Thoughts of hurting others

idk when i have bad thoughts i just try really hard to imagine the consequences -> realize that effects my life -> realize my life is more important than the action

and then tell urself that when your 80 yrs old you'll do all that stuff with no shame then jump out of an airplane after doing some blow and choking out the pilot while eating a cheeseburger

Ok now THOSE i do get often. That's how I know I'm full on hypo because I'm usually pretty tame lol. Hypersexuality happens a lot with BP and especially with BPD. I actually brought it up to my brother (yea we're best friends) because I felt guilty that the thoughts weren't about my bf. They were about my dads much older neighbor that I had flings with while hypo. And as long as I'm single at the time, I have acted on those thoughts a few times when I'm really bad and much more so when I drank. Ugh not proud of that.

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Usually I have a pretty low sex drive. I don't know if it has a little to do with having very low self esteem but that's one reason I always push people away. My youngest daughter's father would try to start something and I would always either feel guilty that I never wanted to have sex, so I would do it and not enjoy it, or pretend I was too exhausted etc. That's why I usually like being single, no expectations. When I was pregnant though, I was taking care of myself every day, sometimes twice a day. It was crazy. Sorry tmi!

Well if you ever do get on meds you'll find that most likely, whatever sex drive you may have left will go bye bye lol. Everytime I acted on it I was off meds and doing stupid crap. Now that I take meds I almost hate doing it now. No.. I DO hate doing it now. That's the only reason I don't take risperdal every day. It makes uhhh "finishing" impossible for me. Talk about a waste of time lol.

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it goes down in the DM

try it you two..

Bah, that sucks.

What's the DM?

Sorry, *PM

private message

Lol!!! Sorry?

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Yea I'm confused too lol

They're saying we high jacked the thread lol. Sorry! Super chatty today

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LOL well...I guess since it's my thread it's ok haha

And me too, it helps to actually talk to people who are in a similar situation as I am, and can actually relate.

As long as your feeling anything other than what you've been then do/say whatever you need!

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Thanks for the support

I also caved and had a drink...cutting myself off at one lol.

Did you get PPD after your daughter was born? I had it and would get all sorts of intrusive thoughts about my daughter, like one was throwing her against a wall and another one I had was imagining the car door opening and her falling out, this one while driving down the highway.

I have other intrusive thoughts now, but none are about her anymore.

sorry I really can't say that out loud

My bf is telling me as I type this how I don't "get" what we are about to go through because I lost my job to MI. It's people like that who I have "thoughts of hurting" at times. Yea I'm in lala land and i don't think about these things whatsoever...spend ten minutes in my head pal! And raspberry had a good point about PPD. I didn't even think about that. These kind of thoughts, at least ones about your kids, do happen with that.

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I've had intrusive thoughts since I was little, anxiety and all sorts of ocd compulsions. Since I didn't know then that other people didn't have them, I just accepted it. But, they did trouble me especially when I had young kids, but in my mind I still accepted that it was just a thought, and I would not act on it. First time I shared this.

When I feel someone has deliberately wronged me I have homicidal thoughts, not that I would act on them, I'm far far far more likely to turn on myself out of frustration over the thoughts.

I want them to suffer like I do, I want to torture, I want them to suffer my wrath. Too often I get loud & agitated & rant on & on to my partner about how they are harming me, usually it's a completely overblown situation & I am in fact not being singled out & persecuted. It just feels that way very strongly. He gets worried that I might actually want to do these things in reality but obviously I never have & don't plan on it. When I've calmed I usually feel ashamed. It gets really embarrassingly bad sometimes, I have threatened (only to my partner/family) that I would hurt someone's child. I would NEVER, it's a sick thought born of ? a sick mind but it happens.

I'm not sure if it's bipolar related but does happen mainly during dysphoric hypomania/agitated depression, anxiety makes it worse too, the thoughts are very intrusive, it's not like I want to think them.

I don't know, maybe. I don't really get angry at my youngest, but my oldest drives me crazy. It's not her fault, she's 5 so I always feel guilty.

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i have similar experience
esp during psychotic episodes.

these days I get a lot of these thoughts. Like all the time. It's random people and things. No relationship btw me and them. Kick, throw things, stab, scratch, dig their eyes out, hit them. I feel compel to do it. I actually hit my mom and throw things. I love animals but I can't help throwing things at my dog and chasing him round and round. It's like I am possessed by demons. I am so detached I don't think I feel to murder or hurt someone

I am usually a nice person. My parents get so mad coz I am acting these way. I hate it but I can't stop. i have to do it. I feel like one day I will really kill or hurt others. I keep having these thoughts and thinking about plans to do it. Am I sick?... Sometimes it's the voices that tells me to do it.

Correct, when I see people throwing garbage out of their windows, I want to hunt them down and slash their tires, and then take a baseball bat to their hands.

Those big jacked up trucks, belching out diesel stench. I want to connect a hose from the exhaust into their windows and suffocate them

We all feel like that from time to time

Your anger towards garbage throwers and truck drivers made me lol.