stayed in bed until around half 9 this morning (despite getting not a bit of sleep last night). feeling excited because i'm going to have KFC today- my sister's picking me one up.

no luck with getting my music back, the person that was gonna help me decided not to in the end- so blehh
probably gonna watch some dvds and that is it

[tigersassy]

Was wide awake at 7 which was like 8 hours of sleep which leans toward non manic, but I think the racing thoughts and over the top thoughts about myself and overly energized self make me think the seroquel is the only reason I slept. Ready to do stuff but nothing to do it's saturday and I'm broke thanks to lsat weeks spending spree... Go go go

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[Rzay4]

I had a long day hanging with family. Officially exhausted.

[Cyclowolf]

The Hypomania is official, I'm hopeful, talkative and hyper, or what most people call normal.

[BipolaRNurse]

Celebrating my 55th birthday this weekend. As of midnight I'll be "officially" a senior citizen for many purposes.....gonna go out tomorrow and get me some discounts!

today it's the katy perry forum that's getting me going

oh... they have this really stupid rule that i can't see any sense in at all- and i'm so frustrated

actually took it out on 1 of the threads in the general forum about it, but no one responded

dam katy... all i'm saying

[gayleggg]

I was looking forward to seeing a friend of mine today. She is in the hospital after a suicide attempt under going dialysis. I havent seen her for several months due to her being in a mental hospital too far from me. We planned onmy coming today, as she is only 90 miles from me now. She called this morning saying she didn't feel uproar visit but I'm afraid iif don't see her today I may ever see her again. I lost count how any times she's attempted but she gets closer to dying each time. I'm wanting to go anyway just to give her a hug but hate to go against her wishes. What do I do?

[Phoenix_1]

I'm home from the hospital after my 2nd knee replacement surgery. Thank God I only have 2 knees. This time i did not have a meltdown with morphine withdraw, for which I'm very thankful. I'm tired and in a lot of pain, but I'm very very glad to be home in my own bed.

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[AnxietyGirl916]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I was looking forward to seeing a friend of mine today. She is in the hospital after a suicide attempt under going dialysis. I havent seen her for several months due to her being in a mental hospital too far from me. We planned onmy coming today, as she is only 90 miles from me now. She called this morning saying she didn't feel uproar visit but I'm afraid iif don't see her today I may ever see her again. I lost count how any times she's attempted but she gets closer to dying each time. I'm wanting to go anyway just to give her a hug but hate to go against her wishes. What do I do?

I would go and tell her your concerns. All she can do is kick you out.

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[AnxietyGirl916]

Doing ok today. I slept weird and now have a pinched nerve or something in my shoulder and it hurts! :-(

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[Rzay4]

I'm doing better, dislike my mom forcing me to stay somewhere I don't want to be.

[Felgore]

I feel I've been run ragged.

All the normal issues were compounded by my husband losing his job. Rent is coming up, it's the middle of the month and his was our only income. Not making enough money to have a savings.. My stomach's been in a knot since it happened Wednesday, and my anxiety, stress levels and emotions have been all over the place.

An hour ago, though, he was able to talk to a relative who can lend us enough money to cover bills. I think his last check will give us enough money for one more month of rent.. So for the moment, at least one more month, we'll be okay while trying to find something else.. With things momentarily settled, definitely going to try to find a way to see a doc soon.

I'd appreciate any good vibes and well-wishing anyone can spare.

[Moreta]

I got up early this morning and went to church. Sermon was about Martin Luther King Jr. and how my state passed a very restrictive voting act. In 2016 people will need to show their ID to vote. There's going to be a huge march on Feb 8th, protesting everything that is going wrong with our state. Other then that I slept most of the day. Had to go meet my mom to get some money from her so we could get wood. Going to pay her back on Wednesday so she doesn't ***** about it. I just started my job last week so I don't get paid until Friday. My husband gets paid Wednesday. Just have to be tight with money for 2 days.

Other than that, I'm not seeing things. I think this Fanapt is going to work out.

