I've hit rock bottom guys I think I am gonna get a divorce just found out my husband recorded me being suicial at one point saying that I was and he was gonna show the cops bc Im apparently in a mental breakdown right now and I think he wants to take my son away from me I'm so upset right now I'm embarrassed he called my parents and told them I'm abusive and stuff and going nuts and called fm family they all came over to check on me and all i could do is cry he upsets me so so much bipolar already sucks so much I feel like nobody's here for me nobody understand that I am bipolar nobody I feel so unloved and embarrassed that I have this disorder and that my family has to see me like this and closest ones he was threatening me and stuff wanting to lock me up and stuff I'm just havig a breakdown in about to go to a friends house now so they can help take care of my son bc my husband won't snd I've been sick with a cold and flu

[Nammu]

Sounds like a good time to go voluntarily to a hospital so you can get the help and suport you need. The best way to keep a child is by proving that you can take care of yourself and getting help for an illness. Like when on a plane, the adult must grab the oxidation for themselves first so they can then provide care for the child.

So sorry Hun. The cold and flu sure can make a bipolar affected person miserable. I would worry about the flu symptoms because the bipolar symptoms seem so much worse through a fever. Get well sweety!

[~Christina]

I'm sorry your in such a bad spot right now, all the unknowns can be terrifying .

I fully agree with what Sidestepper advised , Solid advice !

Take care and stay safe

[pipp]

is day hospital an option?...i found this a better medium for me for my initial acute treatment, allowed me to have very good coverage 24/7 and intensive therapy sessions, but also allowed me to be home with my family in the evenings and on weekends until i could get into my psychotherapy program at SheppPratt...my day hospital was a satellite to the main hospital system and relatively local for me..

and...do not rage against this machine...go in...you need a break for a min, to rest, recharge and think clearly...you need it your family needs it, and all of you will be better equipped for moving forward

peace and good luck...

I'm a little better now I'm out of the mixed bipolar phase depression and mania lashing out and crying all at the same time throwing my wallet and phone it was bad guys.. None of my medicne works Effexor makes me worse and paranoid my life feels like it's over
but my son is sound asleep right now so that's good I feel so betrayed Ive never been to a hospital before I don't want people to know I'm bipolar my husband said he recorded me being suicial and threatened to put it on Facebook for everyone to see that time that I was and was crying and stuff having a mental breakdown what kind of husband threatens to do that I try so hard to be a good mom and wife it'd hard living with bipolar and on top of that I'm trying to take care of my son all alone while I have the flu and my husband has slipped disks in his back so we both are not doing good it's a bad situation i just feel so alone I don't know how anyone controls themselves like that it's like its a different person it wasn't me idk who that was but idk how to live like this and take care of my son and family maybe we do need a divorce maybe they need to leave me bc I'm bipolar I hate you bipolar who could ever love someone Ike me who had two personalities and sides and constantly struggling and going through breakdowns nobody.. You can't love something you can't control its destroying everything.. If he put that on fb everyone will know I was suicial and paranoid at one point in my life I feel so betrayed he makes my bipolar worse and he just wants to argue with me when I need space and time to myself he does the worst possibly things and says the worst things to me while I'm in a mixed phase I need a calm controlled understanding husband who gives me a second to breathe and heal and he lashes out and says horrible things causing me to go ballistic

[Crazy Hitch]

(((Sky101)))



I am pretty damn appauled at this threat made by your husband:

"I'm bipolar my husband said he recorded me being suicial and threatened to put it on Facebook for everyone to see"

It's against FB policy to put such content up for starters so you could report him for inappropriate content and secondly WHAT an invasion of privacy! Ugghhh. I am not happy reading that.

I guess he was desperate at this stage of the threat and just didn't know how to help you anymore.... not the right way for him to go about it though.

But.

At the end of the day.

You are not in a good place right now emotionally.

Please use some self care strategies.

And if you need to go, please go.

Originally Posted by Hooligan

(((Sky101)))



I am pretty damn appauled at this threat made by your husband:

"I'm bipolar my husband said he recorded me being suicial and threatened to put it on Facebook for everyone to see"

It's against FB policy to put such content up for starters so you could report him for inappropriate content and secondly WHAT an invasion of privacy! Ugghhh. I am not happy reading that.

