[Wander]

Deeply depressed, hopeless and full of despair. Thinking about suicide but don't want to hurt my family/friends. I know this may pass but it will just come back again. I am so over this illness

[AccidentalEnemy]

Suicidal hate. Arrogant. Ashamed. Hopeless. Yet blank at times.

[Standup2me]

It has snowed for two solid days

I can't seem to get warm, even though the furnace is turned up to 22

I miss summer already

[Hopeful Camel]

Feeling pretty good today. Much more calm than yesterday. I wish I could stay in this place forever.

[tigersassy]

I've fallen to somewhere. A angry depression kinda place. I don't like it. Hormones is what this probably is. But that doesn't matter I just want out. My wife knows I'm injured and I drive 30 mins to work 5 days a week. She turns music up so loud she can't hear the phone ring. I asked her for help. Which I'm supposed to be doing, right? After 3 hours on my way home I finally get a text back. "Yeah I guess". To me yeah I guess means: yeah if you want me too, but I don't want to or yeah (but why can't you do it yourself I'm busy). This is what she's said before when I've asked what's yeah I guess mean. Now I'm being the ****ing crazy one. I'm done. It's better for a few days then it turns sour and I'm the crazy one. We are having her brother and sister in law over for dinner tonight. I told her I'm going to bed before she left to go pick up her sister in law. Honestly I want to shore her what crazy is. I'm not crazy. I'm not. She doesn't realize how much that hurts. I'm not crazy.😢

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Hopeful Camel

Got a new job today, and went into a panic attack. Trying to calm myself down with positive affirmations. I am capable of doing well. I am capable of working as a professional. It will be ok, it will be fun, interesting, and challenging in a positive way. And I will be just fine.

If you have the courage to do that, you are one strong, tough person

[eleckra69]

Serene!!!

[Hottiedepressed]

Wired...

[bondgirl]

Excited to go shopping

[Curiosity77]

I've been dealing with multiple phone calls from my Dad, who is in poor physical health, but also severely depressed and very anxious. He's calling every couple hours, panicking and crying. I gave him the phone number to a good therapist and told him to call his psychiatrist. I want to help, but i'm finding it exhausting. Plus i'm kind of resentful because he wasn't in my life when i was growing up, but now he's 70 and expects me to look after him. I will look after him, but it's challenging. My sister won't even take his calls. I'm screening the calls, but i'll call him back once per day. I need to keep my boundaries, because i can't fix this. I really hope his pdoc can do something. And i'm terrified that i'm going become like this in the future. Mental illness really sucks.

[Tucson]

I am here. I feel a little blue. But this is still better than earlier in the week.

[Love&Toil]

Doing alright, lots of fatigue though and low motivation to work for 1.5 weeks now. Everyday is a struggle and I need a break. Just a mild ennui, constant.

[Hopeful Camel]

Low energy. Meh. Don't care enough to feel blue.

[Standup2me]

I have a cold
So I am cranky

[Angry1541]

I think my abilify is working....but man I am kinetic today.

[tigersassy]

Crappy. I hate ****ing cycling. Do I call Pdoc or just deal since its that time of the month. I want to crawl in a hole and stay there. But here's the funny thing I have completely coherent bouts of epiphanies. Fml. Hole please.

[Curiosity77]

I saw my therapist today for the first time since July, and it was a really good session. I told him that i stopped all my meds except lamotrigine, and he thought that was a good decision. He thought my energy seemed better, which i agree with. He pretty much validated all the things i have been thinking about this stuff. Then i said that i worry that maybe i just have poor insight, and everything is going to turn bad without meds. He said that doubt proves i am sane, because the mark of true insanity is certainty - all the evil things that have happened in the world were done by people who were certain they were right. My pdoc is certain that i will fall to pieces without meds, but there is no way for her to be certain about that. There is nothing in the world that is guaranteed. I'm not going to live inside superstition

[Standup2me]

Still cranky
I feel like poop

[Skitz13]

Doing ok, keeping pretty busy. My life was turned upside down over 2 months ago now and I'm still trying to regain my focus. I'm really struggling with that.

[Sinking Feeling]

Back on Zoloft with my regular med Wellbutrin. I was getting too zombied out on all that seroquel my pdoc was prescribing! I know I prolly should not be on Wellbutrin and Zoloft or as I call it, "Well Off!" because it always puts me on the edge of mania until it starts doing nothing again. I been so down and struck with so much anxiety, I needed to get back on Well Off!

[Igniris]

Trying not to give in to my depression, but feeling very trapped where I am so its making is almost impossible. Hoping when I get to go to my friend's house that it makes things slightly better while I am there.

[Tucson]

Now it has been over a month with depression. It gets better and worse and better again and again. Right now it took some effort to get out of bed. At first I could not do it, so I fell asleep for a couple hours, and then tried again.

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Tucson

Now it has been over a month with depression. It gets better and worse and better again and again. Right now it took some effort to get out of bed. At first I could not do it, so I fell asleep for a couple hours, and then tried again.

You are trying
That is what matters.
Trying is hard to do

[Pikku Myy]

Doing pretty well here Trying to keep busy

[Roblovescats]

Not enough hours and energy in me to do everything I need to do. ..