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Are u feeling better mm?

send him a bill for canceling on u with out 24 hours notice ........like they would to us .........then when u gt the refusel letter to pay give it to a debt collector

I hope you're feeling better.

Are you going to stick to your meds this time and not mess with them?

Are u feeling better mm?

I left to early but every thing was coming unraveled at home. My family and in laws were going to find out this week end. I wasn't a threat to myself so I no longer met the requirement so I was going to ask T about my long term treatment plan and if/when I need to use the hospital. The only reason I am out is I had an appointment with T. I'm so sad and mad but I'm not a threat so when I was asked I said send me home. I wish pdoc wouldn't have asked. I wish I didn't have the appointment with T. I wish I had advanced notice that he was not there. Honestly I don't know if my husband would have told me. He wanted me out as fast as possible.

Are you going to stick to your meds this time and not mess with them? honestly who knows, I'll try but I always try. I hate this.

A person can be a threat to themselves and others by not eating, using drugs without a prescription ( even drugs you once had a scrip for) using someone else's prescription. It's not just about suicide. I'm really surprised they let you out so early.

Me too honestly.

This, and more.

You keep this up and you will lose custody of your son. So incredibly selfish of you.

You keep this up and you will lose custody of your son. So incredibly selfish of you I'm a good mom despite my issues. I have never laid a hand on that child, he's never been neglected, or verbally abused. He's never seen his parents fight. There's no need for CPS to get involved. I will not lose him as he doesn't know how'bad' I am.

oh kids knows ........kids are great little puzzle solvers and spies does not completely understand it (know u made sure he understand nothing to do with him)

told yah CPS are a bunch of little nazi they will come in with one set of guidelines demand u learn and fallow in 4 months they get changed ..........u did the check list your fine on that front

as for the ppl calling it DRAMA this is no drama i seen those been involded in those this is just poor routines and bad fallow tho with all the stress of day life ....she has a little looping cycle so back off her case before u start it again ..........this is her chance to break on own before the ride starts again (only do that when it is like this and they want to change) she does so give her a hand

1 pills suck but u got to take them most require food in yah so eat 2 pieces of toast in the morning at least and take that pill set.......if u miss your morning u can take it at lunch and take your last dose right before u sleep instead of dinner
the simple trick is get a calendar for this stuff and one marker .......when u take it morning make a line down (like one line for a X) then night when u take last ones for day make the X in the day mark ....circle the days u have only 7 days left of pills and on that day make sure they are ordered and ready to pick up on daily running arounds

2 as for your doctors .........u have the right to pick them so go in tell them this is a try out they can do there thing if u feel connection and like them u will be back if not u will look for someone else ......do not just go to the closest because less gas u will end up in the loop again get the one u like

3 if u feel u are not DONE go back to IP and get it done they do it fast and right less of this try this stuff and come back in 2 weeks BS

4 if they allow your phone and it has a SD card and your hubby phone has one that is small u can slip that back and forward so u can see kid and kid can see u (u put in phone and can see video made then u can make one back ) give the card to hubby just leave it in the phone until the day before u see him it is small so u can lose it

the card needs a reader and odds they will not have on onsite unless it a tablet ......so phones are best bet .......this i do not count as bad

I hope the new med combo will help get you stable so you can rest for a time. It must be very difficult to be all over the place with the meds and treatments, especially with the therapist canceling. That's unbelievable!

Good luck with the meds, maybe it would help if you could get someone to make sure you take them on time and as prescribed? Like a buddy system.

CPS i know because i was watching a kid over at a buddies house so him and wife could go out for weekend of adult fun in peace

this pushy old lady rings the bell and trys to force her self pass me to get into the house .......that did not work.....i asked who she was and she asked me who i was she did not answer me so i shut the door (the family knows me grandparents uncles aunts i am 6 foot 240lbs with a 7 inch amish beard )

about 40 mins later she shows up again with a cop he knocks on the door i answer it staying in the house blocking the door way ....he tell me he is here with a lady from CPS about a complaint ......i told him i am the weekend babysitter the parents are off on a romantic weekend no way to contact them they left phones here .......i will call the closet grandparents have them come over here it will be about 30 mins or so they are over the mountains .....they asked to come in and i asked do they have a warrent u are strangers and i have a distrust of cops most of u are croaked .......he asked my name and ran it over the radio i had nothing he/she could not come in i stood there called the grandparnets to come over right infront of them and shut the door

they waited out thre for about 45 mins then they showed up (this set loves me ) they stood outside and talked to the lady and the cop .....i could not hear what was said but that ladies face just got red and reder it was great .....they end up leaving

the old man came in and told me u did right they want to do something the parents should be there ....they were not bulldozing way in i know enough law to be a smart not to leave the house they can not enter with no warrant or cause

the kid was 7 i got the story from zulu about 3 months later the kid had a bruise on his chess a teacher over reacted ...........he got it from a tree limb on a little 50cc motorcross bike he rides on the trails behide the house .....he thought he could cut tho the woods to beat his dad in a race .....he wears a helmet but 7 years old that chest piece is good for what 7 months then out grows it

I'm not worried about cps. He's not abused and it's a kick you while you're down comment. I just threw out all the old meds so I don't OD and the meds will be unreachable and my husband will only be able to reach them. I need to just wait it out. I just have to wait the 23 days till I see my regular pdoc. Hopefully T wont be absent next week.

