[Serra27]

Feel like a bouncy ball, an irritated one, everyday. Trying new meds, hoping again, they will work.

[Moreta]

I feel a bit lonely. My husband is at a comic book convention and he's not coming home till tomorrow. I'm going out to go to panera for dinner to get out of the house. They have free wifi.

[Skitz13]

Another good day under my belt. Walked 8k's this morning. Remained calm throughout the day. Had a little nap. Now I'm going to make a healthy dinner.

Something's changing, I can feel it. I've had a med add on and have started acupuncture and have added herbal supplements and I'm wondering if maybe this is a good combo for me.

Whatever works man, whatever works. I'm so enjoying the break. I'm not feeling totally stable yet of course, but more relaxed.

Keeping all stimuli at a minimum

[Standup2me]

I started my quest to adopt a dog.
I don't want a puppy, an older one is what I want

I think I am overwhelmed. I have so much to do and feel like I cant do any of it. I wish there was an easy out. I dont think I am suicidal, but wish I was dead. I keep pushing myself to keep well, but I am ready to give up now. Its such a struggle all the time. I do my best every day but it is so bloody tiring. I want to cry for help to my friends but they have been so supportive and I have lost a few in the last few months due to my mixed episode and I do not want to scare them with my thoughts. And there is not much they can do. An encouraging conversation may help but I need to learn to do that myself.

Now I am starting to panic, getting the "I cant do this" thoughts. Filled with agitation, restlessness, disappointment, pain, strong negative energy that is eating me up inside. But I am too depressed to move. I feel like my heart is just going to stop beating because everything is so overwhelming. I wish it would.

[Hbomb0903]

I had a very productive day but had a very sudden mood shift later in the afternoon. I've just come out of a lot of isolating and went to a big party. Felt okay at first but then got feeling alienated and anxious and couldn't socialize much at all. Stayed even though I was uncomfortable but then just had to go. Calmer now and I have some insight into the sudden shift but I've never had such a sudden shift before. Was unsettling and disappointing after such a good morning. Tomorrow is a new chance though.

[tigersassy]

I'm not doing well. I don't know if this is depression or mixed. I just know I want it to end.

Tig

[sdguy123]

Anxious, isolated, alone, sad. Things I don't want to feel.

[r010159]

I am here. An ambulance took my mother to the hospital. My mood has been mildly mixed, and up and down and up and down. I can't say I am enjoying the ride.

[charo224488]

Originally Posted by Roblovescats

Confession: I haven't been reading yours. I have needed a break from "being bipolar" and stayed off here. You have all been a great support but I've needed to just move on and forget for awhile about my illness. I feel ok right now even though I know I have some bad things going on in my mind... I can deal with it. I get too emotional reading about others' problems that are so familiar... I need to detach I guess ... Not think about it all and just live...... For better or worse
Love you ALL! Big hugs ... Be tough

Sent from dark side of the moon

It's nice to see a post from you. I've been doing the same thing- sometimes visiting daily is too much. But, I was worried when I didn't see you on here for so long.

[Skitz13]

not as great as I've been the last couple of days but not as bad as I felt a week ago. Just riddin the wave.

[Skitz13]

Attempted to have my daughter over but it didn't turn out so well. She has BP as well. She's a little high and I'm a little low. Not a good mix.

[Roblovescats]

Hey big surprise I just got two new Kitties!!! They are sisters and were feral. Funny as can be!! So cute I just want to dunk them in my coffee...

[Skitz13]

All this talk about people holding down a job is really depressing for me. I have a real passion for the work I do and I wish I could continue it. Helping people fulfilled me and gave such gratification. I miss it so much.

[r010159]

I am doing OK and bored. I thought I was about to crash and had this need to lay down. I then tried to relax instead of thinking impending doom. It worked. So here I am taking care of my mother.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm calm and don't think my husband is going to hurt/kill me today. My niece got out of IP today and her dad dropped her off with my sister forever. So they're done with their 12 year battle is over. I'm packing the art shelf, decorations, and doing laundry.

[mysticalmusic]

I am having a very good day. I hope i'm not hypomanic! I woke up at 5:30a and haven't stopped since I woke up. I don't have a desire to drink to try to manage my hypomania. I don't think I have it right now. I hope I'm not in denial. But I've never been so successful in my life! I go to a place called Quyana Club House during the week. We have our own psychiatrist, clincians, and case managers and extra-curricular activities! Sometimes we go out for coffee and cookies, or check out the Botanical Gardens, go to AA meetings, etc. I am lucky to have this support in my life. I am a high functioning sza person. But i do have troubles with being depressed. I am on 150 mg of Effexor xr and abilify 30 mg every morning. I also take buspar and Trazodone for sleep. Thank you for reading my post and God bless...

[Standup2me]

Happy to be alive
Happy to feel the sun on my face
Happy to feel grass under my feet
Happy to hear the birds sing

Happy to be in this world

[tigersassy]

So mad right now. I can't sleep. This is going to make me snap! 😡

Tig

[Honeydew1]

I've transitioned down, fun, fun. I just feel out of it, sad, tired, and just blah.

[Skitz13]

I've been all over the place today. It's been a ride but I have a friend who seems to be able to keep me grounded and she doesn't even know it.

[r010159]

I am ending the day a little down. My mother is in bed sleeping. My daughter is with her mother until tomorrow. The cat is acting aloof. The next door neighbor helped me with my mother today. We shall see how the professional caretaker will work out tomorrow for my mother, that is if she shows up.

[Curiosity77]

I'm starting to plan the logistics of going to Burning Man. There's a lot to do over the next 2 months to get ready, it's kind of overwhelming, but I think I'll be able to figure it out, I hope so anyways

[Skitz13]

Couldn't sleep last night. slightly hypo. It's gonna be a long day. Have to see my T this morning. I would like to walk my 8k's today but I don't know

[Skitz13]

Yup, totally hypo