eden1515

I didnt take the meds this morning but they think i did i am not telling them and i am not taking them again.

I'm sorry you're in this state and that you feel you can't work with your treatment team, but this is increasingly feeling like a wild goose chase; I doubt anyone here can successfully encourage you to do what you need to do. Best of luck.

Yea. This. You're not listening to the docs or us. Not that you have to give two hoots what we think. We're all rooting for you and telling you HOW to get better but you refuse to take our help into consideration. I understand you're sick but what would you like to hear from us? That the Angels are good? They won't hurt you? Not going to happen from me. I wish you the best. The sooner you cooperate the sooner you can leave

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You don't have to take the meds, and you certainly don't have to tell the doctors, but please realize that your behavior and your wellbeing (or blatant lack thereof) will tell them what they need to know loud and clear.


I hope that somehow, some way, you have enough logic available to you to realize that non compliance will not only get you on forced medication (and keep in mind that injectables don't come with many med options) but will also keep you confined to that hospital for much longer than is necessary.


Since I cannot possibly reinforce this fantasy of yours under the guise of support, I will have to bow out of your thread.


My apologies.


Please remember that your choices have consequences here in the real world.

I agree, I need to bow out, too. I wish you the best.

I only managed to get away with not taking that one tablet they have been checking my mouth all the other times. I am too tired to fight them anymore even though i have been taking them i dont feel different except that i am a lot sadder i feel like they are throwing me back into the hole i just want to go home.

and you will, eventually
patience

((((((hugs)))))

I am sorry you
are suffering this much.

You have to make a choice, or you take them every day or you don't take them at all. But you said if you don't take them they will get an order.

But... if you take meds only when you
are not
able to hide them... you will feel worse

than if you take them everyday.


Your brain is going on and off meds constantly, this is not good for you.
Moreover, doctors would think you need a higher dose
because what they are giving you doesn't work,
while actually they don't work as they should because you take them sometimes,
not always.

If you don't want to feel worse, if you don't want to be given higher and higher dose, maybe... could you try to take them all of them for... maybe a week, as a test?
If you are sure the meds won't help you...
Why don't you try to take them as doctors tells you just to prove them meds don't help you?

there have only been 3 times i havent taken them the other times i couldnt hide them so i have taken them for a week straight and nothing except my mood has been completely all over the place literally one minute i am crying and all i can think about is ending it all and the next i am super happy and feel all fast and invincible it is worse than before.

That doesn't sound good

What did your doctors say about it?

'It will get better' or something like this?

What meds do they have you on?

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Abilify/aripriprazole 10mg daily but the doctor said they want to get to like 20mg or something idk i was on 5 but they upped it.

How have you been feeling today? Thinking of you. HUGS!

((((( EDEN )))))

Peace, Comfort. Joy


WC

Eden I'm on that amount as an injection. It's okay do what they say and you'll be out soon.

i am still all over the place like everything is just constantly up and down and both at the same time right now i feel like i am about to cry.

which the 10mg or like 20?

I was on 15mg when I was 16 years old and on 30mg for few weeks., I didn't do well on it but it wasn't the worst med I have tried.

But I agree with Miguel'smom, you will be out soon if you do what they tell you.

The 20 mg amount.

Eden, you may not realize it, but you sound more rational and in control than perhaps I have ever heard you before. Sometimes we have trouble seeing the progress within ourselves, but from the outside looking in, having read your posts now for a long time, this is a marked improvement at least from how you are writing and communicating in these last several posts.

I am actually surprised you are only on Abilify and the dose not being that high.

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Ability at 20mg gave me restless leg like mad and I don't remember it helping much. Maybe suggest a med change if you're feeling that bad. I just got out of IP and on geodon now. I'm doing very good and stable now. Wish the same for you

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eden1515, I just want to send hugs your way and let you know that I hope you're doing okay.

I only just started it like a week ago I don't feel good I am supposed to be seeing my normal psychologist today but I feel like I am going to explode all the time and I am still in hospital and I don't want the leave to get canceled and I am just really over holding everything in all the time but I still don't feel safe here and I don't trust the doctors so I am just trying to hold it until I get out.

Eden, I know you're scared but you're in the safest place possible right Now

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