[tigersassy]

Up to late again. Can't sleep in tomorrow gotta be up by 4 to be at work by 5:30am. Took meds an hour late and I'm not tired yet. I'm all over the place thought wise. I really gotta get psychiatrist figured out. Somethings going to break I just hope it isn't me. Calling insurance tomorrow and hopefully can get something figured out. If I remember to call... been really scattered lately and causing "memory"problems. Going to try to go sleep.

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Cramps are really starting to get old. On day 6 of constant, uncomfortable, cramping now. But so far no mood disruptions! I get a few moments of craving carbs and chocolate or getting weepy but nothing that lasts too long, and nothing bad at all.

I am super hopeful this is the answer to my prayers, I can deal with a few weeks of cramping if it means I dont go nuts 9 days a month.

Having to miss group again this week cos my car needs repairs It will be the second week I miss it and I do miss it. Got a friend coming to spend the day with me today, she suffers from depression and gets really lonely so I've been having her over for a day once a week to keep her company. I really dont want her to end up back in hospital but with my commitments at the moment that is all the time I can spare.

seems like demmi lovato is my light in the dark for today.

day's been aweful so far, but i did get to hear skyscraper and that was worth it

[msd3788]

Want others to get my problem..hoping with time. Would Aldo like to learn how to get an avatar.

[AnxietyGirl916]

Doing ok. Traded one pain for another though. The pinched nerve in my shoulder is gone but now my lower back is killing me. I'm trying to work through the pain and avoid taking any pain meds unless the pain is totally intolerable. So far Bayer Back & Body is taking the edge off but it still hurts. Going for a short walk in a little bit to (hopefully) loosen up the muscles.

Sore Got lots to do today too, which makes it much worse at night. I am trying to be positive, I can handle the cramping... but it makes me more emotional and anxious and I have pdoc plus family and friend visiting to do today. Its going to be a loooong day without the heat pack. Feeling nauseous already, I think my friend mr spew bag will be coming with me today. Time to go outside I think and start tackling this anxiety.

Edited to add, I just went out to see my horse, she kept sniffing at my tummy and resting her nose on it, she knows its sore. Whoever said animals arnt healing has never met the right one!

Hip's been acting up the last couple of days. Mood-wise, basically alright. Emotionally, a roller coaster. BF's been going off the rails quite a bit lately. It's hard. The unpredictability. Turns out trying to determine if someone else is lucid when you yourself have just woken up in the middle of the night is… tricky. There is no one else, so it's down to me to try to assess what's going on and what to do. It's far from the first time. But this has had the "usual" mixed with some new stuff. And possible sleepwalking. All mixed in with "business as usual" (which is what passes for "normal" around here).
Long and short, guess I'm kind of stressed. But mostly keeping it together. (So far!)

[tigersassy]

So my spouse told me last night that when my mood gets to high or to low I turn into a paranoid schizophrenic. I wanted to yell at her and cuss but shes right. If I don't judge what she says she is stating a fact based off of the information she has. Right now I see the truth in her words. But it's still eating at me because I don't see help in the near future since I'm still trying to get a psychiatrist. I really need to get my ***** in gear with this mess because it isn't getting better.

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[gayleggg]

Well, I'm depressed again today. Keep hoping it will lift. Things had seemed to get better when he raised the Latuda, but now I'm back where I was.

Posted this on the depression ups and downs too but just want to say I'm happy to have been contacted by the General Counsel of a major corporation for a potential job in the legal department. It wouldn't be until later this summer, but it would definitely be worth the wait. I'm just feeling more optimistic lately. I'll take it!

[AnxietyGirl916]

Still dealing with back pain. It isn't as bad as it was yesterday. It still hurts though. I babysat all day and stayed inside, so I'm feeling a bit restless.

Well the anxiety of yesterday was absolutely right! I did far too much yesterday and paid for it last night. Nothing is on the agenda today, maybe some washing and cleaning but not much else, it caused far too much discomfort doing that much. Was good to see my friend though, she lost everything in a fire, her strength and courage was inspiring. I am so blessed to be surrounded by simply amazing people who show me life can go on, even after such devastation.

Mood is still pretty good. Hoping to spend some time on self nurture today. I have a full fridge and some great fresh food to get into, I might make something amazing for dinner and do a whole lot of relaxing.