[jack123]

Mood has improved. Less depressed. Working on anxiety now. Have to figure out how I can afford seroquel xl because this has greatly helped my mood. Have no insurance and only work disability money.

[4ALittle]

New to the site. Glad to have found it.
Beautiful day. Need to do a little housecleaning Posting on forums instead.

[THE16THDOCTOR]

Depressed. Latuda completely screwed me up. Increased my depression to points I haven't experienced and gave me Akathisia. Excruciating. Withdrawing from it I assume been off it for almost five days. How much longer to get back to normal I was only on it for six weeks. Ugh. Why do these meds have to increase our symptoms were taking it for to fix. Bullcrap. Enough abt me Hope everyone else is doing well.

[sylo]

Coping with the mixed state of emotions I am having,,,,,it will pass

[Love&Toil]

Hugs to all who are struggling. Hang on tight.

More of the same today. Feeling down, exhausted. Yesterday I was super productive. Is this a bipolar thing? I wonder. I'm nervous about various things and it's getting to me. Must just keep reminding myself I am good enough. Feeling overwhelmed but I have good reason to as I'm working full time and parenting three small children and running a household and providing support to family and doing some self employment on the side. Super woman needs a rest. Lol

[Hopeful Camel]

Woke up at 2:30am. Felt SUPER! But never went back to sleep, and now I'm exhausted. Trying not to take a nap. Saw a friend for lunch.

Called the counseling center to get an appointment for therapy but they said I have to move into town first, then two week wait. To see pdoc, wait is until December. Had my name put on waiting list.

Made appointment to see GP for tomorrow. I need to keep plugging away at my meds, until we get them right. I can't go on being despondent, agitated, and awake, all at once. But right now I have a smile on my face and I know I am trying to get better, and that is what counts.

[tigersassy]

Crying... tired... headache....eugh

[DelusionsDaily]

Feeling a little more stable just from no effexor today. However, got a while before it'll all be out of my system. See how it goes. Excited for next weekend in Chicago visiting my nephew for his birthday.

[Blitter2014]

Hugs friends

Thinking the dosage increase in Lamotrigine is starting to work. Still very sad but managing to get done what needs to be done rather than running away and hiding under the covers (I lost my rock). Am hoping Pdoc will increase dosage again, I want to feel better than this.

i'm surviving nicely at the moment.

yeah i'm still not sleeping, yeah my days are boring as hell, but things are okay.

i've been doing my daily trivia thingy, i've got new stuff to watch... yeah.

things could be a lot better in terms of being happy, but then again things could also be a lot worse

[Standup2me]

I am doing great! I've been using my blue lamp therapy light
and I think that it is making a huge difference.
I call it my happy lamp

[BuffaloGal1969]

Balanced. Nuff said.

[DelusionsDaily]

Hate coming down from mania. Maybe I'm sinking I don't know. I just feel very agitated and irritable. Ugh! Or I'm going manic again. I dunno. I just don't like how I'm feeling today.

[Hopeful Camel]

Feeling irritable. Doc just put me on Abilify. Now on three anti-psychotics at once. Feel a bit over-drugged.

[Blitter2014]

I feel lousy about my life. Then I talk to others and realize everyone has issues. I'm doing ok all things considered

[Tucson]

Apologized to a long time freind who is my ex freind now due to my antics. I hope he forgives me.

Monday, work and clocks. 2 1/2 hours late. Ooops!
Feeling very anxious right now. BF is writing a letter for the disability psych thing. It's a double-edged sword. He doesn't want to do it. He's blown it off for… many, many months (so it's the 11th hour). While he's the only person who can speak about the day to day (besides me, of course)…. it puts him in a bad frame of mind towards me. That being the case, I really don't want him to do it(!) But he knows his input is relevant., and having been the one who was on my case for so very long to apply and then not to do this, he realizes would be ridiculous. But I'm very very nervous. Things just started getting good again after him coming around from a very bad time, and I want things to continue towards the positive.

(It's his BPD black and white thinking thing, and frankly, I could use some pedestal time right now, because I'm already feeling like a broken piece of s*** who's up for judgement.)

[Pikku Myy]

Major confused about me tonight happy, sad, overwhelmed.... I dont feel like I even serve the PC site.... I am super confused again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Crying......

[Pikku Myy]

Complete total mind snap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Moreta]

I'm a bit nervous. I start a new t tomorrow, so I'm not sure how that is going to go. I just want to work on my anger issues and pulling out my hair. Don't want to have to bring up the past. The past is the past and I'm over it.

Besides that I'm fine.

[tigersassy]

Feel so exhausted. I broke down last night (really bad) and still feel the same, but I'm at work. I don't want to be, but I am because I'm stubborn. I can't even tell you why I was bawling. It just happened. Maybe it's from trying to appear normal. Maybe it's because something triggered me (don't think so). Maybe it is because I'm bipolar and f×÷ked in the head. I don't want to be this anymore. I want to be better right this min. I don't know what to do, and maybe that's part of the problem. All of this is horrible, but in reality you can't gracefully fade out of the scene for half the show. I want to just step off stage and be invisible for a while.

[Standup2me]

Still feeling great today.
Too many deadlines at work, but I can only do my best
So, no stress there

[Edward_Mordake]

Slept well last night, for the first time in a couple of days. On a writing retreat at the Pacific coast for the week. Not getting as much done as I'd like to — the seasonal depression is setting in, and my full spectrum light's been giving me migraines recently. Hard getting going today. It's raining out. Tempted to walk the quarter mile to the only restaurant in the area and get some Red Bull to try and perk me up.

[deedee7]

Depression has given way to numbness. I can get up, I can shower, but I'm self-employed and I just can't focus to get any work done. When I feel this way, I can't watch tv, I can't read, it's very strange to me. I just watch as the time ticks slowly by. At 4:00, I go to pick up my daughter and then I try to act normal until bedtime.

[Hopeful Camel]

Yesterday I was ready to throw in the towel. Today, I find hope. Such is life. Or, at least MY life. A lot of positive things happened today and I'm not sure why. I guess sometimes the Universe smiles on you.