When You Stop Fighting Depression

Does anyone else feel like they easily submit to depression when they experience it? I don't want to take my meds because they may actually get me out of bed and I'd rather lay there and suffer. It's not that I like being depressed, it is simply that I have lost my fight. My mom is trying to get me to eat healthier. If you can't tell by comparing my previous profile picture to my current profile picture, I have gained quite a bit of weight from both not eating well and mostly from meds. I told my mom that I don't have the strength to fight for my health. I don't have the strength to fight for much of any circumstance. I often feel both insignificant and pitiful. How do you manage not to concede to depression? I haven't found it yet.

I've got no choice. I have to fight it and push my way through it. I have a full time job, a kid, creative endeavors. I can't just lay around sleeping all day. I HAVE to function. Even if each day gets harder and harder.

the black pit as dark as it seems is the only time I feel anything ... It scare's me and I have come really close last summer before lamictal ... now it seems I feel nothing and I really want to stop the lamictal to get that back ... is that crazy or what ...

Oh, and I've been gaining too. Hate it. Mostly it's the seroquel sweet tooth that's been doing it to me. I never used to have such a craving for sweets! And I'm only on 50mg now.

I think when I'm depressed, not much matters, when I feel this way. I have this "couldn't care less" kind of attitude. And anything I think of doing, even if it's routine mundane stuff I'm like nah.

So I can get where you're coming from when you use the analogy of medication.

I think you're stuck in a "Why bother" frame of mind today, because it seems almost impossible that this will ever lift.

And if you do manage to get out of bed? What good will that do? What is there that's good in your life (apart from your kid that I know you love dearly)

And yes, I think that your mother really does mean well by trying to get you to eat healthily. She is obviously concerned about you. Because she loves you.

Honestly? I see absolutely no difference weight wise in this current picture of yours compared to the last one. I remember commenting some time last week that I LOVE this profile picture = you look great

In terms of not giving in to depression.

No matter that you don't want to / feel like it / be bothered / see the point today -

Please bear in mind things certainly can, and do change.

I really liked meds that made me sleep for 16h per day. I cannot afford that now, I have a job, I have 2 kids, I need to move. Move really. While I was jobless it was easy not to move. I could stay home for numerous consecutive days. Once you are on work, you just have to get out of bed, get to work, pretend to work there, get home. I make myself to out for a walk, for an hour a day at least. It's really hard, really, but it does kick some joy hormones in and helps.

The problem with letting your self sink into the cozy blackness is eventually we are unable to care for ourselves or become a danger to ourselves and end up in ip.

I gave in today and called in sick for work. (insert frown icon that I can't do on my phone)

i really tried fighting it this winter.....battle gear on and everything. But in the end depression won and then i had no will or energy to fight it. Its a vicious cycle
it takes over sometimes.....swallows you up. but its not forever
i hope you feel better soon

Fight, just fight !

Depression blows monkey balls ! Get up make your bed, Don't lay back down, If you want to play some silly *** game with your kids. Basically do the exact opposite of what you want to do.

It doesn't always work .. But, so worth the try. Get made at Bipolar , that helps me

Kick claw and fight... You have nothing to lose by trying by trying

My instinct is to fight it, its my natural response. Guess no matter how low I go my self-preservation is high, and sometimes I REALLY hate that about me.


Besides that, I honestly don't feel like I have the option of giving in, I'm a single mom and have a job to get to.


So what do I do?

I wait for my first off day and do as little as possible, as a kind of reward for making it to work and yada yada yada while being depro.

My family is really awesome and will take care of my daughter when I'm having a MH day, not that she's high maintainance, she's 11 and quite self-sufficient and mature.. But all the same, I'm so grateful for being able to take that down time and not have to worry about meeting someone else's needs or meeting someone else's deadlines and expectations.


This helps balance out pushing myself so hard all the damn time.


At times I honestly wish I wasn't wired to be so pushy.

I sometimes think I just have a whiny, wimpy disposition. If my family isn't enough to make me fight, what is enough? Wanting to fight isn't enough to make me fight, you know? It doesn't help that I am a stay at home mom and don't have to "go to work." As a stay at home mom, I have a choice to either apply myself to a ****** job or to a great job. Before I was sick a few years ago, I was a fantastic mom. Since, I have done a horrible job and my level of self absobtion is simply out of control.

Thank you so much for your compliment. You are too sweet. Reality though is that I am two sizes bigger from one picture to the other and from only 2 years. That stings!

Thank you also for your encouragement! I certainly hope things will change.

Okay well you're still awesome and really you'll still continue to be just as awesome irrespective of whatever you say it's but a number I see an amazing person and it's got nothing to do with your appearance (although you're still pretty )

Oh! I forgot to ask!

You didn't tell me which of the two in my last gif you had a crush on

You were very evasive

I asked ... was it the blonde or the brunette in the gif

You just said one of them.

Should I make another multiple choice or true false question for you

It was the blonde!

Woohoo I win.

I feel like I've given up now. Just submitted to it. I cant stay out of bed and dont care enough not to. I know that causes depression but Im so far past caring. Im not even suicidal any more, just floating along in a deep dark sea of depression.

Im spending my days colouring in and watching tv shows, as encouraged by my pdoc but I just feel so useless.

Realising that no one is really happy.... I just cant deal with the unhappiness like other people. I am a weak willed and minded person or I would have been out of this already. Im putting my friends through worry because Im a shell of a person. I hate it so much.

Most people do not deal well with happiness; I think some are just good at faking it. You are certainly not weak willed! I've seen your firey spirit right here on these forums! You cannot will your way out of a depression even you think you can while depressed. You know that one is a lie; call it as such. Keep your head up, my friend, you are doing nothing wrong. And you are one hell of a friend; I can tell. You've always welcomed me. I sincerely hope you are feeling better soon. You deserve it!