[Angry1541]

Been on a hypo run for a few days...when things are crazy busy at work it fires off my hypo side...and that carries into my home life...which isn't all that bad...I get a bunch done, but I talk a lot and act really hyper goofy...

Things will calm down at work next year....hahahaha

[Standup2me]

Today I am strong and brave.
The bf started complaining that I kept him up
all night tossing and turing
I said, well princess there is always the spare bedroom
Use it

[Atypical_Disaster]

I'm still hypomanic. My medication increase toned it down from full-blown mania but I'm still hypo anyway. Not sleeping much, irritable, euphoric, grandiose, more impulsive than usual, talking a lot, etc... Oh well.

[Angry1541]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

Today I am strong and brave.
The bf started complaining that I kept him up
all night tossing and turing
I said, well princess there is always the spare bedroom
Use it

Nice!!! Love it! Though I am always the one having to use it...which I don't mind cause I can toss and turn with impunity.

[BlackSheep79]

I've been on Latuda for 3 weeks now. I have been suffering from debilitating panic attacks and restlessness, which my doctor just put me on med leave for another month. I have also been having suicidal thoughts. My doctor added Librium, Cogentin, and Ativan until the Cogentin builds up. I'm scared to death right now because this last week I went back to work and that is when the panic attacks happened. Now being on med leave again and going back in a month I am afraid it will happen again and I can't leave work this time because I will lose my job. I'm trying not to worry about it so I can focus on getting better. This sucks the anxiety and panic I am feeling, it just builds in my chest, I want to scream and jump out of my skin.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by BlackSheep79

I've been on Latuda for 3 weeks now. I have been suffering from debilitating panic attacks and restlessness, which my doctor just put me on med leave for another month. I have also been having suicidal thoughts. My doctor added Librium, Cogentin, and Ativan until the Cogentin builds up. I'm scared to death right now because this last week I went back to work and that is when the panic attacks happened. Now being on med leave again and going back in a month I am afraid it will happen again and I can't leave work this time because I will lose my job. I'm trying not to worry about it so I can focus on getting better. This sucks the anxiety and panic I am feeling, it just builds in my chest, I want to scream and jump out of my skin.

Have you ever heard of akathisia? It's a sense of inner restless that's usually accompanied by anxiety and it can be totally debilitating, that sounds like what you may be experiencing. It's a side-effect of medications like Latuda. The cogentin should help, if not there are other medications that can. Feel better!

[BlackSheep79]

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Have you ever heard of akathisia? It's a sense of inner restless that's usually accompanied by anxiety and it can be totally debilitating, that sounds like what you may be experiencing. It's a side-effect of medications like Latuda. The cogentin should help, if not there are other medications that can. Feel better!

I had read about akathisia before and wondered if that was what was going on. The symptoms to me feel like a panic attack in a way which is how I understand the akathisia to be. I wonder how long the cogentin will take because the Ativan barely does anything for me. Thanks for your help on this one.

[lonelychick]

In a MAJOR funk tonight. I just want to cry but I can't. All the pressure is just building inside my chest. Sigh.

[nummy]

I'm cranky and I'm a bit worried how that will work out for me. I'm longing to go out and socialize, but experience with people has left me cold inside in terms of relationships other than family. I guess you could say I'm feeling cynical. People just disappoint me, they aren't nice, kind, or reliable, outside of a few in my family. Hoping to see one of them tomorrow so this crappy mood dissipates. I hate it. Hoping this isn't a precursor to my mood changing, either, as I really had been doing better. I'm just ruminating to past offenses made against me far too much. Farr too much....

[Skitz13]

Been laying low. My mood has been pretty stable for the last 4 days which is amazing because I'm trying to quit smoking as well. I think the Latuda and all the other therapies are kicking in.

I'm almost paranoid, don't know what's lurking around the corner because this never lasts. Not being negative, being realistic.

I will enjoy this period just the same.

[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling pretty good. I saw Peter Murphy play in a tiny club, which was really cool. It's 3 am now and I'm not feeling tired. Maybe the saphris will kick in soon

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[charo224488]

Originally Posted by TippPatt

I'm so lonely today I'm looking at Craig's List. Lord Help Me !!

