[Gabyunbound]

I'm feeling so much better!! And am so so so grateful for it. I went back on the Seroquel and that did it. I'm sure that coming down on it so quickly (100mg to nothing in 2 days) catapulted me into that horrendous depression. Now I'm alright. I'm talking on the phone my whole commute to and from work now and, although sleepy, it's kept me from falling asleep at the wheel.

Tomorrow I see my PCP and get the results of a lipid panel (which includes cholesterol), thyroid, and my cervical spine x-ray results. I'm really anxious to find out about all of these. I also saw my dentist for an annual the other day and he felt 'something' on my thyroid and I'm anxious to see what my PCP thinks on exam. Tomorrow will be a big day. But what I really care about is that I'm out of this depression and that by talking on the phone I'm no longer a danger to myself or others on the road...

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

I'm feeling so much better!! And am so so so grateful for it. I went back on the Seroquel and that did it. I'm sure that coming down on it so quickly (100mg to nothing in 2 days) catapulted me into that horrendous depression. Now I'm alright. I'm talking on the phone my whole commute to and from work now and, although sleepy, it's kept me from falling asleep at the wheel.

Tomorrow I see my PCP and get the results of a lipid panel (which includes cholesterol), thyroid, and my cervical spine x-ray results. I'm really anxious to find out about all of these. I also saw my dentist for an annual the other day and he felt 'something' on my thyroid and I'm anxious to see what my PCP thinks on exam. Tomorrow will be a big day. But what I really care about is that I'm out of this depression and that by talking on the phone I'm no longer a danger to myself or others on the road...

Great news about the Seroquel and improved mood.

[jtassar93]

Was diagnosed with psychosis along with my deep depression today. Doc said I should go to the hospital, but ultimately decided not to send me for a few reasons ... I really think the hospital would have been beneficial for me but whatever. My pdoc upped my dose of seroquel but pharmacy doesn't even have it. Looks like another sleepless night. Also still combating these recently scary visual/auditory hallucinations... :/ everything is just going really bad right now. I need some positive change.

Doctors prescribed Haldol and due to stomach problems they gave me the option of what to do with Geodon. I don't know what I'm going to do yet....I didn't take them tonight because my stomach can't take a repeat of last night. My mood has been too off for too long so I need to tackle this hard. Hope the Haldol is kick it out. Just a short course until stable then I'm going to take a med holiday under doctors watchful eye. Trying to stay out of the hospital but I'm having odd thinking and not sure it will be possible. I need a quick turn around in mood....no harsh landing.....I feel myself falling from the sky without a parachute.

it is the end of another dull boring week.

it is the start of a dull boring weekend

I can't really say much else because nothing's happened

[hopeless2015]

It's Friday and I've managed to work 2 full weeks without Missing a day....new record for me. Dinner out with friends tonight and since I'm feeling so good I'm going to try and get more cleaning done at home this weekend

[Coconutzo]

Between the state of the world and the state of my family and the state of close friends and the state of my finances and my relentless cycling...
I'm hangin on a thread. How do you keep the hopelessness at bay?
Things have begun to shift in their subtle ways though. More energy. Less sleep.
I'm seeing my therapist for the first time in three weeks. He is going to be disappointed when I tell him how I've been.

[zijax]

Taking the NAMI two day course to be a facilitator for the new mental illness support group in my town. Going tomorrow and Sunday.

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by zijax

Taking the NAMI two day course to be a facilitator for the new mental illness support group in my town. Going tomorrow and Sunday.

Double thank!!
(((Hugs)))

[OctobersBlackRose]

Couldn't sleep last night, thoughts about everything just wouldn't stop, finally fell asleep around 8am, and woke up at 12pm, so very little sleep for me. Anxiety is still very high, and I suspect it's going to be that way for the foreseeable future. And so is my paranoia as well, Hell I'm scared to leave my house at.this point, unless I have to leave for like therapy and group. Idk maybe things won't be so bad, bug I'm not holdong my breath...

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

I feel you. I was already told he made a statement addressing to cut Medicaid and housing assistance. I have not heard mention of SSI and SSDI yet. But I'm positive people on SSDI will not get a yearly raise the whole four years. I'm so stressed out. I do not get Medicaid I just turned down housing it was too complex. I'd rather do it on my own. I do not get food stamps. He also mentioned cutting that off. This is going to be a bumpy ride for those that are not middle class and up

F***, well a lot of us will be screwed, hopefully Congress blocks any cuts to assistance, but I'm not holding my breath.

[Tucson]

I have decided to place my mother into a nursing facility, a secured unit, after the first of the year. I think this process may take several months. I am very sad over my decision, but this situation is affecting both myself and my daughter, who is now depressed.

Today I am unusually depressed. There is no reason for me to be this way. I guess I am wondering what the next problem will be with my mother. BTW IMO it will be very difficult to repeal parts of Obamacare now that it had been set into motion.

