I feel SO ANGRY all the time

About 2 months ago I found out I was bi-polar,and I spent almost a month in the hospital from it.Im on my
meds but,i still just feel so angry.I dont know what to do
anymore.My life is just CRAP and I HATE my life.

Dear angry, you are speaking my language, I am sooo tired of being angry and feeling so much aggression toward my loved ones (especially), don't they understand how difficult this is ? Especially since I have been this way for so long. I am a master at disquising my true feelings...
I am taking 200mg of lamictal and impatiently waiting for it to kick in. I just want everyone to leave me alone with my misery, NOT !!!, I don't much care for my behaviour, but am at an impasse as to what to do about it. I don't know if this helps, didn't meqn to take the focus off of you, just hoping somethings I am going through will create a comradship among us. Thanks for listening.

boy , i dont have any excuse then , i'm a normal able bodied male , i dont know what my excuse is then for my anger , i detest the fact that i have no self control

brendon

You may need an adjustment or change in your meds.,often after time passes from being discharged, pdoc's will (or should be doing) monitor the meds and see how the patient is doing.
You should definately take this up with your pdoc. and check out what is happening and what other options there are.
When I went to hospital, the meds and doses they gave me for 10 days, were changed after my discharge and pdoc appts.
This might be what you'll need, can't hurt to check it out.
Take care now,
DE

Lamictal, is great, but if your Bipolar,consists of more manic or hypomanic episodes vs depressive, you may need a different mood stabilizer or something in adjunct with the Lamictal.
Lithium is excellent for Bipolar-I, my brother had been on it for years, for he use to have very agitative and even violent, manic episodes.
Lithium has been around for many years, has the longest track record, and is formulated in different types, I had been on Lithobid vs Carbo Lith, it was mild, I had no side effects, and was non-sedating allowing me to function,drive, and work.
Lamictal is great in that way too, excellent for Bipolars with severe depressive episodes and mild manic ones.
Again, I think you would benefit by talking to the prescibing physician. You may also benefit by combining pdoc visits with a therapist.
I wish you lots of luck with this, keep the faith.
DE

Normal? No one is 100% normal, so they say.
There are criterias for certain disorders, and believe me their are many disorders that many fit the criteria, and have not a clue, till they are evaluated by a psychiatrist, and/or psychologist.
Many of us go through a denial stage, the longer one refuses help the deeper the denial/resentment becomes, just messing things up more.
If a person is troubled with their own behaviour and/or sees the majority around them are having a problem getting along with you, it would benefit you to see a therapist, from there he or she may refer you to a pdoc, if it appears that you require one.
Refusing help or seeking it, is a hint too, that you just may have a problem. Life is much too short to be miserable, and cause misery, you owe it to yourself, to get help.
I hope you'll find peace, lots of luck with this.
DE

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Sometimes, yeah, life does seem like complete crap. I found my diagnosis made me feel like I had a life sentence and I was always going to be as bad as I was when I was diagnosed.

The only thing that can improve your life from crap to whatever you desire is to try. Put effort into improving it, because nobody has that power but you. No medication, no doctor, no therapist can make decisions for you that will make your life better. They can offer you help, they can give you advice, and medication can help with symptoms, but you need to make the decision to do things to help the situation.

If this means putting the effort in to graduating school - then put the effort in. If it means getting a job - get a job. It's hard in the beginning because everything seems hopeless, but you have to do it if you want to change your circumstance.

Best of luck.

thank you everyone for giving me advice.I havent answered back in awile cause i was in the psych ward.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY wish i was just back in the hospital,(i got out 2 days ago)and left alone with my own thoughts.Noone understands me.Not my pdoc,not my regular doctor,not even the kids at school,or my guidance counsellor.How are you supposed to tell someone if when you try to they wont listen?sometimes I just think about how so much happier everyone would be if i were never born.They would probably be happy.Noone would have to drive me to the psychiatrist everyday,noone would have to drive me to the hospital every month to have CT scans done and noone would have to help me with my homework because im too RETARDED to understand it myself.Im just so messed up right now.

give it some time. it takes time to adjust to being back in complete control of w hat you do, when you do it, and so on. my last hospitalization it took two months for me to adjust. Some people it takes less then a month for others is can take up to 6 months to adjust to not being on the hospital schedules and having someone right there all the time ready and willing to listen at the drop of a hat, telling you when to take meds, when to get up, sleep activites to do and so on. Hang in there.

(((((Homedawg))))))))

Thanks everyone for all the advice.sorry i havent answered back in awile.Im still trying to adjust being out of the hospital.I had gotten so used to the doctors taking care of me that it got hard when i had to go back into the world and face my problems again.but,im trying to adjust.

If you have bipolar, I think you need more than Lamictal. I take 400 mg. of Lamictal, but also Abilify & several other meds. As mentioned in another post Lithium works well for many people. It worked well for my moods, but had the side effect of abnormal kidney function so I had to quit it & try other things. It took me a year to find the right combo, so don't give up hope. I also hope you have an AGGRESSIVE doc who listens to you, is up on the newest treatments (including using drugs "off label", & willing to change meds if they aren't working or have too many side effects. Good luck.