You know it's bad when....

Thank God I've set an appointment for July 8th with a shrink. I personally prefer a psychologist. This will be new for me since being diagnosed some 28 years ago now. I've only seen the one - God John Bovey. He passed in 2008 or I'd of contacted him again. What the heck, I have to find someone in the same state, and the same astral plane, right? So, I start again on July 8th.

Until then, I'm one lonely person - I have to say, thank heavens I have a dog. Buster is keeping me alive right now. If he knew that, do you think he'd run? Nah - he's too cool. I adore him.

*sigh* I am truly lonely these days.....

I know exactly what you mean. I don't think I could have made it this far without my dog- she seems to know when I need to cuddle with her and when she needs to pull me out for a walk. Dogs rock! I don't think your dog would run- they are too loyal and loving.

[bumble2u]

Can hardly remove myself from horizontal position these days or eat, but the energy comes from alcohol. I will not write about the intent . This part is the only bit that holds hope. It is lonely when you can't talk about what is on and in mind. It is a narrow path not suitable for companions along this road. It is also final and that is a comfort.

[tigersassy]

Things are so difficult in my life. Crawl into hole waiting for new psychiatrist to call... 😞

[ceramichornets]

I exercised today!! Did some Pilates, which I haven't practiced with in over a year. Really kicked my *****.

I was having a hard morning but I think I'm okay now, I'm not sure. I've been wondering if I've been feeling apathetic or numb lately, but a friend of mine suggested that maybe I've just never felt neutral before now. It's still a weird feeling.

[Standup2me]

I got a dog today
Life is so good.

She makes my heart smile

Had a run in with a coworker yesterday. I spoke to the boss and everything I said was correct, but I could have used a little more tact. I dont know how to fix that. Its been SO much worse since I got the mirena. This is the second problem I have had a work in 2 months. The first time I had a horrible 4 days ruminating over it and now I havent stopped ruminating over this issue either. Its causing suicidal thoughts, I am so over these hormone changes affecting everything in my life. I asked my boss if perhaps I should have time off when the hormones are acting up, she told me to relax. I cant relax unless I have a plan in place to STOP this happening again.

I've spoken with my therapist about these things but she always says I am being very rational. How can I be the rational one if I keep having problems? Im constantly told I am the most sane person my friends have ever met but why do I keep having issues? My friend told me that relationships are usually not very rational, that makes things really hard. I just want it all to stop, why cant I just get on with my life?

[lonelychick]

Roommate just said some REALLY hurtful things about overweight people then promptly left to hang out with friends. I cannot stop crying. I was already feeling isolated and lonely and fat and now I feel even worse.

[Losingcontrol89]

Since I have been trying to talk to my fiancé calmly about what's going on with me and he's been trying to respond without anger because he's confused, things have gotten a smidge better. I'm still dealing with the energy it takes to get out of bed in the morning which poses a problem to going to work and getting up with the kids. And I'm still stuck in my head, trying to determine what's real and what I'm making up in my chaos rages.

[r010159]

Well, I am watching Thunderbolt and Lightfoot as I dream up what I am going to do on m vacation. This day has been good today. I feel lucky to be alive. So far, I have not spent any money today which is an accomplishment today.

[happywoman]

I haven't posted for a whole but feeling very blue this weekend. Looking for some understanding. Don't have any one that I can talk to about bipolar moods. Just have to wait til it passes.Keep welling up with tears. Wish it would go away. I need to go away but not time yet. I'm sure tomorrow will be better.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I actually got a good night's rest last night. First time in awhile.

This bipolar depressive episode is approaching 11 months long now. This is crazy, and VERY hard to endure . . . !

[Skitz13]

I've had four days of a relatively stable mood. Haven't had this since early March. Scared to breath a sigh of relief just yet but I'm enjoying the stability

[r010159]

Here I am sweating in 100 degree heat to take a break from my mother who is constantly asking me what her name is and what my name is. Just bought a new sofa. I am glad I purchased it while not manic!