I guess he was desperate at this stage of the threat and just didn't know how to help you anymore.... not the right way for him to go about it though.

But.

At the end of the day.

You are not in a good place right now emotionally.

Please use some self care strategies.

And if you need to go, please go.

When he said that I went so far down I was crying so hard I couldn't control anything bc i didn't even know how to respond just bawled my eyes out and cried and cried hard!!!

[Crazy Hitch]

Originally Posted by Sky101

When he said that I went so far down I was crying so hard I couldn't control anything bc i didn't even know how to respond just bawled my eyes out and cried and cried hard!!!

Yeah, I totally get this Sky101 - gee whiz the day someone ever threatened to upload one of my meltdowns on facebook ..... it's not right - it's just not right at all.....

Hang in there!

Sometimes I just wish someone could hold me that truly loves me and would tell me it will be okay we will get you fixed let me know what I can do let me know how to help he doesn't know when to walk away he eggs it on and on and makes me bipolar worse triggers the worst in me the bipolar gets out of control completely with what he says he tries to talk about our marriage and things cusses at me all the time and when I'm bipolar it makes everything so much worse

[Crazy Hitch]

Originally Posted by Sky101

Sometimes I just wish someone could hold me that truly loves me and would tell me it will be okay we will get you fixed let me know what I can do let me know how to help he doesn't know when to walk away he eggs it on and on and makes me bipolar worse triggers the worst in me the bipolar gets out of control completely with what he says he tries to talk about our marriage and things cusses at me all the time and when I'm bipolar it makes everything so much worse

(((Sky))) Yeah this is so hard on relationships I tell you .... it's so difficult at times for those without a diagnosis to understand.....has he ever been with you to therapy? I think perhaps he too needs assistance with some strategies, I don't think he's exactly approaching this the right way, not that he intends for this to occur, he thinks he is doing what he knows how to do best but at times could be causing more damage. Your therapist may be able to suggest and work with him on more appropriate strategies?

[Manic Trance]

SKY!

Oh dear. What an awful situation!

First of all, you can be loved, and you deserve to be loved! It is very challenging to be with a bipolar person, but it is not impossible. We have to take responsibility for the hardship and heartache we cause at times, but our partners are responsible to us to support us, manage the difficulties, AND benefit from the upshots of us bipolars! We are fun and wild an imaginative, and feel things so deeply, and that is a gift, though it exacts a heavy price, for sure.

I have often felt totally unsupported by my wife. There are times when I know I'm going to snap, I am really triggered by being spoken to in harsh tones of voice, and she'll be mad at me about something, and I'll tell her I am on the verge of a dark place, that I need a break from the conversation or I will snap, and she just can't give me a break, and she pushes and pushes and pushes and I snap, and it is not pretty. And I feel this is so unfair, I am acknowledging that I am bipolar, and that I just need a bit of time to regroup, and she refuses to give it to me, causing me incredible pain and trouble, it just doesn't seem right!

Anyhow, I know a bit about how you feel, and wanted to chime in on this thread.
I hope you are well, hang in!
MT

I'm sorry, I know what it's like to find out the one thats suppose to be there for you turns into an enemy. It hurts, it really reall hurts, and I feel for you. All we can do is work on ourselves to be the better person for ourselves and our children, letting the chips fall where they may. Being bipolar has always been a rough road to walk on, but we manage every single day in our own special way. We got to have hope for a better future to make it to the next day regardless of who gets in our way.

I quit counting on people because I've burned so many bridges that I've calloused over such feelings. I don't think it has made me a better person, but quite the opposite. Anyways, I hope you strength to carry on through this period of turmoil.

[everythingistaken]

I'm the bipolar one but my husband tells me sometimes, especially when I'm manic, that he just needs to stop and needs some peace. Women and men just need their needs met differently. We NEED to finish it and usually move on easier, or push it down. which isn't good but happens. Just remember your wife is trying to fix the situation. She just doesn't do it the way you ant her to.

