read:

http://longevity.about.com/od/lifelo.../chocolate.htm

...still wonder I should be hit with a big stick!

it's the only way I've ever paid any attention to things in my life....

I am so drifty....drifty I don't see what others see I look so damn hard I stare and go CROSS EYED!

I get headaches looking so hard and yet I still do not see the 'apparently obvious'

5 days this week I was relatively subdued calm coping and got my hopes up a bit I was suddenly cured "I am normal!!"

crazy boy can't see back or forward gotta go manic to find out I don't have to look anywhere else but where I want to and I like things in the bipolar world it makes sense...

so I guess it don't matter?

I just cannot get over chocolate being labeled POISON. Sure, like Cyanide. Or worse.

"2. It can improve your mood: Dark chocolate stimulates the production of endorphins, chemicals in the brain that bring on feelings of pleasure. It also contains the chemical serotonin, which acts as an anti-depressant."
http://www.rd.com/health/healthy-eat...ark-chocolate/

...i don't eat it much but when I do I like it yep

sure safer than a few other things self administered before

Off topic a little I know but I need to correct something for you.

Inflammation of a portion of the brain!! Noooooooo!! The university graduate psychiatrist has much to learn!

And sugar would only be a problem to those who may be diabetic.

what does "graduate psychiatrist" mean as a title?

I found your spaceship dubblem!

oh peggy I love it!!

look at the silly little bodies getting beamed up it's fantastic...wobbly helpless beamed up silly little bodies can I please be one of them please I want to be one of them silly wobbly helpless little beamed up bodies

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Please see http://www.doctoryourself.ruthwhalen/caffeineallergy and since we
are using internet references, go to any of the sites that relate to caffeine and adrenal gland stress, adrenal fatigue from caffine use, etc., etc.

Are we about to have another "webisode"?

Well, Hampster, you're not SENSITIVE to it. Many people are, just as they are to caffeine, and chocolate is loaded with caffeine. But you do have your own sensitivities, though---the red wine which causes migraines for you. Red wine doesn't affect me at all in that way. Corn will cause headaches for me, though; so will wheat. They are sensitivities or intolerances.

Doublemonkey, sugar is poison, too, just as I suggested, for those who are sensitive to it, not just to diabetics. It is helpful to look at long-term effects of some of these things. As young people, that probably doesn't interest you. But it will as you grow
older when your electrical system begins to wear down because of the strength and easy-going lifestyle of some youth. We know that bipolar patients have a shorter expected life span than others.

I'm trying like the dickens to keep the electrical system in tact for at least several more years. Even a pacemaker has been helpful. I don't want any of you to have
to go through that as a result of thinking that things are good for you when, in the long-term, they may not be at all.

For more information on that read Dr. Kathleen DesMaissons book called "Potatoes, Not Prozac". or another of her books(called, I think--"Radiant Recovery"--) on sugar sensitivity and alcoholism. No need to discuss the ravages that alcohol induces (when one is an alcoholic or sensitive to alcohol and probably sugar).

Her doctorate is the first awarded for nutritional treatment of alcoholism with changes in diet. She is the daughter of a brilliant military man who died from alcoholism and she understands the sensitivity to sugar in alcoholism. She has had high percentage of success in treating alcoholism in patients by changes in their diets.

Yes, Lithium will cause acne--this from a skin specialist who treated me for it.
(Lamictal will, too; see the reports on the internet.)The antidepressants are designed to prolong the reuptake of serotonin, but some people can't take them, Hampster. It isn't a simple problem. It's very complex.

Everyone is different. I gave the information to Doublemonkey, because he seems so hopeless about anything that might change things in his illness.

Here's the rule of thumb regarding this: we are often addicted to things that we are sensitive to--this from an allergy specialist.

The only way to know if one has a sensitivity or an allergy (and more often a sensitivity, because an allergy to a food is a real danger. One can die from an allergy very quickly if not given epinephrine.) to a food is to remove it from the diet for two weeks. If one feels better, then he/she should avoid the food completely.

Doublemonkey talked about chocolate wrappers being all around him. That struck a bell with me just as it stuck a different bell with you because you know that you are not sensitive to it. I am and I know enough about the sensitivity reactions that I would not use it now, even though I like it intensely, too.

Genetic

"chocolate is loaded with caffeine. "??

"For the record, chocolate contains small amounts of caffeine."
https://www.amanochocolate.com/artic...chocolate.html

...hey I hope I don't screw with nobody here inadvertantly like accidently but the thing is....

I never ate no choccy tonite today I used it in one of my weirdo whacky bipolar metaphors....

most things are metaphor figurative and give us all a prize if any of it makes sense....but nope

monkey no eat no choccy today....can only wonder what would happen if I did?...yikes

like it still

anyhow.....carry on....'as you were'...hehe

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Well, that's a moot point, because if one is sensitive to it, any amount
is harmful.

I know an allergy specialist who had a patient who was allergic to blue cheese. He took shots for it, but was told by this specialist never to eat blue cheese. The patient made the mistake of getting blue cheese on his salad at a restaurant and died before he could be treated.

A sensitivity is not that dangerous, but the long-term use for a person who has a sensitivity to caffeine is serious. Again, see

http://www.doctoryourself.com/ruthwhalencaffeineallergy

Genetic

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Well, that's a moot point, because if one is sensitive to it, any amount
is harmful.

The point is to watch your language. You said that chocolate is LOADED with caffeine. This is UNTRUE. You said that chocolate is POISON. This is UNTRUE.

It is best to avoid counterfactual statements altogether. If you want to talk about some food sensitivities in guys who use metaphors, talk about "food sensitivities" (a nebulous subject that is not loaded) and not "poison" (a clear-cut, loaded word). Likewise, do not attribute loads of caffeine to a product that contains only very modest amounts.

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Sorry, Doublemonkey, but she is a graduate of Duke University with a
degree in Psychiatry. She lectures on the subject and also has patients whom she treats.

She is correct about bipolar illness being an inflammation of a portion of the brain that fires too rapidly. Doctors don't know why yet, but I think they are working hard on it.

Other doctors may call it a chemical imbalance. I suppose it all depends on which university or college one receives his/her degree. Dr. Kay Jamison Redfield may be about as close as anyone to a thorough evaluation that suits all tastes.

I respect my psychiatrist and believe that she is right based on the
experience I've had with her as my psychiatrist and what she has taught me about how to care for myself and what works best. I have no doubt that she is right and that her credentials are legitimate.

As for the sugar and caffeine, a little examination of some of the records on both caffeine and sugar are in order if you wish to know the real truth about both of them.

Good wishes and good health to you.

Genetic