[Wander]

Slept for 9 hours last night thanks to Olanzapine (Zyprexa). Hadn't slept much for days and was super-manic. Part of me wanted to push it higher but the doctor and nurses recommended I try and calm down my agitation and get some sleep. Feel hungover from the meds now but more stable. Not as euphoric unfortunately. Hopefully I will pick up as the day passes, it sonly 9am now. Just want to sleep more. I certainly rather being manic to this blah feeling I have now.

I am ok. Have slept for the last week. 12 hrs a day. I got to get busy again.

[Anrea]

I feel half in, half out of this dimension. I feel that I need to go to in-patient, but don't want to tell my husband who will argue against it and try to tell me I am fine, and make himself responsible for my situation. What could another human do or say to help lead my mind back home? So, I will continue going through the motions- perhaps take a prn, and sleep, maybe tomorrow I will feel connected to this place I am floating in.

Originally Posted by Tucson

I have decided to place my mother into a nursing facility, a secured unit, after the first of the year. I think this process may take several months. I am very sad over my decision, but this situation is affecting both myself and my daughter, who is now depressed.

Today I am unusually depressed. There is no reason for me to be this way. I guess I am wondering what the next problem will be with my mother. BTW IMO it will be very difficult to repeal parts of Obamacare now that it had been set into motion.

(((Big hugs to you, your daughter and your mother))). I can only imagine how difficult this decision was for you. My heart goes out to you and I hope the new living situation will keep everyone safe, happier and healthy. (((Hugs again)))

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I have decided to place my mother into a nursing facility, a secured unit, after the first of the year. I think this process may take several months. I am very sad over my decision, but this situation is affecting both myself and my daughter, who is now depressed.

Today I am unusually depressed. There is no reason for me to be this way. I guess I am wondering what the next problem will be with my mother. BTW IMO it will be very difficult to repeal parts of Obamacare now that it had been set into motion.

That is such a hard decision to make I hope it is not a too hard of a process.

[VerMOZZica]

My younger sister came over to the house today with my nieces and nephew.I was feeling pretty down because I was worried about our dog who was sick.She had to stay at the vet overnight.Well anyways my younger sister came over with her kids and they managed to lift our spirits we had a nice day and had lunch together.And today our dog got to come home and she is better.So it was a nice day today.I`m grateful for good days.

I'm glad you had a nice day. It's good to hear some good news.

I'm so peeved.

The other day I was dropping my grandmother off for an appointment with a neurologist when a pedestrian on the side of the road intentionally jumped in front of my car. I almost hit him. (Fortunately, I was driving about 25 mph and my car has ultra sensitive brakes.)

He gave me the middle finger and slapped the side of my car, saying, "why are you trying to hit me?"

He seemed to be one of those people trying to get insurance money by getting hit by a car at low speed.

Between this jackass and crappy drivers, I decided to just buy a dash cam for my car. I'm hoping that if this situation happens again, I'll have proof that someone is looking for insurance money.

Damn people.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm so peeved.

The other day I was dropping my grandmother off for an appointment with a neurologist when a pedestrian on the side of the road intentionally jumped in front of my car. I almost hit him. (Fortunately, I was driving about 25 mph and my car has ultra sensitive brakes.)

He gave me the middle finger and slapped the side of my car, saying, "why are you trying to hit me?"

He seemed to be one of those people trying to get insurance money by getting hit by a car at low speed.

Between this jackass and crappy drivers, I decided to just buy a dash cam for my car. I'm hoping that if this situation happens again, I'll have proof that someone is looking for insurance money.

Damn people.

Good idea. Think I might get a dash cam too. Last year a car turned right in front of me an though I slammed on the brakes I smashed into him. I had no time to stop. Then, the useless ****, took off sand as I had no licence number for his car my insurance wouldn't cover me. My car was written off. Thankfully my parents bought me a near new car as they had money from my grandparents estate. so yeh, I need a dash cam. Are they expensive?

So thankful for you that you were able to react quickly and avoid hitting him. What a jerk. How are you now?

[OctobersBlackRose]

Anxiety and paranoia will be high for a long time to come... Distracting myself by watching TV, though it's not.helping much.

[Unrigged64072835]

Didn't do a whole lot. Trying to learn JavaScript and it's hard for me. Went to the bookstore and helped a mother pick computer books for her son. Cooking dinner at home because everywhere was a zoo. Both malls were packed.

[Wander]

2.5 hours sleep last night, all in 30 min blocks. Feel a bit tired but not too bad. Just waiting for breakfast to start in an hour, really hungry. Then meds. Should be all good after that. Getting leave again today and thinking of going for a swim in the ocean. Ocean swims cure all ills. PM me people, I am desperate to talk. Not about anything in particular, just bored and chatty.

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