MM I'm sorry that the hospital wasn't as helpful as we all hoped. I was let out of hospital the other week actively intending sui, which they knew about (told me they 'hoped' I wouldn't do it, but I was free to leave!), so I understand that it can be hard to find good professionals that care. I also don't believe that you "love drama": I think your situation is very complex for multiple reasons that can be hard for professionals, let alone people on the Internet who don't know you IRL, to understand. I hope T is back next week and that you can wait it out until you see pdoc. Just focus minute by minute if that's what it takes to get through til then.

All the best

*Willow*

The good thing is I found out that I don't have an eating disorders, it's an auto hallucination. I'm on new meds. My husband wants me to listen to T about what to do. He fully believes that I'll be involuntary committed. He wants me there until the meds work. That he'll have to tell relatives but he can't see me like this. He still thinks at any moment I'll hurt mysel, I won't. He's upset that I felt pressured to leave and I feel like I was not ready. If T involuntarcommits me I'll be there for a while because my 200+ file gets transferred with me.

Oh gosh MM. Just saw the updates and new replies since I last posted in the thread during my daily (nightly) PC visit.

It happens to be nearly 2:30AM and I promised the other half that I'd be in bed by 1AM (oops) so I'll make it quick. Unfortunately sometimes IP admissions don't help, or you're discharged before it has a chance to, but I believe this whole experience and some admittedly "tough love" from your PC friends has begun to shake your mind back into sense and push you into a healthier path of recovery. Yeah you may not feel instantly better and we may be back in a similar situation again in the future but that is the nature of Bipolar Disorder and that honestly isn't your fault.

What you need to focus on doing, whilst you have the clear mind to do so, is create a contingency plan for future relapses. Your husband needs to be able to help you and you must give him the tools to be able to do so. This includes things like having him take control of your meds by keeping them secure and ensuring that you take them, having a list of phone numbers to call if he believes you are a danger to yourself or others, etc. You also need to have a list of things to prioritise and a list of strategies that have helped you cope in the past.

For now, focus on getting to some form of stability and then plan for the future and what could happen further along the line.

And remember, we are all here for you too.

Michael

I was convinced that they would not hospitalize me but I think that this outcome may be worse.

Hospitalised or not, all is not lost.

no they will not 200 page is light reading to them

if u are not done then go and check yourself into IP ...really nice lady it no big thing think of it as a mini vaction from stress .........and again u put yourself in .......just stay aslong as it is working and u feel they are listening and helping stay

u once said i wish i had your cooping skills ............well IP is one place i picked up tricks and had time some fun ........my roommate was in there for trying to kill the judge and them himself in judges chambers ... he had other room mates but i was the first one he did not try to kill ....we had some fun ........lady i like yah i think u are nice go relax take a load off the mind go blah ............i am proof they can not tinker with the core of who u are ....but they can teach u some neat things about the mind

really the time i spent in IP and the other programs was some good info on the basic thoughts and patterns others do ........u have a kiddie u see how he repeats things with out thinking u do the same thing.....this place will watch that and help u understand why u do and alter it the impulse is rewired into a different outlet

I think that I can wait it out. Meds take a while to set in. I see T hopefully next Wednesday Maybe we could figure out something longer term for me. I may end up switching Dr's because I need to see one at least once a month. I don't feel like that's to much to ask for but currently it's ones every 3 months. There's a home visiting program For 6 months that I may try.

put it this way nice lady

if i could get away from what i am doing i would love to check into a IP and have a short rest from the rat race of life

but i am by myself i do not have anyone i can hand off the stuff too so i am stuck here trying to make 20k to settle my debts and get the heck out of this state

my ssi case got opened again but they turned me down for the simple fact i use weed as medical ...........so no one is helping me at all .......the sheer fact if u go into IP your bills will decrease at home and u save money u come out better off and little more cash for fun things

i have a total 420 bucks left i am down to eating every other day now

IP is only for life threatening situations or fast med change? I no longer meet those criteria. Yes I'm still vaguely delusional but not enough to be life threatening. I got my meds changed and have to wait until they fully kick in about 3 weeks from now.

MM, I hope you can take your meds like you're supposed to and get to feeling better. I know med compliance is hard, I struggle with it too.

I moved all my meds to the pm so I'm compliant. The biggest problem is I went from 2 meds to 6 meds moving states. maybe with such a high AP I'll be okay. ...or not.

Have been reading along with your situation and don't have any great insight or advice. Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you and hoping things turn out for the best for you. Take care.