[The Grey Wolf]

Anybody else wish they were never born? I mean I never asked to be born. It wasn't my choice I was obviously brought here by my parents. Not that they were planning on me either. It would work out better for everyone if I was never born. I stay angry at my mom for having me I just don't understand how anybody would want to bring a child into the world. It seems so cruel to me

[sideblinded]

Hi The Grey Wolf

I am sorry that you feel this way. The only problem with this is that staying angry with your parents just keeps you in a very unhappy state. I understand that life holds so much pain but it also holds so much beauty. If you look for the painful things, you will see them but if you look for the beautiful things in life, you will see them, too. It is all about perspective.

I hope you feel a sense of life in whatever way you need.

Best wishes!

[Mimielam]

I don't think it's cruel to bring a child into the world. I agree that not all parents are made to be parents. I also agree that some parents are unfit and should not have the right to raise children. I do strongly believe that all family have ups and downs, but that most are good.
It's sad that you are feeling this way, I'm guessing you are very disappointed about you're parents. I hope you are not being to hard on yourself. I hope you have some help, someone to talk to about this, a therapist, a doctor. Take care.

[The Grey Wolf]

There is nothing good about me no beauty about my life the only good thing in my life is a few online friends outside of that nothing good its not just that I'm angry at my parents I'm angry at the world I'm extremely misanthropic I try not to be but I guess its natural for me and the world is just too cold for me I kinda feel like the guy from the green mile can't remember his name where the world is filled with too much pain and he is so sensitive to it and just wants out probably a terrible reference but feel like that everyday

[Turtlesoup]

Sorry that you're feeling this way-I have gone through cycles time & again where I feel like this. Hope you have a tdoc to support you through this difficult time & keep posting here-there is a lot of support here at PC-take care

[Pikku Myy]

No I am happy to be alive most days. Hugs your way.

[Victoria'smom]

Anybody else wish they were never born? I have my days. Then I feel selfish for getting blood transfusions and being saved by current medical science.

As a parent of a SN kid I feel horrible at times to see him struggle. I wish he didn't have those thoughts but I know at times he does.

Why did we bring him into the world? to share the love we have with another; to raise a child that makes a positive difference in the world even if it's just a smile; because we want to be better parents then ours were. I don't feel these are selfish reasons. Can you get a pound puppy so you can make a difference in their life?

[Olanza-what?]

I too wish I was never born, as does my parents, sisters, brothers, husband, boss, co-workers, doctors....etc.....
I have brought nothing positive to this world, made no impact on anyone. what a waste..huh! the only thing i am good at is bringing sorrow to others, watching my worthlessness spill onto others causing havack and well you know the rest...right?

My mother once told me that she wished I wasn't born. I was very young. Funny, I can't remember my 6th grade teacher or half of the kids that I grew up with, but I can still hear her voice shouting at me..."I Wish You Were Never Born"!
No doubt she loves me, really, she does!

[GALAXYGAL]

I, absolutely, feel for you! I use to have this thought running through my mind non-stop. I was so angry at the world that I could not see the beauty in myself or in my life so much of it was wasted for so long; I hammered myself into the ground long after and worse than my parents ever did which made it almost impossible for me to get up and feel strong again. But, in the midst of the world's misery you (we) are the flicker of light that shines brightly in the large dome of darkness.

Don't believe what your mind is telling you. I always say my mind is not my friend unless my thoughts encourage me in some way. Find a way to love yourself through self-nurturing. I hope you have a good therapist and your meds are working for you.

[GALAXYGAL]

[Olanza-what?]

I don't think my mind is the problem.... its my heart. I try so hard to talk it out of the race, when it beats at an alarming pace (someone else's lyrics). I don't think it beats. I often lay on my left side just to listen to it skip, gallop and pause. that brief moment of silence gives me false hope....every time.

thank you for those words of encouragement. I will visit this post often just to remember it. : )

[nth humanbeing]

i do too believe bringing children into this world and exposing them to all this mental and physical pain is one of the most cruel things to do with them.To me , it means they create an enormous load of bother and stress ,they create problems that afterwards need to be fixed, problems that simply and beautifully could have never existed.i think people really need to think more about this.I'm sorry you feel so bad, but from another perspective , i feel relieved and happy that there are other people who think the same way as i do.I know it doesn't solve anything for you , sorry i don't know how to help but you may feel better by more explaining your thoughts and feelings (and maybe therapy helps, not for Curing those thoughts , but to be able to cope despite of them).

[Fuzzybear]

I do often feel this way too

[Justugh]

i wish i was never born all my life ........heck i know my whole life is on borrowed time

1979 the year
2 months earily and i came out blue/dead the cord choked me ..........i lived and beat the odds ...the horrible part is they thought i was female so they did not pick out any boy names so 7 days i was just the williams baby

[gayleggg]

Originally Posted by The Grey Wolf

There is nothing good about me no beauty about my life the only good thing in my life is a few online friends outside of that nothing good its not just that I'm angry at my parents I'm angry at the world I'm extremely misanthropic I try not to be but I guess its natural for me and the world is just too cold for me I kinda feel like the guy from the green mile can't remember his name where the world is filled with too much pain and he is so sensitive to it and just wants out probably a terrible reference but feel like that everyday

Hi, Grey Wolf. I saw that movie and loved it. I can't remember his name either, but he suffered so much pain. I'm sorry you are suffering.

I agree that this world can be really cold, especially if you are feeling alone. I'm really glad you came here and reached out. This is a great community for support.

Grey Wolf, most days I feel like you do. I'm able to block it out a lot of days, but overall, it's my honest opinion. Sometimes I get nervous that my wish may be coming true, such as the case all of last week when I suffered from my self diagnosis of trapped gas. It made me feel like I was having a heart attack. My left chest area felt raw for a week. The skin felt as though it had been burned. One night, if I had had the strength, money, and insurance, I would have driven myself to the hospital. I wasn't afraid of dying, I just didn't want to lie around for days suffering if indeed it was a heart attack or a stroke.

Damn it, I survived. I am sorry that you're feeling so low. You are not the only one. It will pass. It will come back. As for myself being bipolar, my opinion is it won't ever end. It hopefully can get better for you. As for me, it gets better at times, but it will always get worse also. Bipolar is like a plague.

[The Grey Wolf]

I'm not bipolar and I get a weird calming feeling when I can die I always loved riding with my stepfather because he was such a terrible driver we almost wrecked every time I remember laughing last time when we almost ran into another car and a mailbox I also used to like to lay in the middle of the highway I feel at ease