Stabile and super bored

I can't really say my life is that boring, but I miss the super inspired highs, minus the super lows. My biggest inspirations happen when hypo which I can maintain with a diet of AD.

Now I feel blah, I can speak for all of us. Blah. I'm a 3 day cycler, so it isn't that bad, if your like used to being a yo-yo

Always, stable is a good thing in my world. It means no breathtaking roller coaster rides. 8Gs of gravity can be a lot of stress on you.

Hang in there.

I' be been struggling with this since I got stable in December. Not all the time but I would go through periods of just feeling cheated because I wasn't allowed to have the highs anymore, even though I was still experiencing lows. I'm with you, I was bored and I missed the euphoria and believing I had magical powers. But at the same time I don't miss the psychosis and the mixed states that inevitably come after mania. So I stay on my meds. I also stayed on them for my family. My unstable time was incredibly hard on them.

Of course I'm expecting now to be depressed for a long time. I don't know if I'll ever be happy again.

no ups no downs,, no desire to get up tomorrow..... really no feelings at all

Screw the highs and lows. I'll take stability for 500, Alex. I have goals that I'm destined to achieve and I refuse to let this disease get in the way. Child, please.

there is a fine line between stable and unstable...
i wish you well
good prayers sent your way

Thanks y'all, I'm never stabile. My moods might be stable but our others just takes the cake. I'm finding it very hard to seperate bipolar from DID. I'm always changing, and my moods are still everywhere. The only way I know my moods are personality assigned is because it's their signature mood.

I'm for the most part centered hard, but it doesn't affect the others natural tendencies. They are who they are.

I'm so like tripped.

Lol After the life I've lived...the opportunities I've missed...the money I've spent...the substances I've abused...the relationships I've destroyed and the gawd-awful decisions I've made, I'll take Stable & Bored any day of the week and twice on Sundays.

When I had a high mood, I wasn't paying attention to important things I should have been paying attention to. Oh, I thought I was brilliant and creative...but I was kidding myself in the worst way with that nonsense.

Ooo, look at me...I'm artsy fartsy...I'm making crystal sun catchers and scented oil candles (but I was blowing a chance to go into business with my Dad). Later I would spend $100's of thousands of dollars of my inheritance being oh so creative making knives (that I could only sell for $50).

Its just another slight of hand trick by bipolar. I will not be wooed by a high mood ever again. I've taken what I perceived as boredom, stamped a new label on it and now call it stability. I live for Groundhog Day as it presents no surprises.

you could always visit the general social chat section and post in the i'm bored thread. (which i actually come up with myself). i know, how original.

i'm so proud of myself lol

Yeah, I feel the same way about being cheated sometimes. I miss my real self. It's frustrating that "stable" means happiness isn't for me. People don't care if a person with bipolar is slightly dysphoric and anxious all of the time. They only care when they're causing "trouble" for others.

I felt this way for a while and I still do, but I guess at the same time "blah" is becoming normal for me. I remember feeling destined (by god, the universe, etc) to do things too. Turns out that was just euphoria leading into mania. Now I know that if I have goals, it is because I chose them and I am continuing to pursue them. It's so strange how consciousness can be changed so much by just a few life experiences and a few mg of drugs.

Most of all, I miss my confidence. I didn't have an extraordinary amount to begin with (barring mania), now it's just about non-existent.

in my opinion numb and on the border of or into depression is not stable. The doctors of course prefer that to the loony times but in that way we get cheated out of real life.
i dont know why but my meds are making me happy and is that rare? i dont know maybe the prozac added in is putting me on a bit of the other "happy side" i have floods of ideas and desires and wanting to change the world and i also got back into religion but i feel like this is the real me without depression darkening my days
i hope you feel better soon!

Yes. I think my prosac isn't hardly working anymore. I might increase the dose 5 mg. to see what happens. I've been down a bit all day for awhile now.

AMEN...

I tend to cycle four or five off and on......but IMO, I choose to just live, no more no less. I tend to live a boring existence. I don't have any friends and not much of a social life but that's OK because most socialization involves alcohol (in my world) so I just keep to myself. I build models, do yard work, fish, play my guitar, and finally appreciate my family. I have my moments on the downside but I enjoy what I enjoy.

Right now, I'm watching hockey in the comfort of my own home. I could be out at a bar with my "friends" but I choose not to live that life.

Stable. What makes it great is also the same things that make it stink. Insert whatever word you want to there, but stinks doesn't really cut it. I don't miss the deathly lows, the darkness that encompasses and smothers your very being. But the creativity, the confidence, the throwing the care to the wind and actually getting out there an living life like there is no tomorrow - I miss that terribly. It's like I know I am capable of feeling absolutely fantastic, and how good it is possible to feel, but I am not allowed to go there anymore.....I'm just numb. But numb means I will get to experience life for a lot longer than I would if I remained unstable. Of this I am sure.

Being high. The cost of going and staying there is just too high.

I have very few highs, so I do really miss them. I can remember feeling awesome and creative and energetic, but alas, most of my time is spent on the downward slope. But right now I'm stable. myself and bored, so I understand your sentiment. I have to admit I wouldn't mind a little bit of the yo-yo effect if it meant that I could have some highs part of the time.