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[Nammu]

Thanks buttercup.

I've been making up for lost sleep, yesterday I slept until 11 today until noon. Of corse it's rainy and dark, that makes it easier to sleep in. Now all I gotta do is get the last few things packed and get the pdoc to order the propranolol she forgot to put into the pharmacy along with my other RX. I see the GP tomorrow so I'll have three months worth of meds. Still I worry I'm moving from a city to a small town.....doctor availability? Breath, breath.....breath.

[Unrigged64072835]

Not much happening today. Went to T and didn't have anything to talk about so we BS'ed about my husband's stuff the entire session. At least it wasn't a complete waste.

Still anxious and can't put my finger on it. Guess I'll have to ride it out.

I keep being sleepy all the time and when I'm sleepy I have constant daydreams. I stare at my computer screen and strain to remember what the heck I was doing.

[xRavenx]

Stayed in my room for almost all of the day. I just couldn't be bothered. Anything good that happens seems to be taken away from me instantly. Every minute seems like an hour, because I'm anxious and really down, yet hypervigilant. My emotions are all over the place, but for some reason I can't cry. I'm numb and bitter. At least I have therapy on Wednesday. I feel like a prisoner locked inside my head. The forum does help though ((HUGS to all))

[jpb4815]

Day 2 of not sleeping, seeing things and feeling....Off. I don't know about this, this is not as fun as it usually is I don't even feel hypo. I am just awake, why.

[Victoria'smom]

Went with H to his classes. All the kids loved their art kits. They all behaved well. The first two classes were rough but the final two went well.

[vjdragonfly]

I'm a wreck.

[MobiusPsyche]

Hate that feeling when all I'm doing is waiting until I can go to bed. All day, every day.

[raspberrytorte]

Freaking about the future, and how, if I don't get disability, we're going to be financially ****ed pretty much. I mean, obviously I'm going to get a job and just deal with working and all that stress and hope for the best and that future meltdowns can be averted.

But if not, this next time, fuuuuuck.

See you all on the other side.

[OctobersBlackRose]

I love rainy nights.

[jpb4815]

still awake.

my main trigger of fire is back with force

having lots of fire issues and memories of things that have happened involving fire. maybe it's trying to tell me something?. like something new with fire is about to happen..

my latest amazon order got lost in transet. so i managed to get a refund and reorder the same item (hopefully it will arive this time)

first time it's ever happened... but it's bound to at some stage

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

my latest amazon order got lost in transet. so i managed to get a refund and reorder the same item (hopefully it will arive this time)

first time it's ever happened... but it's bound to at some stage

That happened to me too, except it was my mailman's fault because we keep getting other people's mail and some days we don't get any mail. He's a f***ing moron.

I actually had 5 orders missing recently (a couple from Amazon... then the rest from sporting goods stores).

I've started requiring signatures for everything now. That guarantees that I will get my packages.

I have an appointment with my pdoc on the 28th of Sept. I just called to see if she can't maybe see me earlier. The receptionist said that she is fully booked. She will phone me if there is a cancellation. I feel like I really need to see her.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Thanks buttercup.

I've been making up for lost sleep, yesterday I slept until 11 today until noon. Of corse it's rainy and dark, that makes it easier to sleep in. Now all I gotta do is get the last few things packed and get the pdoc to order the propranolol she forgot to put into the pharmacy along with my other RX. I see the GP tomorrow so I'll have three months worth of meds. Still I worry I'm moving from a city to a small town.....doctor availability? Breath, breath.....breath.

Will be thinking of you with this move, have you got a final date yet?
How is your back?
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Made it in to work on time again, two days in a row...it seems like a simple thing to do but my morning depression has been so bad lately it a big deal to me to get myself up a going each morning. I hope I'm on the road to stability, I really need this right now

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[Unrigged64072835]

Picked up my last two meds so I should be good for a while. Pharmacy tech said I had another one but I don't remember having it ordered. I'll pick it up another time, since I have to take a number and the waiting room was full.

god i hate my new sterrio.

so much

the way it plays.... ugg
oh well... if i want a cd to break, just load it in to the death trap of doom..

(and this should have gone in to the random thoughts thread, but ah well. it went here)

[Coconutzo]

I'm feeling more stable which led me to downplay issues with my pdoc yesterday and refuse yet another med change. I'm not even worried about my future moods. I'm honestly just checking out of my head and hoping for the best. "Buy the ticket, take the ride"

My biggest stress right now is my boyfriend's depression. His family is falling apart, and his fear of loss is crippling him. He is barely getting out of bed,if at all and talking wildly, drunkenly at night about his lack of will to survive. Rather his inability to survive any more trauma. I've been waking up panicked for the last 5 days.He is not medicated or seeing a therapist and will not be pushed to do so. There is a fair bit of injustice in that, as he fervently demands me to handle my own issues as such. It's ok.I'm only slightly resentful of that. Mostly I'm sad and terrified.
Lucky me, I'm resilient as f*^#. For now, I can just be supportive and hold onto the metaphorical guard rail.

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[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

Freaking about the future, and how, if I don't get disability, we're going to be financially ****ed pretty much. I mean, obviously I'm going to get a job and just deal with working and all that stress and hope for the best and that future meltdowns can be averted.

But if not, this next time, fuuuuuck.

See you all on the other side.

I'm trying to get disability as well, we are slowly sinking on my husband's income, the boat is about fully submerged. I just know I can't handle working, stress is such a big trigger for me. It just shuts me down. Hoping you get your disability and soon.

[Pikku Myy]

Trying to keep my anxiety level in check. Its really hard

[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by mermaid55555

I have an appointment with my pdoc on the 28th of Sept. I just called to see if she can't maybe see me earlier. The receptionist said that she is fully booked. She will phone me if there is a cancellation. I feel like I really need to see her.

I'm in the same boat mermaid, only I'm waiting on a nurse to call. My appt. is the 9th of September and I don't think I can make it. My pdoc is booked out 6 months in advance and it is like pulling hens teeth to be considered for a cancellation.

[vjdragonfly]

My anxiety is out the roof, I feel irritable as all get out, I think I am going to shatter my teeth cause I can't quit clenching them. I want to scream and cry and have an over all feeling of everything imploding in on me. Worst of all, I have know way to get any help at this point in time. I'm in the process of getting therapy again, I don't have a pdoc appt. till September and I feel like it is going to take an act of God to get the pdoc nurse to call back.

[Daonnachd]

Dragonfly, I hope you can get in at the psychiatrist.

Yesterday I had an ECT treatment, so today I'm feeling really good psychologically.