[quasicrystalline]

Sky101, I wish I knew what to tell you. I'm so sorry to hear your husband threatened you that way - blackmailing you like that is just wrong, and I should hope that if he did post it, people would realize how disgusting it is to post something like that in the first place and support you.

It's hard to have a partner who doesn't support you. He clearly doesn't understand what it's like to have BP, let alone MI. Ignore the hurtful comments the best you can, and if you need to, don't be afraid of the hospital. I've gone before to get stabilized and it was a good decision for me at the time.

[everythingistaken]

I read your posts and got teary eyed. This is the first one I've read, i just joined today. This is exactly my situation. My husband has recorded me "acting crazy" to show me later. I won't watch. I remember, and it hurts. I don't want to do this to my kids and husband, but I can't help it and sometimes don't even know I'm acting different. I'm on effexor and seroquel. I too am afraid for anyone to know I truly am bipolar. I was diagnosed nearly 10 years ago but went through denial for years. I thought it was just normal depression and my manic stages were just my happy times, that I did stupid things and ruined my life in a way. I have a lot of credit card debt because it made me happy. Your story just sounds so much like mine. I would really like you to get in contact with me because sometimes you just need someone who understands to talk to. I'm not sure if you can send anonymous emails or private messages on here, but if you are interested, I think we could do each other a lot of good. If it's just venting and sharing what has happened and what has helped.
I wish all the luck to you. i know hospitalization may not be an option for you as you have a son and who would take care of him, plus that proves you really are crazy (thinking of myself, not calling you crazy. It's just how I feel).

Originally Posted by everythingistaken

I read your posts and got teary eyed. This is the first one I've read, i just joined today. This is exactly my situation. My husband has recorded me "acting crazy" to show me later. I won't watch. I remember, and it hurts. I don't want to do this to my kids and husband, but I can't help it and sometimes don't even know I'm acting different. I'm on effexor and seroquel. I too am afraid for anyone to know I truly am bipolar. I was diagnosed nearly 10 years ago but went through denial for years. I thought it was just normal depression and my manic stages were just my happy times, that I did stupid things and ruined my life in a way. I have a lot of credit card debt because it made me happy. Your story just sounds so much like mine. I would really like you to get in contact with me because sometimes you just need someone who understands to talk to. I'm not sure if you can send anonymous emails or private messages on here, but if you are interested, I think we could do each other a lot of good. If it's just venting and sharing what has happened and what has helped.
I wish all the luck to you. i know hospitalization may not be an option for you as you have a son and who would take care of him, plus that proves you really are crazy (thinking of myself, not calling you crazy. It's just how I feel).

Thanks it's nice to know someone else is going through the same things as me I'm sorry you are going through this too I've been trying to stabilize myself been doing better just trying to live life one day at a time and not snap idk I think you can send messages on here somehow i would like to vent and we can talk to each other about our problems

Originally Posted by Manic Trance

SKY!

Oh dear. What an awful situation!

First of all, you can be loved, and you deserve to be loved! It is very challenging to be with a bipolar person, but it is not impossible. We have to take responsibility for the hardship and heartache we cause at times, but our partners are responsible to us to support us, manage the difficulties, AND benefit from the upshots of us bipolars! We are fun and wild an imaginative, and feel things so deeply, and that is a gift, though it exacts a heavy price, for sure.

I have often felt totally unsupported by my wife. There are times when I know I'm going to snap, I am really triggered by being spoken to in harsh tones of voice, and she'll be mad at me about something, and I'll tell her I am on the verge of a dark place, that I need a break from the conversation or I will snap, and she just can't give me a break, and she pushes and pushes and pushes and I snap, and it is not pretty. And I feel this is so unfair, I am acknowledging that I am bipolar, and that I just need a bit of time to regroup, and she refuses to give it to me, causing me incredible pain and trouble, it just doesn't seem right!

Anyhow, I know a bit about how you feel, and wanted to chime in on this thread.
I hope you are well, hang in!
MT

Yup I try to tell my husband before that I'm not doing good and am in one of my moods and I need some help or time to be by myself but he doesn't undertakd or listen and shoves conversation and problems in my face and won't leave me alone causing me to explode next time I'm gonna call my mom or friend and let them diffuse it and watch my son