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TRIGGER WARNING: SUI
Despite being really depressed and constantly tiptoeing into sui territory, I am really loyal about things I have promised to do. So my boyfriend makes me promise every day to talk to him tomorrow. So far I guess it's working.
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Bipolar 2 (in remission), anorexia (in remission), and trichotillomania, also have conversion disorder that seems to be rearing its ugly head again. 100mg Lamictal |
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Yay for your boyfriend comic
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#228
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Just got a shower and put my pajamas on. Always feels good! Letting my hair air dry, too. Put a bit of leave-in conditioner in it. The kids need to get started on their homework!
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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A little sad today. Doesn't feel like it's going into a depression episode thankfully, just feels like the normal ups and downs of life.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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So its just clicked, I am still in depression. Despite my positive attitude and lack of saddness and crying, the other symptoms are just too prevalent to ignore. I really thought I could beat it if I stayed positive and active. Not sure where to go from here. I wasnt keen on changing my meds but I have been trying really really hard and its not getting me any better. I am still able to function but it is such a struggle, and I know it can be better than this.
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#231
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I'm getting tired already and its only 8:00. Kids don't go to bed until 9:30. Oh man I want my bed now!
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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#232
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All I did was get up 2P and now I am all hypo and can't sleep. Dang.
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#233
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I'm doing better...upping my meds was definitely the right move! I'm still down overall, and more anxious, but it's not nearly as bad.
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I'm doing okay today. I've realized I need a life. Don't have one at all right now. I keep isolating myself, its so easy to get comfortable being alone. I'm not sure where to start, volunteering? Maybe something to get me out of the house a few times a week and around people. I miss having a daily schedule, I think that's extremely important in relation to mood cycles.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#235
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#236
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i'm okay, i guess. well... okay as in having bad thoughts, self harming etc.. but that's like my normal- but their's nothing really much going on here today.
and i've not really had any cause for concern either- my mood's been pretty good |
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#237
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I'm ok, very nervous and jumpy. I am meeting my ex best friend for lunch. I haven't seen her in 17 years! Hopefully the connection is still there. I am proud of myself for setting this up, hard to do when you can't get off the couch.
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Bi-polar 2 Lamictal 225 titrating up to 300 mg Celexa 40 mg Wellbutrin 300 mg Deplin 15 mg Klonopin .5 prn Benicar 20mg Synthroid .1 mcg |
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#238
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i did a really stupid thing this afternoon
watched emmerdale (which i watch every day anyway), but no one told me how triggery today's episode was..... god! in the space of an hour, almost every bad intense thought was triggered by emmerdale (i did try to turn it off, but felt bad for not watching it) so i watched it to the end now i feel blah!. like, really blah |
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#239
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Trying to work.. intrusive thoughts.. hiding behind my hair.. aware that I could tumble very deeply into nothingness.
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Haven't been on here in a long long time, but thought I'd jump in.
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RX and Daily meds: Vraylar 1.5mg daily, Gabapentin 900mg daily General Anxiety Disorder; Panic Disorder (unspecified); Borderline Personality Disorder; Schizoaffective Disorder/Bipolar Type; Fibromyalgia; Sleep Apnea "putting on a brave face, trying to ignore the voices in the back of my head" - Gotye |
#241
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Sitting in starbucks realizing this doesn't do flash. Puh. I can't edit photos on this then. Even if I had the adaptor for my camera.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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too exhausted for words. Good thing I am not depressed, but I am having a hard time not spending myself into the poor house again. I am doing my best to keep it to things I actually NEED, not just crap I see I want.
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Feeling a little better. I got over being mad - what's the point really. I'm doing my laundry at long last. And I weighed myself on the doctor's scale downstairs and found out that I lost 7 pounds.
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Dx: BP2 with GAD and OCD Seroquel 100 mg Risperdal 0.5 mg Clonazepam (Klonopin) 1.5 mg Buspar 5 mg Lamictal 200 mg Coversyl Plus for high blood pressure Crestor for high cholesterol Asmanex Ventolin ![]() |
#244
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Anxious and sick at my stomach! Yesterday I got a call from an out of state number (I don't answer numbers I don't know). I was going to check the voicemail but forgot all about it. Well I just checked it and it's from the job fair I went to- they were wanting to set up a second interview. I called back but got a voicemail. I left a message, but what if it's too late?? What if by not checking my messages yesterday, I missed this job?? It would be a good job for me right now- low stress and only minutes from the house- possibly only part time, but still.. Ahhhhhh my stomach!
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Renji Dx: Bipolar I and PTSD Rx: Bupropion 200mg 2x Gabapentin 300mg 3x Levothyroxin 75mcg 1x Quetiapine 50mg 1x Reminder: You are not a tree |
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#245
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Had lunch with a friend today, took the dogs for a walk, and - - most importantly - - found that I could work on my legal brief and actually focus and think straight for a couple of hours.
Today would have been my fourth day in a row of feeling like my depression had lifted. When I realized I could only focus on my work for 2 hours (pouring over medical documents for the brief), my head started spinning, I felt overwhelmed and anxious and then questioned whether my depression has really lifted. How do I know when I'm "normal" (not hypo or depressed)? It's so confusing to me . . . Any thoughts on this one? |
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I've been on depakote for 3 days and I can't seem to wake up! I know I don't want to be manic but I don't know if I can stand this, and the attitude from my husband sucks! Like I can help it! My brain feels like its between radio stations. Very uncool. I give it til Mon, when I see my ther.
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#247
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depression not lifting. No matter how many people I force myself to.socialize with, I feel so alone.
Though, one of my friends practically tackled me.with a hug earlier today after she saw a tumblr post by me about self harm and why people shouldn't be jerks about it. That was nice.
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Bipolar 2 (in remission), anorexia (in remission), and trichotillomania, also have conversion disorder that seems to be rearing its ugly head again. 100mg Lamictal |
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yes, can relate, anxiety girl, hope you'll be feeling better soon. I love your little avatar, and enjoy your posts as well. Take care, Anneo59
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