How do your mixed episodes feel?

Can you share experiences if you have ever had mixed episodes?

Very bad. It felt like my brain was being tortured

I have all the thoughts and feelings of depression but the energy of mania. I have panic attacks and can't think straight. I feel like my only option is to hurt myself because nothing else helps bring me back to earth. I often feel like I am not I control of myself, like an outside being is controlling me. I get irritable and scream and hit and throw things. I don't like myself when mixed.

I will typically be very depressed but my mind will be going very fast. . I have energy to do things. I don't sleep more than a few hours a night. Ocassionally though, I may have all of these things except my body won't move for anything. I'll plan in my head 1000 things I want or should be doing but can't move.

I have a massive amount of psychic energy. Super distracted and anxious about everything, yet physically, I have no energy. I am fried and could sleep for a month. Too tired and distracted to work on my house or work or anything. Just barely getting by. Feeling restless, but don't want to do anything. Paralyzed by fear, yet trudging through the bare minimum. Not feeling pleasure, just dreading everything.

Is this mixed?

Thoughts of death and cutting.

How do you hide possible trigger text?

I forgot to add, that when mixed is usually when I experience noise sensitivity and tactile hallucinations. I'll also think I see bugs go fast across the floor or see shadow people in my peripheral vision. For some reason I don't have that much outside of a mixed episode.

Like everyone here, my mixed episodes are hell on earth. My mood is very low, agitation through the roof, irritable, inpatient, racing thoughts, paranoia, and suicidal ideation. My mind is utterly tormented and I would rip my own skin off if I thought it would make it stop.Without meds I cannot sleep much and cannot sit still. Concentration is very poor as well. When it is really bad I need to be hospitalised to be safe. I am just coming out of one now and I feel a huge weight has been lifted off me. It seems I have overshot 'normal' though and moved right into hypomania. I'm loving the euphoria but would really rather be stable.

I feel very in edge and energetic but sad and usually suicidal too. And my anxiety is always sky high and my mind races. I typically feel like I'm living a blur like things can't be real or why would I feel like this. I sometimes self harm. I have panic attacks often. Noise becomes too much to bear and sometimes my clothes feel like too much on my skin. Sometimes I get paranoia.

I don't wish it in anyone. It's torture.

I become very agitated & restless & "switched on," unable to relax, my mind races & I feel very very anxious. I can't stop moving & just want to express to someone how I'm feeling but never seem to be able to communicate it properly. Like they don't understand how much distress I'm in. I usually (trigger) want to self harm in an act of self punishment & hatred because I can't fight my way out of the state of mind I'm in. I'm extremely irritable & all up in my own head, people & noises & smells & sensations agitate me. I feel persecuted by those around me. Not exactly like people are out to get me but that people are forcing a way of life upon me that I can't live just because it suits them. I can become very angry & aggressive at times. At worst I want to destroy those around me. I start to think of (trigger) suicide as an escape from my mind. I've had auditory hallucinations during one of these states in the past. A woman telling me in stupid, but I was very aware that it was a hallucination. All this comes with an urge to resolve the way I'm feeling but with absolutely no motivation to do so, like I can't think of what would help me.

noise sensitivity as in even conversation between family annoys you? I too see the shadow guy. He doesn't hang around long lol