[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Supanova

I feel great today. Such a relief! It was easy as to get out of bed, easy to eat breaky (no anxiety threatening to make me throw up every minute), the dishes in the sink do not seem like an impossible task and it is easy to get up off the couch. I honestly thought last week that I was never going to get out of that depression. This happens every time but I cannot believe how easy life is today.

Day 6 of dropping the antipsychotic and surprisingly absolutely no withdrawl symptoms (besides the first day when I dropped it too suddenly). I didnt think it would be like this, I was expecting terrible withdrawls, so thankful that there are few problems so far.

Hope it stays that way and that you don't gradually get manic like what happened to me. And I didn't go off completely.

[AnxietyGirl916]

Hanging in there. These last few weeks at work are drraaaggginnnggg.

[Moose72]

I'm feeling a little anxious tonight- again. Dunno what to do about it. Break out the ativan? I dunno. What should I do?

What are you anxious about? Try to find the cause or thought that is making you anxious and diffuse it. A little anxiety is bearable, I'd only turn to meds when it is unbearable. Distraction is a great technique for me too

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Supanova

What are you anxious about? Try to find the cause or thought that is making you anxious and diffuse it. A little anxiety is bearable, I'd only turn to meds when it is unbearable. Distraction is a great technique for me too

I know what it is that I'm thinking about I just can't get it out of my mind. I'm already watching tv. But the thoughts still come. Ugh. My stupid brain.

Maybe write out your thoughts and shred the the paper? Or burn it? Or put on some booming music and dance embarass the kids lol

[Moose72]

Lol The kids are supposed to be in bed right now. I think I'll just keep watcing tv and hope it helps.

Have you tried CBT? Challenging the thought, is it a productive worry? What about mindfulness, some relaxation? I know that can be challenging at times, I find progressive muscle relaxation or body scan mindfulness to work best for me so that I am focusing on a part of my body, so much that there is no room for other thoughts. It becomes white noise in my head so I can focus on the here and now.

[SillyKitty]

Went to the pa-c today. She upped my Latuda. She also thinks I have "schizophrenic tendencies." These happen outside of my episodes. But she doesn't think I have any sort of schizophrenic type illness, though the way she prescribed the Latuda it is for schizo. I've decided that she either doesn't know much about about the drug or she is keeping my true diagnosis from me. Either way it's not okay, so I've decided to get a second opinion on my meds.

Otherwise, work, medicine, and crashing on the couch.

[Andysmom]

Saw my Pdoc today. We dropped the zyprexa completely. Yea! Some concern about my kidney function (had bloodwork done last week) so I have follow up with my gp. I hope it's not one of my meds causing a problem. I feel almost stable at last, don't want that to change.

[Blue_Bird]

Saw my therapist yesterday, there's this program I'm in that's supposed to help me get a job. I should be hearing from them soon, and I would get a job coach to be with on the job site for the first week or so. They'll also be available after that if I need them for any help. I'm also going to be trying to a get a 1 day a week volunteer job in the meantime. My mood has been good overall, I'm happy to be stable. The bipolar is in check my only problem now is my anxiety which needs a lot of working on.

[Cyclowolf]

Not so good....

Just had one of those bp times where too much stress from too many directions turned into a meltdown for me. I snapped harshly at a coworker (granted, he's half deaf and I was also getting sick of repeating myself!) and I frickin HATE it when I get stressed out like that.
I just want to be alone and sulk and say eff it all and go live in a shack by the beach alone.
I just don't do well long term with people...something eventually makes me snap.
Doomed to loniliness.

[Phoenix_1]

I was losing it this morning. Panicking and crying. Finally at 11:30 my worker called and she will give me my disability check for November. I hope I get it tomorrow so I can pay my rent. I'm still depressed. Why does life have to be such a struggle, day after day?

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I was losing it this morning. Panicking and crying. Finally at 11:30 my worker called and she will give me my disability check for November. I hope I get it tomorrow so I can pay my rent. I'm still depressed. Why does life have to be such a struggle, day after day?

Yay! I'm glad it worked out for you.

[Moose72]

Its halloween and the kids aren't going out. No costumes. This is a first. They'll just be giving out candy, I guess. *sigh*

[RenjiCat]

Having a hard day..lots of crying despite the antidepressant.. it seems like nothing is going my way! Nothing! I see my pdoc tomorrow. I'm supposed to bring in all my old meds.. guess I better get those together.

Still not over my overnight meltdown at work. Its not like I was up and screaming at people, just really pissed over how so many things can go horribly wrong at a Fortune 500 Company.
But what bothers me most is how I totally was beyond reach...just couldn't reel myself back in.
I was SO angry and SO pissed. I don't get like that but maybe a couple-a-three times a year max.
I felt it coming on and tried so hard to stop it...but it was all too much for me.
Lack of sleep, 2 people talking to me at once, a cluster fu@% of problems...I lost it, pure and simple.
So now I pick up the pieces and move on.

[FaithlessCat]

Good day today, spent most of it working on my halloween display and then had a party out on the green with the neighbours. Only downside is I know after such a great day I will more than likely come crashing down tomorrow ... ah well will deal with that then meantime I'm good

[Zabine]

Pretty good day today. Lunch with hubby (well he ate I played with my food, thank you wellbutrin.) Being productive at work. Read several chapters and put a pretty good dent into my project for my requirements egineering class. I am feeling calm, peaceful and clear right now.

Can it last?

[Moreta]

My first day at work went well today. Had a freak out at lunch, b/c I was confused about everything, but went back in and figured everything out. Was a productive day.

No stress day, half slept through the early part of it. Not feeling as bad inside as yesterday but still wiped out and foggy. Still hopeful it wont last a long time.

Good day so far. A little tired, but there is a reason for that. Still finding it really hard to get out and ride my horse. I feel good today, I have no excuses not to do it (besides the lame excuse of heat and flies), so then the guilt sets in... I feel like I need a life coach to get me back living my life instead of existing.

I am perfectly content with how I am going today, but that doesnt stop the feeling that I "should" be doing more. Honestly I really SHOULD be doing more. I know this is a should statement but it is the truth, my horse needs the attention and work and I am not doing it, why??

[Blue_Bird]

Definitely hypomanic, feeling great of course but these racing thoughts need to stop

Had a super crappy day yesterday - - lots of crying. Today am bringing my husband to an outpatient procedure, and then who knows what. Want this depression to end - - feel so miserable.