[Standup2me]

I really need a haircut but the thought of someone touching my hair makes me want to vomit. I'm not usually like this. It just started

[99 FAIRIES]

I woke up
With bad neck pain from my antipsychotics. That was at 3 am and I couldn't go back to sleep so I went for a long walk in the middle
Of the night. Totally dark and no one around. Now that's my kind of walk

[dislexia1214]

Originally Posted by Supanova

I thought i had friends, i thought i mattered in their life. I was so so so wrong. And asking for support has been the dumbest thing i have done. Why didnt i learn the first time? Or the second? Or third? Nobody wants a fat crazy at their wedding, baby shower or show.

Just the fact that you put "fat crazy at their wedding, etc..." makes me want to be your friend!!! I understand the struggle there. On the flip side, be grateful that you would even attend such a thing, my anti-social-ness in in full force right now. If it weren't for being able to type to people on the internet I'd be a true hermit!

[dislexia1214]

Also, checking in today. I'm actually doing laundry! Didn't do the floors yet which is seriously bothering me to look at. Need to get in the shower (constant struggle) and my husband leaves for Cali tomorrow and I have to step up to the plate on getting things done for kids. Confidence on that isn't tip top right now but hopefully we get through. Feeling the worry coming on...

[Curiosity77]

On and off crying. I'm feeling so lonely.

[Moreta]

I had a nice relaxing day. Watched the whole first season of the Joy of Painting with Bob Ross. I also did laundry, scooped the cat box, loaded the dishwasher, made dinner, and made a sandwich for my husband for his lunch tomorrow and wrote him a nice note on it. I bet he'll be surprised. Tomorrow he is working, so I'm going to go to water aerobics and maybe do some cleaning. Hopefully tomorrow I remember to feed the dogs before 5:00 PM. ooops.

[usehername]

I recently got hired as a mental health tech and although I'm terrified they'll find out that I should probably inpatient myself right now, I really like it. I'm surrounded by my people and out pays well. I'm still in the midst of the worst depression I've ever experienced, but if nobody notices, maybe I'll be ok. They know I have bipolar 1, so I would think they'd expect a little off my nonsense. That said, I tried to work a noc shift last night, but I had to hold my night meds to stay awake for it (ap, mood stabilizer, and benzodiazepines). By the time my shift was over I was a ****ing mess... I was seeing ****, I felt like I was about to crawl out of my skin... And I was feeding off of a patient's mania in some way, which left me in some sort of mixed state, bawling and simultaneously full of energy and rage... It was rough. I can't believe what a difference my tiny dose of antipsychotic makes... And I got plenty of sleep before this shift.

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[BlackSheep79]

Just had an interview in my field. I think I did a good job, who knows. Whatever happens happens. My legs hurt from the Geodon. I see my pdoc tomorrow, thank goodness.

[fishin fool]

Here I am still cycling like crazy

[Christopher1990]

I'm alright, but I feel sadboy right now. I'm lonely and dont have anyone to talk to really. I need a companion, someone I can connect with emotionally and physically. Ive been missing this for quite some time, and am losing hope

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[Standup2me]

I am so darn sick and tired of getting nausea and diarrhoea from Lithium When does it end?

[Slowbrains]

Slightly hypomanic for about 8 weeks now. Med's kill anxiety but i'm afraid to burn myself out now coz i can keep on going on better without so bad anxiety, not so fast as before though. Before anxiety did wear me out much faster so i could swim in depresssion and take some breath... First hypo with new meds.

[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling a little better today, but kind of unproductive. I'm sucked into the vortex of online dating, which is way too soon since my break up, but it's addictive looking at all the profiles.

I am doing so much better. Got triggered by facebook, and decided to delete it. First time, and its so freeing. My head is not so busy. I have some anxiety, ruminating after spending 4 hours with ex work collegues, but its easy to be mindful. I feel i have been productive too.

My partner has been the biggest help, he really stepped up.

My animals have helped also.

The pain has been bad this week but an appointment tomorrow should give me a couple days relief.

I feel like I can start journalling again.

[gayleggg]

I'm feeling pretty depressed this morning. No real reason for it. Just feel really down.

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[fishin fool]

I dont understand. I have always been told that I have bipolar 2.
My pdoc recently started an online thing where you can access all
your records from home. I tried it yesterday and found that he has me
diagnosed as bipolar 1. Now I am confused. WTF.

[scatterbrained04]

Work has been hard the past couple days. I feel on the verge of tears. Not putting in nearly enough hours and starting to feel very guilty. I keep wanting to cling to things I find comforting instead of working. Wtf is wrong with me.

[WibblyWobbly]

I can't get anything done. I am paralyzed.

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by fishin fool

I dont understand. I have always been told that I have bipolar 2.
My pdoc recently started an online thing where you can access all
your records from home. I tried it yesterday and found that he has me
diagnosed as bipolar 1. Now I am confused. WTF.

What difference does it really make?
Does this impact your life?
Will there be a huge change in your life because of this?
Probably not right?
Your Pdoc cares about you enough to give you access, and really that is
all that matters.

[Standup2me]

Pdoc is adjusting my meds.
I hate Lithium
Grrrrrr

[hopeless2015]

Med adjustment here again too...

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[BlackSheep79]

Low energy and somewhat depressed, but then occasionally on the high side. It might be just stress or maybe the weather. Just down about taking all of these meds. My pdoc appt. wasn't what I wanted to hear, or should I say face the reality. I know this Geodon is not going to work and I'll be on Seroquel for life. This akathasia is driving me nuts. Life could always be worse, now move on.

[dislexia1214]

Feeling the same here...maybe gettting slightly worse, hell I can't tell sometimes. Anyway, thank you for continuing to post about your experience with the Geodon. My doc also recommended Seroquel but I told him that I have 2 kids and would like to be able to hear them if they need me at night and I know Seroquel won't allow that for me. But I am glad now that I didn't take the Geodon, just had a bad feeling about it.

[dislexia1214]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I had a nice relaxing day. Watched the whole first season of the Joy of Painting with Bob Ross. I also did laundry, scooped the cat box, loaded the dishwasher, made dinner, and made a sandwich for my husband for his lunch tomorrow and wrote him a nice note on it. I bet he'll be surprised. Tomorrow he is working, so I'm going to go to water aerobics and maybe do some cleaning. Hopefully tomorrow I remember to feed the dogs before 5:00 PM. ooops.

WOW!! I'm jealous...how do you do it all?? I wanna know your secret! Thanks for the positivity though, seriously.

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by dislexia1214

WOW!! I'm jealous...how do you do it all?? I wanna know your secret! Thanks for the positivity though, seriously.

I've been feeling a lot better. I've done a lot of work in therapy and have the right medications.

Last night I painted 2 small paintings and made 2 bracelets. I also started on a necklace, but had to go pass out.

Today I'm going to a focus group about e-cigs and they're going to give me a $125 check for my opinion. Can't beat that. I try to use the damn things and always go back to regular cigs. I'll prob tell them that.